posted July 30, 2009 12:13 PM         

I'm sick of idle BS, job rejections, and well having a ****** birthday.

posted July 30, 2009 12:17 PM         

I am going to look at your chart.

HUGS

Raymond

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“It is absolutely the perfect name,” Dr. Brown said, given the continuing discord among astronomers and the public over whether Pluto should have retained its planetary status.

In mythology, Eris ignited discord that led to the Trojan War.

“She causes strife by causing arguments among men, by making them think their opinions are right and everyone else’s is wrong,” Dr. Brown said. “It really is just perfect.”

posted July 30, 2009 12:25 PM         

Stop what you are doing right now.
Take a deep breath.
Call a friend and talk to them.

Wanna talk to a silly stranger who wants to hear your story? Send me an email to consuela_castillo@yahoo.com

YOU ARE NOT ALONE.
You will receive enormous emotional support from people on this site.

posted July 30, 2009 12:51 PM         

Transiting Mars is squaring your Saturn
is a transit that indicates that assertiveness,passion is in conflict with your tendency to be disciplined,structured. This could indicate potential for frustration,irritability. in extreme cases, there could be accidents,violence. in the most extreme case, death. In Cosmobiology, Mars/Saturn midpoint known as the death axis.

The key to using this transit is to be disciplined in your actions and keep your anger in check as well as be realistic about any motivations that you have in your life.

Transiting Mars is in your 8th house and Natal Saturn is 11th house............so with Mars in 8th, it involves shared resources in general ....it can be about other's money , could be about intimacy. 8th house is also associated with transformation,regeneration,death. with Saturn in 11th, it can involves hopes/wish, but also friendships,community.

There could be a feeling that you have been let down by friends and/or intimate partner and could have problems trusting others. There also might be some financial issues.

Transiting retrograde Jupiter-Neptune conjunction is in your 4th house and opposing your Jupiter in 10th.

It indicates the possibility of expansive deception,illusion,confusion in your domestic environment is at odds with expansion in your career,aim of life,social status. It could be about being torn between home and career.

a great way to use this transit is channel it in spirituality. There can be the potential for much faith,inspiration,optimism.

It's trining your Moon in 12th which seems like a time for spiritual development. You will notice this more and more as the transit gets narrower and narrower in orb.

Transiting retrograde Eris is in your 6th house and opposing your Moon in 12th, and this could indicate the possibility of equality,diversity issues in work,daily routine that are at odds with your emotional nature, leading to issues with anxiety and worrying. There can be issues with controversy,discord with certain women in your life.

With Eris being a transneptunian, it's an intensifed evolutionary transit. A time where you could be going through intensified experiences that help you along your spiritual path.

with your Ascendant in 29'01 Libra/Aries, it seems like you were effected by the eclipse that was in your 9th house which seems like matters of faith,beliefs were in high focus. Belief systems can be tested,rocked during an eclipse in the 9th house.

You have prominent Chiron energy in your chart with the heliocentric Chiron Nodal axis on your Ascendant/Descendant axis
so the wounded healer theme is strong in your life. wounds,pain,healing,teaching,holistic stuff,the maverick are themes of Chiron

Raymond

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“It is absolutely the perfect name,” Dr. Brown said, given the continuing discord among astronomers and the public over whether Pluto should have retained its planetary status.

In mythology, Eris ignited discord that led to the Trojan War.

“She causes strife by causing arguments among men, by making them think their opinions are right and everyone else’s is wrong,” Dr. Brown said. “It really is just perfect.”

posted July 30, 2009 02:23 PM         

Life sucks, and i think that somehow it's a good sign that we are evolving. But it's strange to think that we are evolving when life feels difficult. That is when we face death that we see the most valuable things in life.
At my worst time, my sister told me to "take thing one at a time, second by seconds." she's a leo sun (12th) with an aries moon (8th) opposing pluto.
Do you have family? Do you want to talk about them? Or anything else?
I would like to talk about your chart. Im interested in your 12th house pluto moon, how do you feel about it? There is an intersting article on astro.com about the twelve house.

Yin and crabbypatty gave you their mail, but you can always describe your situation on this thread if you want.

posted July 30, 2009 03:12 PM         

These are hard transits. Not to mention, I feel like 12th house Moon tend towards depression.

posted July 30, 2009 05:21 PM         

Please listen to what everyone else is saying. You will be alright. You are going through a difficult and emotional time right now but you WILL make it through. Suicide is a permanent resolution to what are always temporary problems.

I am sending you lots of Love & Light. I haven't posted in a while but felt compelled to respond to your obvious cry for help & support. If you need someone to talk to, I would love to chat. I will just listen...you can email me at starrxdlvr@msn.com.

Please take care of yourself.

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posted July 30, 2009 08:00 PM         

I recall feeling really down when I hit 30 and then again at 40. Looking back 30 is still so young and their was so much changing in my life. Every moment holds potential that we may not realize at the time. Every day, every hour, every minute, and every second I can still choose again. It's never too late. Really.

Lately I've been really down on myself because I'm in a rut that I can't get out. So what do I do ? ruminate about it - for years and years. But I decided I can make some really small changes even now at my age. I'm trying to live my life day by day rather than working to achieve a goal.It seems like I never get there, so why not pitch the expectations. It's shifting from being product oriented to process oriented. ( www.ourbestversion.com )

Someone at work just told me about a friend who at 50 is finally moving to Santa Fe. she has always wanted to do this and now she's ready. About a month ago I read how some woman in her eighties runs ironman triathlons. She's a nun who started running at 50.

posted August 01, 2009 07:03 AM         

Suicide is against Divine Law, and Divine Law transcends religious dictums.

If any native commits suicide, the next incarnation gives even tougher lessons.
That is the best incentive to avoid taking your own life.

Even Royalty upto early 20th century did not have Air conditioning, Mobiles, iPods and Ice cream. We should not have to be upset ever

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