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posted August 19, 2009 11:22 AM         

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You know what, this is retarded.

I don't want to see him. I don't really give a s**t if he wants to see me. I'm tired of trying to make amends for this relationship when i did nothing wrong.

I don't know why i can't let go- if that's even what the problem is. I just know i want to do it. I just know this is part of my history, and generally your history has the courtesy to stay in the freakin' past. So that's what it needs to do!

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posted August 19, 2009 03:34 PM         

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When i lived to my daughters father i going to be in loved in an other man. I was in love in sex year in that man. I say anything to no one. My feelings leed me to divorce later. First when the love for that man got over i told that man which kind of feelings i had for the man. To late.

you did the only right thing.

A married man must be have long time to think. If he loved you he must told you that. He lost you.

The most of time i belive strong feelings must be mutual. I think it s unusual to be one-sided. Thougt and feelings are might energy.

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posted August 19, 2009 04:23 PM         

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Since you're not interacting with him when you see him, I would say that you need to find a way to take back the power in your life. If you were with some other really great guy, you wouldn't feel like running the other way whenever you saw this ex-love, right?

Especially in passionate affairs I think a lot of us get nervous being around the other person for a time. At some point you have to find a way to let that go. I think the two most common ways of doing that are either realizing how not-right the other person is/was, or realizing how fine you are without them in your life.

The moral authority in your life is you. Only you get to decide what is best for you. Not some guy you had a thing for. You don't know the karma he's dealing with, or how much worse off he may be than you are.

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posted August 19, 2009 04:42 PM         

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love it is one of the most difficult thing. No one find an simple answer. I am afraid of feelings and sometimes i would rather go out through the first door.... run away from my feelings because i know it allways grow out...danger energy

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posted August 19, 2009 06:39 PM         

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Hello Meta4,

I'm so glad to hear you say that you are getting help with your PTSD. I send out a big Congratulations to you. It's a difficult decision but you will soon feel much relief.

Looking at that last horary chart I have to say it's one of the most violent charts I've seen. You made the right decision not to see him. The chart suggests that he needs lots of help that only he can seek out.

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posted August 19, 2009 07:54 PM         

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Edit.

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posted August 20, 2009 03:37 PM         

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I let him go at exactly 12:03 PM today, Knowflakes.

Thank you for all of your encouragement, patience, and support.

A new chapter has begun.

I would appreciate if a Mod destroyed this thread, as it contains painful info.

Much love to you all,

Meta.

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posted August 20, 2009 09:34 PM         

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Sending you a big {{{ hug }}} meta
You're going to be just fine

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