posted August 06, 2015 07:11 AM            

it started when i was 13 i started having mental images of a guy pop into my mind... and i don't know if he's a figment of my imagination or if i'm having visions of a past or future lover.

i don't know how to describe it. there are times when i'm in bed and i feel him spooning me and it feels safe. it freaks me out cause it's more like a memory than my imagination. like i'm remembering something

there are times when i think of my future and he's always there next to me. he's everything i would ever want in a man and he smells just like safety and home. it feels so real..

whenever i listen to love songs he pops into my mind and when i listen to songs about heartbreak i get upset that ill never meet him because for all i know he's a figment of my imagination..

now to this day i sometimes almost feel him/it around me and it just feels right.

there was this personality test on the astrology 2.0 forum where one of the questions basically told you who you trust the most in the world and my answer was him holding our daughter and i almost broke down cause i'll never meet him or our child. you'd think the answer would be someone i actually know

i can see him almost perfectly clear and i feel sometimes that he's someone i'm going to meet. the husband ill someday have and other times i feel like he's a lover that i use to have maybe from a past life.. and of course i also think i maybe making the whole thing up

but no one i've met in the real life has felt so right? like am i going insane?!

i've once saw a guy and had palpitations and problems breathing because he looked so similar to 'him' but it wasn't.. of course

like when i close my eyes i nearly perfectly see his face and it feels so familiar. 'he' feels so familiar like a limb that i had that got cut off.

i know it sounds mental. i've been debating posting this up for weeks now. its just life feels like something is missing then when he pops into my mind it feels a combination of perfection and pain because ill never him..

please tell me i'm not the only person that gets this.. that i'm not alone and maybe this is a past lover or husband in another life or maybe visions of the future on and that this is not all just a figment of my imagination..

or maybe it is then can you please tell me so i can move on from it?

posted August 07, 2015 04:26 AM            

(I'm not sure if that made sense or not...? xD)

So.. You're not alone. I feel the same way at times. Not really sure what to think of it.

I definitely have certain physical features come to mind, even.

The thing is.. These features are actually not what I inherently find attractive. It's kind of hard to explain, and I always found it odd.

posted August 14, 2015 05:23 AM            

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Originally posted by HoodBlaze:
Yes, but you can take walks outside everyday, join a club or group that does physical activity five days a week, learn about your body, go camping, maybe go hunting and get out of fantasy land. Avoid occult and esoteric stuff probably including astrology. Like you need to live the life that your genetics have been for millions of years. MILLIONS. If you put an animal in a cage (city) they don't explore the territory (you going hiking or for a walk) they don't do physical things with their animal friends (yoga, Pilates, martial arts, weightlifting) they don't catch their own food (you hunting or fishing) and they think too much... GUESS WHAT?? They go insane and can't relate to their peers and create a false plane of reality. If you want more detail, ask me here or hit me up. Trust me, I've been where you've been at and that beautiful emotional energy can be used for something positive.
Mahalo!

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i do all that though.. i'm part of a hiking club that goes out hiking twice a month, i walk every day cause i don't drive, i camp every summer, i rock climb with friends.. and along with fencing, krav maga, pole dancing, and ballroom dance classes... tried fishing but was terrible. i have a wonderful social life as well.