posted August 13, 2009 05:40 PM            

Okay...

So, let me get this straight... Are you really emotionally upset, or acting emotionally upset to...

what?

I need sleep. I'll understand this tomorrow.

posted September 03, 2009 08:19 AM            

I'm scrabbling around for suggestions but have you thought about a solo camping trip somewhere beautiful? Need not be far. Just getting away from a specific location can help tremendously. I know you like your nature, it may lift the despair if only temporarily.

If you feel like talking more about what's happening please do. We're all here for you, you have a marvellous spirit which shines brightly though I know you struggle with stuff.

posted September 03, 2009 08:47 AM            

I have been watching, but not speaking much because I was preoccupied with the self. I am sorry for neglecting you and I am glad that there was wheels around.

Sweetheart, Take it from me, someone who is constantly going through highs and lows; it gets better. The darkness becomes light, and so on. So, when you're feeling like you feel right now, just try to be hopeful and faithful that it will pass.

Please email me. I want to chat with you, privately.

Also, you're not alone here, on LL. It might feel that way, but YOU ARE NOT ALONE! We love you dearly. We just have our own struggles so when we don't answer in time, please don't take it personally.

{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}

posted September 07, 2009 08:41 AM            

i know the feeling you describe

you sweetheart, see that you are in a process, you are growing up; we all do, during the entire life;

feel free to tell me here what bothers you if you want to talk about it, ok!

posted September 07, 2009 05:55 PM            

today i started off well as i didnt even go to bed i stayed up all night on my laptop on youtube watching party of five and as the world turns. then at about 5am went out for my usual everyday walk and listened to music. got home at 6 30am. then went to bed. woke up at 12 pm ate my cereal and now am on my laptop and i just finsihed watching mean girls funnyass movie.
i am stil recovering from the past two days i want even home i had stayed at my ousins house and it ws complete horror never got to sleep aunts were yelling cousins got beaten it was so whatever. so i am back i am happy havent seen my room in two days and i gunna stay here for a while now.

posted September 07, 2009 08:36 PM            

about the aunt, i've got an aunt that i used to be scared of. she didnt watch her word, as a true sag, and used to make feel really bad by just being around; i was scared to be told off about anything (well, anything for me)

then, i grew up a bit, and once i was old enough to go to paris alone, i went to stay at her place. i was scared at first but you know, paris... so i went, and i discovered her; i saw her work, how many hours she used to do(and still does), her responsabilities, and also her great lifestyle, let me tell you that she impressed me. Then, when i was in london, if i needed anything, she would providebecause what she wanted was to see me stand on my two feets.

this summer she came over in the south for her holidays; we worked together most of her holidays "reparing/redoing" her part of the familial house that she's got. sometimes, i could feel that i did upset her; that's quite classical with me really; and she made a few comments which would have hurt me before; but this time it didn't bother me at all.

well, it's 2:35 am here, time to brush my teeth...

posted September 08, 2009 09:03 AM            

Deppy;
Do I have that Aunt? LMAO, I am Italian, so The Whole Family is that aunt. A firm smack to the back of the head and someone yelling, dumba$$ is part of my childhood scenario.
But ya know, I just don't take that stuff seriously, cause most people are operating from their own self serving agendas anyway, and probably has very little to do with you.

I know it is very difficult for a "non-sensitive" person to tell a sensitive person not to take things personally. I mean that is literally your makeup as a person and how do you change that?
Well, I have no ansers for you there except to try and remember that people don't always mean what they say and say what they mean, you know?
And if she is that toxic to you, then just avoid her at all costs. Course you could confront her and tell her how you feel, but only you know if that is appropriate.