posted March 16, 2017 12:14 PM            

Quickly, I have an access link to a few lectures that you might find interesting. I think (free access to) the site will be active for another 24 hours.

I've listened to the first two now-- ~wow!!!!!

I hope you catch it before they take it down.

posted March 18, 2017 11:10 PM            

To digress for a minute, I recall how impressed I was with the stories of Isaac Asimov when I first read them (a very compassionate person, too). He had some good characters, progressive ideals (even beat second feminism to the punch by I think 2 decades), and some well thought out scientific ideas (he was a biochemist and well-versed in other scientific disciplines). I thought one thing that wasn't ever going to pan out was that his model of psychiatry ( psychohistory ) would never come to be, but many things have since caused me to reconsider, and Dr. Siegel has pushed me a little further in that direction. Though not given in the wiki description, those using psychohistory include telepaths (who not only could peer into other minds, but also shape them), though they have to keep a very low profile (and eventually fake their own destruction).

(* Some may point out that Asimov was a major force in getting the Committee for Skeptical Inquiry started, under a different name, but it should be kept in mind that ORIGINALLY the organization was meant to examine claims of the paranormal scientifically--that is, with an open mind that tried to remain as objective as possible--and was more critical of how such claims were handled rather than the claims themselves. Later on the organization would become taken over by pseudoskeptics which automatically dismissed all such claims and made it their mission to disprove them rather than objectively investigate them, and even includes at least one counter-hoax to do so or at least one member did so on his own, which caused even some of the original members to leave it.)

I'm just thinking of Asimov's scifi idea as it becomes more and more relevant (like with behavioral economics , for example, which so far appears to provide the best ways to understand economic and market forces that other approaches have so far failed to do), and now with Dr. Siegel's musings...

WHAT is the mind? Instead of the mind in the brain and thus body, could the body and brain be in the mind? Sure, the brain might prevent full use of the mind, just as a ruptured spine can prevent full use of one's limbs, but that doesn't necessarily mean it's in there (sure, it's the way to bet). I'm thinking of the game me and other kids played where we could feel each other's eyes upon us, and got so good at it that we not only felt the eyes, but knew in advance who was doing the staring. There were the shrooms in which some "other part" (the shrooms? higher self? Earth mother? What? I don't know) communed with my thoughts, and when I rejoined others I was (by their own admission, including one who was sober) replying to their surface thoughts (in my memory they were were speaking out loud, but they swear this was not so). Later, Granny had a nightmare while I was on the verge of suicide and prayed for me, and it seems to be right at (or very close to) the same time I had the vision of Freya. And people can talk of sharing dreams, and other aspects that is currently considered paranormal.

And then there are the enigmatic NDE. A few defy any explanation for them, like one was a little boy who never heard of such but remembers being out of his body, and his mother (which he saw outside the room his body was in) verifies what happened while his heart was stopped...and it was so vivid that the memory stuck with him, and for many years no one knew what he was talking about because from his perspective he was still in a body, even if his mother ran right through him (his mind beyond the body?) without seeing him there.

The image I get is like of a Russian doll (dolls within dolls), or maybe layers of an onion is better, and our body (bodies?) are just parts of those dolls (or onion layers), and there's something more beyond that. And at some level where the mind is beyond the body that it links to other minds in like a network.

My own theory (at least old one) is that astrology worked because the planets and such were attributed to symbols from the collective unconscious, and it wasn't so much the planets and stars that were having an effect, but rather a collective psychic energy that bases itself on where those stars and planets are (more specifically, perceived to be collectively) that affects the minds of those who take their first breath (similar to how a Second Foundation telepath shaped a child who was a major character in an Asimov story by uploading a "telepathic program" into her as she was born that would shape her mind as she grew). And the variance in how astrological placements manifest could be explained with the physics model of probabilities.

posted March 18, 2017 11:11 PM            

School is also part of that in which learning to follow instructions is more important than critical thinking (which has gotten worse over the decades), and the reason school lunches and PE/gym were introduced was to help ensure more soldiers (this was instituted back when there was a draft but not enough boys were turning into healthy enough adults to draft into service), which is why school lunches were made fattening (this was back when we didn't have the plenty of today), with hard gym on the boys to turn fat into muscle so they could pass the military entrance requirements, but much less harsh on girls because they need the fat to turn into optimal baby breeding machines.

Of course to maximize that control then we have to be turned against each other, which we are in more ways than one. It's no wonder our society experiences so much alienation and distress despite all its perks, and why Dr. Siegel found impoverished, suffering natives who were still happy.

posted October 24, 2017 11:49 AM            

There is such FILTH and corruption being brought out into the open in the #MeToo media stories.

My God! ... I have parallel corrupt-authority stories, having to do with a different industry, which you and I have some amount of shared-experience in.

Part of me wants to divulge.... but, I feel overwhelmed and jammed-up with feeling of futility....

At MY age, and the kind of isolation/shunned-positions that I have been wedged-into (by all kinds of layers of subtle-and-NOT-subtle adversity), what good can it do, other than feed the interest-energy of pervs and voyeurs?? .... Or, can it provide comfort for others who ALSO have been 'through the Help-Mill' and found the Dark of disgusting pervs Hidden there.

There ARE things that happen to people who GO for Help, and you get the 'surprise' discovery that there ARE PERVS on the back of that shut-door.

And it is a 'gotcha' and there is NOTHING you can do about it-- They are in influential positions, and can lie on you, and set you up so completely totally that you are simply DISBELIEVED, and even black-balled.

With a 'few' of them (for me) the ONLY (if you want to call it a) Reward was finding out they got caught and some went to jail... and some nonprofit so-called charity(humanitarian-based) orgs are shut-down.

Time .......
But those aren't the people of my EARLIER past--- who actually did things {tangibly at that time, that had repercussions intangibly} that permanently set up a grave situation for me. It's like the yaw of that black pit followed like a shadow.

I had COMPROMISED "EVERYTHING" .....
I 'bought'-in to an offer that 'she' (lesbian soc.worker) knew "I couldn't refuse"?,.... except that the alternate-decision would have been my actual-death (as a mid-teenager).

So... according to 'some' people's mentality, she did no harm. It's just using my body for sex pleasure. That's supposed to be 'natural'.... College girls do pole-dancing.... and have sex for money. So, WHAT????? At least you have something that brings you MONEY????? Body as commodity?
Some cultures (I live among now) see nothing wrong with 'renting out' their wives and young daughters.

To some political-men??, I've listened to speech/comments?), this upscale female perv-socialworker did me a "favor" ----
She 'upgraded' my life....
I "should" have been more "grateful", and USED it as my opportunity to BETTER myself and finish my education, and HAVE my degrees, and be a PRODUCTIVE MEMBER of Society now, instead of feeling as though I be a ward of the welfare roles........ {I feel disgusted.????}

She was a RAVING "DT" alcoholic who almost every time she went on a drunk (which was basically NIGHTLY drinking herself so drunk she fell asleep on the couch, maybe even to pissink herself-- would need Valium to go to work the next day, and needed to scrape the brown scabs off her lips from the whiskey) --
... She KNEW EXACTLY 'how' to turn me into an EMOTIONAL piece of mincemeat...
When she'd see me bawling out my eyes, in an emotionally ripped and scored-up heap, then, she would get this little grimace on her mouth, her face, and she'd start to 'laugh' AT me.

THAT was the Price I had to "pay" to escape the abuse I received in the home. I had to escape her just short of graduating with two degrees, because she threatened my life with a rifle, in front of a friend and coworker who brought me home one night.....

I've SURVIVED my WHOLE life...
And I never got the kind of support I really needed-- the support-system is SATURATED with pervs, Haters-abusers of all sorts and varieties, and very dark corrupt-people holding key-positions in the help-systems.

Now I'm an old lady... (with *sonics* health problems that I might not be able to be cured of????). It's been a series of those kinds of waves.

Do you subscribe to PlanetWaves newletters? {Eric Francis} ... If you do, did you see his response, about what happened to HIM?

...

(sorry for the expose....
I have to go run for the bus...
I have my volunteer job today.)

posted October 24, 2017 10:46 PM            

quote:

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Originally posted by mirage29:
Thanks for being my support, PJ.
I KNOW that you can intimately Understand much of what I'm saying....
Just, thank you.

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Ty.

I have mixed feelings about the #MeToo. What I like about it is that it no longer allows society to scapegoat Hollywood for what goes on EVERYWHERE, from rural Bible Belt towns to big cities where women are assaulted and abducted in broad daylight without a word of complaint, to the highest halls of political and religious offices. Heck, many don't even want to think of their office (where they can get fired for speaking up--of course a paper trail will get started and it will appear to be for something else, I don't even know why I have to point out the blatantly obvious, but I do because so many people are either clueless about how it works, or they're in active denial) and homes (some of the special instructions I got as a babysitter about certain relatives I've received... )

OTOH, slacktivism (which avoids any real work or risks and acts as a way to delude one's self that they're not part of the problem) is a risk, as is the risk of it turning into yet another "Men bad, women pure" or some such rot. It's actually insulting to women (as it deprives us of agency and treats us as emotional and mental children, ironically the fragile image of women promoted by the "Patriarchy" in Victorian Times), and I guess it works for people that believe in a just society in which the wronged are compensated, but that view makes no sense to me.

I'll agree that there are toxic messages for men out there, but for women, too. Heck, I've seen romances (books, movies, etc) blatantly worse than porn for how it treats love and sex both (even if sex barely enters into the romance it can still be more toxic than straight up porn for men and women both as at least porn assumes consent whereas too many romances are about acting against a woman's consent who enjoys it, and it's seen as romantic--even many romcoms are bad in this way, by romanticizing #MeToo and even criminal behavior). Arguably, even some early Disney provides worse messages for boys and girls than a lot of porn does, because it's all about how a woman needs a man (ANY man, as long as he's a prince and all, among other unhealthy female--and male--traits it encourages), and that a man wins a woman by ignoring her consent, which she loves...even plenty of porn bypasses that. I don't mean this as a defense of porn, but rather just how ever present the toxic messages go, and that it can be even worse where no one thinks to look.

Sometimes even people who try countering such toxic messages end up messing it up, turning a condemnation of sexual predatory behavior into **** shaming and even passing along similar messages, which I don't think is at all intentional, it's just how deeply saturated the messages have become. And some do realize that sucking out the poison is going to be hard because of how ubiquitous it is, but they try (btw, there's a web series that focuses on lesbian vampires that isn't bad called Carmilla, but they had to adapt as well, thankfully they listened to their audience and it helped).

Not only are there men who stand up to it, but there are women who actively promote sexual exploitation and such for a variety of reasons, and may engage in it themselves, be they straight or gay or what have you. And because of that I'd like it if this was pointed out as well in #MeToo. Not to say "everyone does it, so it's okay" (the way some people like to do) but for real hope of genuine change.

But I understand if you don't. I've been to a PTSD support group and know it can't be forced.

x

And it actually goes into a much bigger problem in which the #MeToo horror stories are but a fruit (or branch) of, and that's the abuse of power that people often exercise (and the gaming of the system now matter how much or little power a person has). There have even been some disturbing findings in sociological experiments which show how easy the brain rationalizes wrong doing (especially the abuse of power), and yet no one stops to think what it means or what we should do about it, if anything.

And that's not even counting those who seek the power to consciously do evil onto the disempowered (in addition to those who just turn out that way without meaning to). This is why some become teachers, police officers, social workers, clergymen, and the like. Not all, certainly, but they're common enough that we need to stop acting surprised when it happens yet again. I think people act surprise because they've been so brainwashed not to see evil, which is what "think positive" has been twisted into, so that "thinking positive" empowers all that is evil rather than what is good. They see their pretending it doesn't exist as a moral virtue rather than a moral failing.

The good news is that such training and warping of positive messages has to take place in order to facilitate that which is toxic and even evil, which means we really can do better as a species...as long as we're not lazy slacktivists who get by on token (and typically meaningless) actions like twitter outrage and/or are "positive" by pretending there's no real problem that a bowl of chocolate ice cream and a hug can't fix.

x

I'm unfamiliar with PlanetWaves, but did find this:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Eric_Francis

Interesting. I'll have to look in it more.

Btw, there have been people who have tackled both sexual exploitation and the view of society and law enforcement over it. One who view the lies of the news and police will then go out to interview prostitutes about it, and also what compelled them to sell their bodies and what it would take to get them off (and shares some programs that actually work, but aren't being used--probably because too many cities depend on the fines generated by illegal prostitution for their budgets). He has very little interest from the public, however.

I'd like to see more men like him step up, and also more women step up in similar ways, who are no BS about it rather than trying to make it serve a political agenda that is their real interest (kinda like how back when Bush was POTUS the anti-war protests were huge, but after Obama won a crowd of over a hundred would just be a mere dozen or so, if even that, easily ignored, despite that everything they'd been protesting before was still going on--meaning that the vast majority didn't give a damn about the issue, only in exploiting it, and that happens in cases of sexual exploitation and worse as well).

posted October 24, 2017 11:44 PM            

I'm working an extra volunteer day, to do service for the Transgender community tomorrow ... for something very happy and like a threshold experience for them--- assisting in finalizing parts of paperwork they need to make their change official.

They are our fellow humans....

Finishing their being reborn, with new adjusted identities to match the body change already done.

(Thanks P.J. ..)

Here's the article I talked about.
Scroll down to 2nd article... talking about men.
http://planetwaves.net/astrologynews/171023-mm-95.html

posted October 26, 2017 12:53 PM            

As you know, I've lived in the *sonic* environment that is NOT conducive to good health.

Editing out what I had written here earlier.

It is MUCH too dark and gloomy of a posting.

I want to BE here for Others, not me.

(Might craft a different post later?... but I don't have the Quality access to computer anymore, now that rm is retired and has RE-commandeered Prime chunks of HIS computer time for HIMSELF. It just sucks for me, that's all. )

posted October 26, 2017 06:26 PM            

Sure, I could always dredge up things that are really from a MUCH darker part of my past.

Yesterday I had the BEST DAY....

And I VERY much enjoyed all the people I met yesterday. I felt SOOOO much Love IN my Heart AT and FOR other people. {I would have loved to just go up to every person and give them an individual squeezey HUGE hug.... but!!! BOUNDARIES???? }

So.... Even IF I do darker posts sometimes, which I kinda hate doing? ... it's usually driven by the *sonics* and my Health problems.

I realize that I can't DO everything by myself.
And NOW that my health 'feels' like it sucks??? (and I CAN'T get away), I know that IF I stay 'in' this soup too much longer, that it WILL lead to my demise?.. one way or another.

When you see me crying here, it's basically the sonics, it's the ongoing pummels from faster-beats, which add to headaches.

But I TRULY want you all to KNOW that I'm Okay. (I'm MORE healthy psychologically than before-- thanks to online virtual-sources with a BIG heart too.... I'm not alone with having one of those. *smiles*) ... Yes of COURSE even naturally, everyone occasionally tips. (That's what God made shoulders and arms and body-sides for. No one goes down, and stays apparently-so..... We prop each other, and protect each other... *hug*)

AND, it's natural for humans to HAVE a span of feelings.

It should NOT feel as though you have to smash-in your feelings... in order to appear *ahem* all-stuffy and Adult!

Ha..... Just softly gently ha.

So.........
I'm "supposed" to be able to 'choose' something to "DO", then I'd (possibly) get paid for being, or doing??

Maybe I'm just 'too close' to it? What if it's just plain-me, ALIVE, that needs support?

Maybe this 'place' has seeped past my own boundary that used to keep the *sonics* more at bey, ... all the while, I'd fight and fight and fight to get AHEAD.... Nothing goin' to HOLD me down!!!! .....

I know I should never give up.
I usually find 'some tiny spark' inside to ignite into SOMETHING Creative, something Wonderful.

That IS the magic of me? My Imagination. How MUCH, VERY MUCH, I CARE.... even for strangers I don't know on the streets, AND, in the Virtual Worlds.

It just feels doomy that I've never been able to tangibly connect with the appropriate people.

.......
I want to tell this---
I usually attend an online church e-service. There's one I go to BECAUSE the MUSIC is World Class and they do amazing dramas (especially for seasons). The messages leave a lot to think about.

My headaches have been pretty bad, and discouraging since they are sooo raw, on a DAILY constant basis now.

At the end of the service, I usually flip the window down just-below. Scroll down just an inch below. Catch some of the tweets.....

I found THIS 'creepy warning' MESSAGE...... felt like it was STRAIGHT out of HEAVEN.

You KNOW that there is such a thing as serendipity, coincidences that are NOT so coincidental when you are a metaphysically spooky-person?

It said this...

"If you don't go
you will die
cause you can't stay where you are..."
--- verbatim Quotation

O.... M..... G! That IS and sums up the truth about my physical life right now???

I visited that person's tweeting site.
What I saw was this in a header-portion of the site...

"I would hate to die and never do the thing I was born to do..."

I looked at her picture.
She was a middle-age to older person.

I was just FULLY SEIZED in the moment....
I sent her the HUGEST Heart Validation in the spiritual realms.....
Energy ... that she WOULD be able to Sing her Song, and to NOT take it to the grave with her..... May her wish be Granted!!!

My most fervent wish *lowering the bar?*
..... is To Live. And feel Healthier again.
I want to feel as though I matter GREATLY to someone who might be a piece of my soul?

And to keep writing posts, with Songs of Life attached, and have words of Inspiration ... to Lift up those who Walk Life. ... Even if it means crying... crying WITH people. Crying WITH the Victims... echoing that I CARE what happened to them.

WE are Able.... when we can be Encouraging to each other.

Other than that...... can there REALLY be anything else than trying to Lift a Humanity who struggles with the uglies in life, and need to find a 'spark' to borrow, to kindle theirs once again?

Oh cheese....... *I need a Hug*

THANKS for being my audience..... REALLY REALLY THANK YOU so much.

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ADDING.... *big grin*
that THAT is NOT this gemmy's ultimate and finite list.

NO........ I want More.

I want to do and go EVEN MORE broad than that.....

It's just my limited dinky-thinking right now.

I have within me a Sense of Destiny that grows stronger.... and that just doesn't QUIT.

Can't quite seem to grab or wrap words around it, though I try some times??? *grin* ...
It's Cosmic.

I don't know if I've left this song in your thread, P.J. .... but it's Beautiful, and so filled with Light and Truths barely able to be uttered-- just Felt.

Just BEAUTIFULY Danced, and Felt with the Soul.

ALL Are Connected... to each other.
And LOVE (for each other) is the Collagen that Holds it All Together.

posted October 28, 2017 02:55 AM            

I didn't catch the gloomy post.

We can find strange signs all around us, and many of us do seem strangely entangled in some mystical way.

The Serenity Prayer is great (and not just for those recovering from substance addiction). Or to put it in somewhat RWBY terms (since I mentioned them earlier):
x

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RCBupigm7tU

When I first saw this, I got to thinking about my time as a teenager and dealing with heartache and loss (as the main character Ruby does, and all of them do), and that led me to thinking of my teen BFF who died, among others I lost, and I was getting gloomy in my thoughts it came to the lyrics I hadn't heard before (this is a longer version than I'm used to hearing), with the music and image changing so that it pulled my attention back:

And the story
Takes an unexpected turn
A friend is suddenly gone
We can cry our lives away
But if they were here they'd say
Go forward you must keep moving on

posted December 04, 2017 03:57 PM            

I hope you're doing a little better now.

That was a most-HEAVY experience, having lost your Friend like that, TO suicide.

You read my posts on the friend that I had, that I recently discovered had killed herself shortly after I lost the ability to communicate with her by phone (my homeless years).

We have had a few paralleling experiences. Even though (to me) what YOU have been through was outrageously far worse than myself, I have had a taste-enough of those things, to realize and 'appreciate' everything that YOU have been through....

Something in me just wants to say to your soul ...
{{*I'm so sorry for your Losses. *bheart*}}

AND,

How incredibly IMPRESSIVE that YOU turned out so Strong, in spite of it.

And like your song says, -----------------
We need to drop the 'damningweights' off each of our losses. To accept them as 'something that happened' (= taking responsibility), without the wondering and pendulous millstones (= condemnation).

Guilts, frets, regrets, re-thinking and wondering IF-ONLY there were something-else we "could/should" have done ... can be a re-visit in self-punishment and harming sense of futilities.

If re-hashing the past doesn't do something FOR you (past the 'informing' review of how 'far' we came, and how much better we are, and how we grew as a person??) ---

If you/we obsess with thoughts of EVERY WAY we failed, leading to sense of binding-constrictions and closed-options ---

then, without ANY self-mercy,
'THIS' becomes a bondage, a weight, a millstone around one's neck or ON our backs.

Gently, ... Better to throw away that millstone, than to trash one's Precious Life with a sense of no future-options.

Haven't seen you around as much, (at least, in the places I usually visit here).