posted September 19, 2009 06:42 AM         

Thanks again for your messages, they've all been very helpful and I've certainly weighed up the pros and cons. Apologies for forgetting to mention one major thing. I do know what I want to be in life - an author. I'm currently working on my second novel which I abandoned in June because I was fed up and confused where life was taking me (plus tons of rejections from agents). Writing is what really makes me leap up for joy, and to be honest it's all I ever wanted to do since I was 10 years old. Somewhere along my journey through adulthood, I managed to lose track of soul's passion, ending up in dead end jobs, a few of which I was sacked with no opportunities for progression. However it's through one major sacking in 2007 and through a series of coicidences afterwards, I was able to come back to what I love and complete my first book which a publisher and an agent are interested in.

But my self-esteem isn't great which Plutonian Persona is right about, and I'm always doubting my abilities despite people telling me how talented I am - these issues I'm trying to resolve but it's a long process.

I'm not earning from my writing yet and it may never be my main job. So I'll still need a day job and it would be great to have one that makes me happy and feel settled. During my upcoming unemployment, my intention is to finish my beloved second novel.

Part of me wonders the reason why things haven't worked out with my new job is my higher self's way of teelling me to crack on with what I do love. I've certainly neglected my writing.

I don't think I'll have any regrets leaving this job because I done regretting - regret only causes misery in the present. I've prayed, I do have the finances to take me through next month and possibly through Nov as well, so I've decided I'm just going to take this chance and the rest will be up to fate.

Best,

Miss Mystic

posted September 19, 2009 06:48 AM         

May i ask how you are going to feed your brain so you can write all these wonderful books?

I agree - this is definitely a big lesson looming here!

posted September 19, 2009 09:53 AM         

M- I know lots and lots of writers. Getting a ficton novel published is not easy. For some it is. I knew a woman who was never rejected and published (at the time) 5 historical middle reader novels. She would read at critique groups and it was like OMG you are soooo good. Everything was meticulously researched. She filled a niche that few can do successfully. When she was asked to speak at a conference, she modestly sat in the audience until someone approached her to tell her her seat was in front of the audience. She makes a living as a reading specialist in a school. Why because after 5 published novels, she cannot live on her royalties alone.

I took a workshop with a teacher from RISD and she worked with Chris Van Allsburg the author of a slew of kids books. Back in 1988/9 after writing countless books, Caldecott awards, etc. she told me he was finally able to switch to teaching part time. I'm sure now he is a millionaire after the movies Polar Express and Jumanji, but he worked simultaneously at a regular job.

Einstein worked as a clerk in the patent office while coming up with his theory of relativity.

Find another job ASAP and start moonlighting with your writing. Get a day job. Do it as research for you next creative idea if that motivates you. Research writers groups in your area. They are a fabulous resource and will provide honest feedback and catch things that you overlooked. They will also clue you into places to look for work. There a plenty of freelance opportunities at small newspapers, magazines, trade journals, etc. Just to get published should be your goal - start small. There are tons of opportunities in non-fiction, fiction is much more difficult. Non-fiction could provide the best incentive to keep on going.

posted September 19, 2009 02:15 PM         

By the #s, 2009 is a 3 year for you and should be lucky. 2010 will be a 4 year, this number is ruled by Uranus, the planet of cold reality. This is the year when you will know friend from foe. It's a period when people will should you what they are really made of. Great time to test friendships.

posted September 19, 2009 02:51 PM         

i agree with alia and i think you are gonna do what you are gonna do until you've done it and then consider your options again. i saw your chart and though i'm no expert, i saw all of that scorpio in there despite your sun libra.

i know a few mars in scorpio people with sun libra's and they are very smart, determined, stubborn people. they can have a lot of focused concentration and brilliance. however, they can tend towards being noncommittal or a bit scatterbrained when it comes to specializing in one thing and going all the way in that one thing. almost like never knowing for sure what is it they want to be. they know it but then seem a tad afraid to go all the way in it.

i recognize myself in the descriptions of mars in scorpio people but i am a mars in taurus. the difference between me and the scorpio ones i know (just the ones i know not everyone okay?), is that i can outlast and outsurvive all of them and achieve my goals 100%. if you want something bad enough, you'll do whatever it takes and however LONG it takes and that's the type of person i am.

like you said, writing all day is boring so you want to have a day job to off set that boredom. i can understand that. i've been lucky in my entire working career to land in jobs where my two very different areas of expertise can be done at the same time at work and i get paid well for it.

you know you want to write, so now you have to know what you want to do for a part time day job. you said you did web editing? you should be able to find something suitable. my only caution is that maybe what you find is not creative, but maybe you need to find a working environment that you can fit in well with.

you said you've been there 2 weeks and hate it? i think everyone feels the same way. you don't want to be 30 and have it on your resume that you quit after 2 weeks. i think it's passable if you were like 22 and just left school, but 30...maybe not so good.

in terms of the reality of the situation, the only thing that would be a barrier is leaving work after 2 weeks. to an employer that would be a red flag of someone who doesn't know what they want to do, have no loyalty, a risk to train and invest in. you have to be serious about the day job as well as you are with your writing. know what i mean?

you mentioned your mom who has spent 30 years at a job she hates. on the flip side of things, that is very admirable. to stay committed to a position for 30 yrs, to go through the thick and thin of it. i know several people at work who have been at it for 20, 25, 30+ yrs (longer periods than i've been alive) and even being there a few years...i RESPECT their ability to roll with the punches and NOT have their jobs make them go crying at home at night.

as an aside, i don't get people crying over work or crying at all about work. it's not like you're treating kids with cancer or working in a shelter and surrounded by sorrow. i can understand being annoyed and angry about work things, but being all emotional like crying about it, unless someone yelled at you or something like that, that's just taking a day job way too seriously.

i graduated from business school and i have a very secure situation, so i NEVER take what i do so personally or seriously. in school we're taught to separate the personal feelings from the professinal situation. being a gemini moon, i'm great at that kind of detachment.

but, i LOVE what i do and i'm passionate about it, but i don't cry when things are boring or suck for me. a sense of humor works wonders. don't take everything so seriously which is what i find the mars in scorpio and heavy scorpio people around me do. i make jokes and be funny about stupid things at work. i choose to be lighthearted as opposed to being angry or being a quitter. my mars in taurus doesn't understand quitting. even donald trump hates quitters. i also have a life outside of work so if it all ends, oh well, onto the next thing.

mysticr, good luck with the second book, but also best of luck finding a great day job to supplement your #1 passion.

posted September 19, 2009 03:16 PM         

For the 2009 SR chart, I see Sagittarius rising, Sun conj. MC, and Pluto in the first, moon in Sag and a stellium in the 9th.

Hmmm...all that Sagittarian energy coupled with your lifepath number (3), and your personal year number #3, no wonder you're having itchy feet. Destiny is calling...and the call seems to be coming from abroad.

With SR sun on the MC everything you do will be on public display. Could also indicate clashes with authority, or the ability to impress them easily. Either way, 2009/2010 is a year where you'll be interacting a lot with people in power. Sagittarius rising shows a desire to experience something radically different, to travel. With Venus in the 9th you're bound to enjoy any trips abroad, and be received with warmth abroad.

With Jupiter in the 2nd your wealth will likely mushroom, or you'll likely make your money overseas.

posted September 20, 2009 07:30 PM         

I do agree with Alia though, there's a major soul lesson coming up and Miss Mystic is simply going to have to learn it. Belage is right, it's time to leave her alone, so my parting thoughts to Miss Mystic are:

"When the dark clouds are all around and the rain is coming down, BELIEVE in yourself and you'll have your feet back firmly on the ground." Which is to say that Plutonian energy only wins when you buy into the soul-crushing guilt, lack of self-esteem, and self-destruction of this planet. Best of luck to you!

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"The only way out is through" ---Robert Frost

posted September 20, 2009 08:40 PM         

I did that in my work life and, ever since, the universe keeps rewarding me with more and more magic and unexpected good luck. But even when it doesn't, I get the daily joy of doing things I actually like.

posted September 21, 2009 10:53 AM         

astrology aside..i think that everytime we follow our intuition,if we know to listen to it,it is always the best thing for us to do.

Mystic if your intuition is saying that,you go for it!

im currently reading Eckart tolle i think you will like it.

it is true you know...whe you keep having those coincidences and you start really tuning in with your HIgher Self...your intuition is the conection that keeps you tuned with YourSelf.no matter if Seems crazy or against all odds,against what society tells you...society knows nothing about You!Only You know.

and whenever you see that coincidence in your life,you will know that you are on your right track.

posted September 21, 2009 11:00 AM         

if mystic has to go through some hard times then maybe that is going to go into her NEXT book in some way. people have survived worse than what we are going through now!

my daughter recently did basically the same thing, except she left it till almost too late...having worked a job she hated for years to put food on the table for her son, the money basically got up and left the building and she realized unemployment would pay her almost as much! so she quit, and after a couple of dreary months, she is now going to school, receiving grant money, and setting herself up for a rewarding (financially and mentally) career ... and we all thought SHE was crazy to quit "at a time like this"...