posted February 26, 2009 04:52 PM              

scrappy, please tell me about your experience!! were you moon or mercury?

right now i'm feeling almost overwhelmed by this aspect. i think it is because he really encourages me to talk about my feelings and he WANTS me to talk about my feelings and i am SO not used to that. i have an afflicted moon and i'm used to keeping my feelings inside. part of it is that i'm an aquarius sun, mercury and mars and prefer not to talk about my feelings in general. so i am feeling this amazing, liberated feeling on the one hand and like some kind of vague anxiety about being too open on the other. like it's making me almost vulnerable, being so emotionally expressive. and he's aware of every nuance of my feelings (the moment they change) and asks me about them immediately. usually my aquarius likes to process everything before i even really ACKNOWLEDGE my feelings, so it is a bit weird!! but all that said, i'm really grateful too!

posted February 10, 2021 01:51 PM            

On one hand, my moon is trining his mercury and venus. On the other hand, my mercury is opposing his moon.

Our dynamic is that i can always talk through what im experiencing in my mind. It can be really difficult to face what im going through sometimes, and i feel like i'm bothering him with how heavy the topics can get; but he reassures me that he's here for me. When i ask if he could give me encouragement, he does, and his words really matter to me. There was a time when i would send him one wholesome meme a day, and i really looked forward to it everyday. Most days, he wouldn't respond but i knew he read them.
I know that sometimes my unapologetic adoration towards him can be uncomfortable for him because that's what he's told me but he's given his consent that i can continue. I think one way he put it was "im sorry i havent been as appreciative of you as i should." I remember telling him that if i make him smile a little sometimes then thats plenty appreciation for me.
There's definitely been months of silence between us. I've learned not to take those moments too hard. Sometimes it's because i said something hurtful and he won't face me with anger. Sometimes it's because he's got a lot going on, and doesnt have the time.
He's kind of an enigma in the friend group we share. It makes it even more special when he shares what he's thinking about, and how he thinks. I remember a moment when we were hanging out in person and he talked to me about how he thinks in pictures so sometimes its really hard to talk to people. I've made sure to state that he doesn't have to respond to me if he doesn't want to, but he's still a person that continues to put effort into continuing a relationship with me. Even if he doesn't respond to the more serious conversations that involve him, he will show that he cares about me.
We are really different people in how we engage with the world: he's brooding and mysterious and im bubbly and open. In ways that matter to me we agree though: with spirituality, interest in media, and i think we have similar goals in life (a cozy cottage in the mountains with a farm surrounded by plants and animals).
I love him a lot and I'm ok with it being an unrequited love, but i don't think i could ever marry a person who i dont love as much as i love him; sadly, i haven't found another person that i've had such an intense caring connection with.