posted July 12, 2016 09:57 AM            

I've been in a few close car accidents. Time slows down. Instead of hearing crashing and horns you hear things like the blinkers. You hear your own frightened breath:

"Allahu Akbar"

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9/11- my son was a toddler playing on the living room floor. My husband came home, half jokingly saying some idiot had flown his private plane into the Towers. We turned on the tv to see a building crashing to ground. I turned to the wall and slammed my hand on it and screamed "Allahu Akbar!"
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It means God is most great

At the same time that fear and grief might be pulsing through my body, I involuntarily shout Allahu Akbar. On one level I am completely shaken. At the same time I remind myself that I believe in God, that everything happens by His divine will, and that live or die, in gain and in loss my faith is the only and last thing I truly have.

posted July 12, 2016 12:04 PM            

Once when I was spinning out on the thruway I just sat there with my hands at my side. That's when all I heard were my blinkers. Lol.

posted July 12, 2016 12:06 PM            

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Originally posted by Randall:
Yeah, It's crazy how time slows down!!!!!!

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posted July 12, 2016 01:53 PM            

But I did expect to die for those 20 seconds or so. My thoughts were:

"How strange! I was going to get married. Dying right before my wedding?...who does that?"

posted July 13, 2016 07:13 PM            

I kinda felt like I didn't belong in this world.

Maybe I should have steered more carefully, maybe subconsciously I was looking for my ticket to the Great Unknown.

But, if it matters, I've talked about my faith before, relative to naming myself this. And I think it's highlighted in the most emphatic way possible, when I say that there I was about to die...and I felt no separation from God, no crying out to God, I had no doubt God was right there with me.

I was very much at peace, though mentally confused.

I do pray in times of fear and tragedy...I'll ask God to help others...but I've felt that I don't need to ask for help for myself?

So far I have mostly known that I was being taken care of, and when I didn't, God seemed so far away that there didn't seem to be any point requesting anything then, either.

posted July 13, 2016 09:15 PM            

I`m the one to say noooooo; like "noooo" will make it go away . Or oh sh@t . Not origional in the least.

posted July 14, 2016 02:17 PM            

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Originally posted by juniperb:
Or oh sh@t .

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posted July 15, 2016 11:37 AM            

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Originally posted by Faith:
Thinking about this, it's actually kind of sad and shows the state I was in at that time.

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I kinda felt like I didn't belong in this world.

Maybe I should have steered more carefully, maybe subconsciously I was looking for my ticket to the Great Unknown.

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I've done that. Even when I was actually sad, I've never seen it as a lasting condition of my heart. Just something I need to work out. In that way steering carelessly becomes and adventure. An adventure that you survived because your intention was only ever to learn and experience (if you could see the grin on my face).

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But, if it matters, I've talked about my faith before, relative to naming myself this. And I think it's highlighted in the most emphatic way possible, when I say that there I was about to die...and I felt no separation from God, no crying out to God, I had no doubt God was right there with me.

I was very much at peace, though mentally confused.

I do pray in times of fear and tragedy...I'll ask God to help others...but I've felt that I don't need to ask for help for myself?

So far I have mostly known that I was being taken care of, and when I didn't, God seemed so far away that there didn't seem to be any point requesting anything then, either.

Like I'm either safe or I'm not. In those raw, tense, hyper-real situations...there doesn't seem to be an in-between.

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posted July 15, 2016 11:52 AM            

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Originally posted by Voix_de_la_Mer:
Probably, "So! What are we going to do about this mess?!"

And *rolls up sleeves*

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I'd like to be like this in cases where it would be useful. I'd like to be like Sulkyarcher too. Virgo ♍ NN. I'm working on it...

posted July 15, 2016 11:56 AM            

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Originally posted by juniperb:
Faith

I`m the one to say noooooo; like "noooo" will make it go away . Or oh sh@t . Not origional in the least.

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Yes. "nooo"

posted July 15, 2016 12:46 PM            

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Originally posted by venus2tinkerbell:
I'd like to be like this in cases where it would be useful. I'd like to be like Sulkyarcher too. Virgo ♍ NN. I'm working on it...

Right now I can be that way when danger or tragedy that occurs, occurs naturally, but I can't get past processing violence between people emotionally first, which makes me unavailable for mental analysis. I never could chew gum and do the other thing at the same time. I'm working on it because I think I'm supposed to. What's very interesting to me is I believe the ability to analyze a situation in times of crisis is connected to a deep faith which does not even need to be summoned. The kind of faith Faith was talking about even though that's not what she called it.

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No, no, you make a good point.
I was shooting ahead in the process.

Ultimately, I do seek solutions. However, I work in crisis, and you cannot walk through one without emotional support.

The emotional support must come first in most cases. When people are hurting they need to be heard.

I think what I was trying to express was that ultimately I like to get to the deepest layer of why things happen.
Many I work with in crisis are suffering because of issues in the deeper fabric of society.

I can counsel as many people as I like, but if I do nothing about the root cause of suffering then I am merely applying a bandaid. This is the standard I set myself.

We all have a role to play in easing suffering in the world, and we all have valuable gifts to bring to others.

posted July 15, 2016 01:03 PM            

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If you're using your words and thoughts to judge your state of mind, then no. I disagree. But if you remember being sad, that's another thing... Your words don't indicate inner sadness to me. Something else.

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No, I don't remember being sad, I wasn't sad.

I mean, my life situation at that point was very sad to me....as I look back at it now.