posted July 06, 2009 01:26 AM            

Saturn transiting my 10th, Uranus transiting my 4th. What Geo said about moving more towards Uranus (and the house that's in) makes a lot of sense to me. The reason I say this is because traditionally I have always been VERY career focused (Virgo Sun/MC/Venus conjunction). Within the last several months however, I have actually been more focused on my private life and developing what I want in that arena. Not that I've been succeeding, but hey, I'm trying.

The other thing about this transit is that it squares my NN at Gemini 22 in the 7th house. Building a steady relationship with someone figures into that whole 4th house thing too, so I'm hoping this transit might actually help me get started on the right path.

posted July 06, 2009 07:51 AM            

The Uranus/Saturn opposition formed a grand cross with my chart. I have natal Mars and Chiron at 19 degrees Gemini, opposition Saturn at 20 Sagittarius and Uranus a few degrees later. So when transiting Uranus and Saturn were around those degrees, I had:

T. Uranus square natal Mars
T. Uranus square natal Chiron
T. Uranus square natal Saturn
T. Uranus square natal Uranus
T. Saturn square natal Mars
T. Saturn square natal Chiron
T. Saturn square natal Saturn
T. Saturn square natal Uranus.

Toughest few months of my life.

In late November, my engagement to the man I was going to marry ended out of the blue. Due to financial reasons (he didn't have a job or enough money to move out), we had to keep living together until March... sharing a tiny one-room studio apartment. I can't even describe how awkward, uncomfortable, and painful it is to live with an ex in such a small space.

In January, after trying to support both myself and my ex with a very meager salary (made even more meager by some insane winter electric bills), my savings account hit $0. I fished for quarters in couch cushions. At one point, I had to make $5 plus some pocket change stretch a week for groceries (the only thing edible in my apartment was salt and some garlic cloves). There were days in a row where I ate nothing but bananas because they were all I could afford.

In March, I became sicker than I've ever been in my life. It was some mystery illness that lasted for four weeks: non-stop cough, temperature consistently in the 100s, shivering so hard my teeth actually clattered (all night, every night), unable to eat, barely able to move, passing out every time I stood up. There were several times I thought I was going to die. And other times I thought I should go to the hospital, but didn't even have the strength to crawl to the phone to get a ride there. At one point I had the experience of rising out of my body after not being able to breathe from a coughing fit. (I am normally very healthy and robust.)

In May, both of my parents lost their jobs at the same time. I had to move several thousand miles away to go help them out and offer moral and emotional support. They're still dealing with the aftermath of it all, and may have to declare bankruptcy and lose their home. My father also has heart problems that have been getting gradually worse -- he was scheduled for a heart surgery but had to cancel it, because when he lost his job he lost his medical insurance.

When I moved in June to be near my family, I had a job lined up nearby, teaching summer classes. Once I got into town, my classes were all cancelled due to budget issues at the college I was going to work at. The town is small and the economy is pretty sad -- I'm still looking for work.

However, everything that has happened has felt monumentally significant. I don't feel at all like the same person I was last year (in a good way) -- with the pain has come wisdom and strength. Hard lessons are surfacing (Saturn) in chaotic, unexpected ways (Uranus)... once this transit is over, we'll all have grown so much! It is really a blessing in disguise. Even if we can't see that in the midst of it all