posted May 04, 2009 04:39 AM         

MVM do u think i can expect someone from the past contactin me around that time ?!

posted May 04, 2009 05:46 AM         

On May 6th,transiting Mercury goes retrograde in 1'22 Gemini in my 9th house
opposing my Neptune in Sagittarius in 3rd
square my Moon in Pisces in 6th
(T-Square)
trine Pluto in Libra in 1st

On May 30th, transiting Mercury goes direct in 22'54 Taurus in my 9th on June 1
opposing my Venus in 21'47 Scorpio in 3rd
square my Mars in 25'54 Aquarius in 6th

therefore this retrograde should be strongly affecting me. It has a lot to do with my mother who has serious health problems with diabetes and whose partner has recently died. I worry about her a lot, and being around her depresses me. Every time I am around her, I feel heavy inside. I know that I have a highly karmic relationship that include strong obligations to support her as her only child. I feel that my lunar apex t-square of Moon in Pisces in 6th square the opposition of retrograde Saturn in Gemini in 9th and Jupiter-Neptune in Sagittarius in 3rd. indicates that as well as the numerous transneptunian objects (Quaoar,Ixion,Varuna,Sedna,and Eris) aspecting my Moon which indicate intensified evolutionary lessons/experiences involving my mother as well as women in life in general. I know that unless I am with a woman who is spiritually oriented, I will always have difficulties with women. ........especially with my lunar apex t-square. At least, my Sun trine Moon indicates that there is also harmony with women and the potential to be in a good marriage.

Today, my white mother told me the realities of racism that blacks deal with here in Sacramento,California which reminds me why I dream of relocating out of my hometown and have considered the San Francisco Bay area where I was born in San Francisco and stationed in Alameda when I was in the navy during my 1st enlistment. A part of me is idealistic and almost naive when it comes to racism (Moon in Pisces in 6th square Jupiter-Neptune in Sagittarius in 3rd) in that I believe in Dr. Martin Luther King Jr's dream in that we all get along,love each other,and be in unity. I try to to see the best in everybody. I don't go out that much,and so I guess that factors into my being blind about racism here in Sacramento. My city was voted most racially integrated major city in the USA,and I thought that meant that racial relations is good her. I was mistaken. My mother pointed out to me that a city that has racial diversity doesn't mean that they don't have a problem with racism. I have Moon square retrograde Saturn in 9th, and I feel that has to do with the harsh realities of racism which my points out to me. The t-square indicates the struggles,conflict of my multiethnic ancestry,the confusion,and the racism as well as the idealism that's all connected. There have been many times that I wished that I wasn't part black and that I was white like my mother with peaches and cream complexion, dark curly-wavy brown hair instead of having light brown skin,black frizzy-curly hair,and broad nose. A lot of times, I feel that my idealism,my sense of unity/universal love stems from my multiethnic ancestry and multicultural background. I want to transcend racial boundaries because I don't fit in them in the first place,and I want to be acknowledged for who and what I am and not what society things that I should be. There is a multicultural diversity day celebration here in Sacramento on May 9th,and I am definitely attending.

This t-square also indicates spiritual,religious conflict that's inside me. I am resolving this by joining a church for the first time in my entire life.

in some ways, my chart is similar to Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. He had Moon in Pisces in 12th house square the opposition of Mars in Gemini in 3rd and Saturn in Sagittarius in 9th. He and I share an apex Moon in Pisces t-square in cadent houses that involves an opposition with Saturn. I guess his configuration indicates his emotional idealism being challenged by racism and violence, and he died a violent death even though he practiced nonviolence.

In some ways, I want to be like Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. in regards to neurodiversity. I take the neurodiversity movement very seriously,and I feel that my life purpose is to be a neurodiversity advocate. I am not sure where it will take me. I am well aware of the challenges that are involved. I have already dealt with people that are bigots and intolerant of neurodivergent people and see us as disordered and need to be fixed as well as not being intelligent. I have experienced psychiatric misdiagnoses that lowered my already self esteem. Luckily, I got accurate diagnoses by neurologists years afterwards, and that's because I was a good self advocate and stood up for myself. Now, I want to be an advocate for my fellow neurodivergents including especially children. I don't want them to go through what I,my mother,and my father have gone through as neurodivergents. I want help others understand that neurologically different doesn't mean neurologically deficient.

I am joining a church because I want to socialize,associate,and make friends with spiritually oriented people. I want to use the church as a stepping stone to forming a nonprofit neurodiversity organization too. I want to be active volunter in the church and in my community. The church is one of the presenters of Children Of The New Earth Conference which is about neurodivergence,Indigo,Crystal and the psychiatric misdiagnoses. Therefore, I feel that the church is a perfect fit for me and my neurodiversity cause.

I keep noticing that every planet that has gone retrograde and direct in the recent past months has been making close aspects to my chart, and it seems like these are times of significant events and development for me. Even future retrogrades/directs will be in close aspects to my chart like transiting Saturn going direct conjunct my Ascendant in 13'26 Virgo on day that I attend Unity/New Thought Principles class at Spiritual Life Center and Neptune going retrograde conjunct my Mars in 25'54 Aquarius during the Children of the New Earth Conference,my new member orientation,and my becoming a member of Spiritual Life Center.

Stationary direct,retrograde transits aspecting chart do seem to correspond with major events.

posted May 04, 2009 06:24 AM         

It's hitting my 5th and just as l was starting to make real headway with gun man

why why why?
I hate mercury rx

posted May 04, 2009 03:49 PM         

Well, not the lecture / speech actually was bad (I had some good points to bring across), but my mouth was so dry, it felt like there was just no spittle left, and I really really had to fight to form coherent and understandable sentences or rather to bring them out of my mouth.
Even that old lisp came back.

The thing is if it wasn`t for that kind of dry mouth, it would have been a good lecture.
But I never experienced something like that before, almost drained of the ability to speak.

posted May 04, 2009 04:18 PM         

http://www.aquariuspapers.com/astrology/2005/11/how_does_mercur.html

This actually made me feel a little better about this retrograde. Already, I've had a world of issues with my cell phone, computer, television and car breaking down and needing repair.

Mercury Rx starts out by conjuncting my Ascendant and then goes STN Direct on my Jupiter. That sounds okay, right?!? ( )

<<<<Mercury retrograde in the First house: You’ll take a new look at your self-image, and recent information about yourself, or who you think you are may need to be reconsidered. Old character traits and ideas may resurface in new forms. Re-think a new beginning you may have been offered recently, and/or finish up some old business so you can get on with a new way of perceiving, coordinating, or expressing something. You may find you know something about yourself that you want to communicate, but not know how. You can get flashes of insight into your subconsciousness. Great time for reworking your self-expression and the personality you are expressing.

Mercury retrograde in the Twelfth house: This is a period for you to achieve closure on whatever ghosts and sorrows are still bugging you. Review and change your thinking, perception, affirmations, interpretations, meditations, or prayers to come to a more compassionate view of what is leaving and why things have happened the way they did. Unclear speech or recollection could cause trouble in unsuspected ways, so best to say little and forgive much. Get a new insight into an old sorrow or self-undoing behavior. A great time for taking one last look back before closing a chapter of the life that is already over. You'll get glimpses of the "movie of your life," and may need to re-edit your view of what happened and why.>>>>>

For general house interpretations, I find these ones have a little more merit. I'm moving in with my boyfriend on May 23rd and there have been a number of communication snafus in trying to get everything organized. He's now traveling abroad for 10 days which is adding to the stress.

And I really do feel like one chapter of my life is coming to a close with another one beginning! I've actually never felt so much like that in my entire life as I do right now.

posted May 04, 2009 07:04 PM         

my FB chat is not working
my msn is not working
my phone battery is kaput
my gun man's internet is not working so no email!

grrrrrrr this is a nightmare!!!!