posted October 07, 2009 09:01 PM         

one harmless one used to wait around for me in this park that i cut across everyday to get to work and he did it for about a year until he moved away. i didn't realize he lived near where i lived and that it was the same guy i would sometimes walk by where i lived. he finally smiled at me one day and i was confused by it. and then i connected the dots and was like oh the guy in the park is the same guy i see where i live.

the other was really intense, go for the gold kind of borderline scary but mostly comical following and staring. one of my friends found him scary/creepy and he was a guy. HE was scared and wondered why i wasn't scared.

then there's these other guys who more or less do the same as most of the others and that's just watch me from afar and stare me down.

i don't get phased by these things happening to me only because i can't remember faces very well and i don't pay attention to my surroundings. you have to yell at me to get my attention because my video nano is my best friend.

i don't see myself as the kind of person someone would need to and want to obsess over. it's like if you want to get to know me then just ask or say hi. granted i'm not a very outgoing person or like strangers talking to me or talking to people i don't know well, but if i don't like you then i'll let you know.

people often tell me oh i've been watching you for a long time and i'm like and where did you come from? i often have other people tell me oh by the way that guy's always staring at you or did you see him peer over at you? and i'm often very surprised or confused like why would they do that for?

i have been told by many people that i come off as mysterious and that i stand out and they wanna know what my ethnicity is and who i am. my male friend tried to describe one of those said stalker/starers as doing what he does because he probably finds me a "mysterious beauty". he said when you look at me, you can't pinpoint what i am exactly and that's intriguing. i have large, intense eyes that people find fascinating as i'm asian with european (white) ancestry.

but yeah if there's any theme for me from these obsessive or watcher types is that they seem to be intrigued by exotic looking people like myself. i don't like to use that term, but my male friend was blunt and said that was what it was whether i liked it or not.

as for me, i'm too lazy to follow people around. but mostly i'm too self-conscious and shy to do the things that have been done to me. i can't stare at people without laughing and i sometimes wonder how these guys can do it and be SO SERIOUS about it.

posted October 07, 2009 09:52 PM         

but yeah scorpio is obsessive. this guy is in love with my cousin and hes at her house everyday and yeah hes just like looking at her while shes on the couch or on the computer he stares and stares. hes friends with my cousinher brother which is convient since he has another reason to go to her house.

also he does this thing where he needs you to approve of everything he calls me up because he went shopping with her. he brought new shoes and boxers and i get there and hes like do you think these look good i was like oh wow wtf lol.

posted October 08, 2009 02:18 PM         

To his credit, although he and I still have problems regularly, I will say that since we've separated he seems to be dating and living like a normal human being. I have no evidence to suggest he ever acted this way before with any of his previous girlfriends. It's "just me" he says he has this problem with.

Asc: Gemini
Sun: Sagittarius, 6th
Moon: Cancer, 2nd
Mercury: Sagittarius, 6th, retrograde
Venus: Libra, 5th, conjunct
Mars: Libra, 5th

In synastry, mine to his:

posted October 09, 2009 02:15 PM         

Sun- Virgo
ASC- Scorpio
Moon- Libra
Merc- Libra
Venus- Libra
Mars- Virgo
Pluto- Scorpio
Eros- Scorpio

posted October 09, 2009 03:08 PM         

quote:

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What are his natal Pluto aspects?

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Surprisingly, not many. Aside from the sextile to Neptune we all have, he has just:

Pluto Quincunx Chiron 0.38
Pluto Trine Lilith 2.75

Other natal aspects which might have contributed, though:

Sun Conjunct Uranus
Asc Opposite Sun & Uranus
Sun Quincunx Moon
Sun Opposition Chiron
Moon Square Venus
Saturn Quincunx Asc