posted November 21, 2009 06:49 AM         

I agree totally - and i sent all these aspects to Tameem and he said he was now convinced i'd found my TF and that he has never seen such correlations. They are pretty gobsmacking lol

posted November 21, 2009 07:08 AM         

yes, I want to see them,e ven though you have had convinced me already some time ago. Not by the aspects you have (which are outstanding), but the way you talked about him. Best clue ever.

Sorry, I couldnīt look at your aspects. I am actually at work today (had to work on saturday. bah)

Popcorn,

posted November 21, 2009 03:23 PM         

Thanks for your response.

Again, I wish I could tell my story but I would feel I was dishonoring us and it's deeply personal. We had angle conjunctions, 7th house, trined suns, conjunct moons, asc rulers, mars and venus and pluto, you name it but I wasn't even interested in astrology then.

I think we burned out because the love is so deep it hurts all of the time. I have never had such longing even though I saw him everyday. It's like being sick all of the time. It was magic though. We weren't ready and how can you ever be ready for that kind of depth? Maybe you run away because the learning curve is so steep and the last thing you want to do is hurt each other but it all hurts-even the beauty. Also, I think at least in the west, we don't have any idea about real beauty and real fragility and often don't believe in what is right there in front of us.

posted November 21, 2009 03:36 PM         

yes, totally. We have so much synchronicity in our lives too.
Even the same careers and we walked away from our careers within the same year! Divorced the same year. Someone once told me that your Twin Flame is always born in a different country to oneself; i have no idea if this is true though.

I emailed you the aspects and asked you to email me the story again as i can't find it in my search on email

posted November 21, 2009 03:58 PM         

I feel for you. I truly do. I can now comprehend this depth you speak of and i am sorry your timing was not right.

There is always another chance... i missed my timing with my man back in 1990 and now look, it's 2009 and we have finally made it to reunite.

posted November 22, 2009 02:35 AM         

Lara wrote:
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i missed my timing with my man back in 1990 and now look, it's 2009 and we have finally made it to reunite.
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Let me point out an important factor in the timing: 19 years gap. An exact North Node cycle. I have an additional hypothesis, that the deepest desires at point X in your chart will manifest when that Xth degree is conjunct by Transit North Node. 9 and a half years. This has been quite accurate but only for very deeply felt desires. This is like an unconscious working of the Law of Attraction in Astrology.

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posted November 22, 2009 04:45 AM         

Your words make total sense... how interesting!

IQ, that must explain why we have that Briede/Groom conjunction exactly 19/20 years apart then, too!

posted November 22, 2009 05:29 AM         

Itīs been exactly 19 years ago, that Paul sort of came into my life. And it is just now that I have really solved this for me.
I also wondered what the fact that Transiting NN is currently opposing my Destinna nd after that will be opposing my Eros, and that it then will be conjunct my Antivertex and Sun-Moon-mp means.

In the case of the other guy, I will probably have some more insights in the next two years, then it will have been 19 years from the first taking notice of him. Synchronistically, it is now exactly 9 and a half year ago (30th march 2000), that i have evern seen him physically.
Spooky.

And Jude I have seen about 4 years and 8 months after taking notice of him. lol

The exact same amount of time, that it took for me to see Paul live.

posted November 22, 2009 05:43 AM         

Wow! So I the transiting NN goes into direct motion exactly on my birthday! That should prove interesting!

posted November 22, 2009 06:33 AM         

http://www.astoriabrown.com/Twin-Flames.html

It's very challenging when you first meet your Twin Flame. Suddenly, any lessons or patterns you still have within you come up and you are faced with them as if they were written on a piece of paper in front of you.

posted November 22, 2009 09:20 AM         

I think this is strange and I cant find word. Can anyone have so many aspect without some events. How can I have so much aspect to someone who are married ?.....
I just say:
Yes evidently

His SR boda conj my SA groom
His SR boda conj his N boda 2-3
His SR boda conj my N chiron 2-3
His SR boda conj my N vesta 0-1
His SR boda opp my N pluto 2-3
His SR boda opp his SR moon 2-3
His SR boda opp my N adonis 0-1
His SR boda opp my N union 2-3
His PR boda conj his amor
His PR boda conj my SR uranus
His PR boda conj my SR boda
His SA boda opp my N Siva/Ixion

My SR boda opp his N pluto 4
My SR boda conj his N amor 1-2
My SA boda conj my N MC
My SR boda conj my SR uranus
My SR boda conj his PR boda

His SR briede conj his N jupiter 2-3
His SR briede opp my N jupiter 2-3
His SR briede conj my N juno/pallas 0-1
His SR briede opp his N juno 4
His SR briede opp his N saturn 3
His SA briede opp my N siva/ixion
His PR briede opp my SR ceres
His PR briede opp his N pluto exact

My SR briede conj my N kaali 0-1
My SR briede conj my N pluto 0-1
My SR briede opp his N hera 0-1
My SR briede opp his SR eros 0-1
My SA briede conj my N pluto
My SA BRIEDE CONJ MY SR BRIEDE
My SA briede opp his SR eros

His SR groom opp his N groom exact
His SR groom opp my N karma 0-1
His SR groom opp his venus 0-1
His SR groom opp my neptun 2-3
His SA groom conj my BML/Ceres
His SA groom opp my N isis

My SR groom conj his N juno 0-1
My SR groom conj his N saturn 0-1
My SR groom opp my N juno/pallas 2-3
My SR groom opp my N neptun 1-2
My SA groom conj his SR boda
My SA groom conj my N vesta
My PR groom conj his PR sun SA sun
My PR groom conj his N valentine 1,7 sep

Our composite progressed
CP briede conj his psyche
CP briede conj my baccus
CP briede opp my medea
CP briede opp my alma
CP briede opp his medusa
CP briede opp my SA valentine/Siva/Ixion
CP briede opp his PR venus
CP briede opp his SA mars

CP/C boda opp my N persepone/merk/uran
CP/C boda opp his N destin
CP/C boda conj my PR desc

CP groom conj my SA karma
CP groom conj my SA nept
CP groom conj my N amor/wertex
CP groom con my PR ceres/BML
CP groom opp my PR N.N
CP groom opp his SA juno/sat
CP groom conj CP valentine 3-4
C groom conj my N Ceres/BML
C groom opp my N Isis

C briede opp my N juno/pallas
C briede opp his N jupiter/adonis
C briede conj my N jupter
C briede conj my N horus/algol/philia

Composite progress to composite

C boda conj CP boda exakt
C boda conj my PR desc '40sep
CP boda conj my PR desc '40 sep
C briede opp CP nept/Sun

This is the first time now when I checked out our name to each other in natal

I have 3 name and I find 2. I think its so strange.

In my N chart name nr 2 conj my stellium venus/NN/mars
my name nr 1 conj my algol/philia/horus

in his chart my first name conj his mars in scorpio
my second name conj his jupiter/adonis exact in scorpio

In his chart his owns name conj his hera conj my vesta and opposite my pluto

His name in my chart conj my N eros

posted November 22, 2009 11:07 AM         

What do you think about the Sabians? I am including the degree before, since Lynda Hill believes that the Sabian for the degree before will shine a lot of light on the issue. That the degree before indicates the "karmic" issues of the planet or placement. The issue that needs to be worked out and possibly let go of.

Cap 22 - The defeated general yields up his sword but in failure he wins for his cause a dignity that is real success.

Cap 23 - The army is erect in a long faultless line as resplendent officers confer upon a private two awards for bravery.

Can 22 - A young woman, neatly attired in outing clothes, eyes softened by dreaming, awaits a sailboat headed toward her.

Can 23 - A serious little study group, a literary club, has met for social and intellectual fellowship in some member's home.

posted November 22, 2009 12:13 PM         

"It's very challenging when you first meet your Twin Flame. Suddenly, any lessons or patterns you still have within you come up and you are faced with them as if they were written on a piece of paper in front of you.

I am dealing with this right now ! uffff"

Yeah, I have been dealing with a lot of this stuff since 2006, after I had avoided dealing with it in 1992; I then preferred having a nervous breakdown and falling into a deep depression and "dark night of the soul".

Anyway since 2006 it is been one rough ride. It all started with the 3rd june 2006 after having been to this open air concert, even though I wasn`t conscious about that.
But since then I had to unravel so many emotional knots, it was really exhausting.

I contributed it back then to TR Pluto being conjunct my Sun and MErcury and opposing pr Mars, and Tr Neptune being conjunct my Moon, pr MErcury, pr Venus and pr Antivertex, oh and of course to TrSaturn approaching an opposition to my Moon, pr Mercury, pr Venus, pr Antivertex.

posted November 22, 2009 12:19 PM         

EDIT:

Lara,

so the TR SN is conjunct your Valentine? That seems fitting!

Well, I just realize that in my chart pr Valentine is conjunct my NN.

ROFL On 3rd october, the day when I bought the ticket for the most recent concert, Tr NN has been exactly (to the minute!) sextile my Valentine.

I myself will have Tr NN conjunct my natal Valentine on 27th september 2012.

The SR for 2012 / 2013, which will begin not even 3 months after that, has the NN conjunct this Valentine / NN-conjunction, too.

And the SR ASC will be conjunct my natal Juno and Dr Valentine.

posted November 22, 2009 12:29 PM         

hahaha and to think that i was actively getting myself to a place to meet my Twin Flame and when i met him i was shedding the biggest skin of my life and incredibly emotionally raw. Now i'm down to my skeleton.

posted November 22, 2009 12:38 PM         

"when i met him i was shedding the biggest skin of my life and incredibly emotionally raw. Now i'm down to my skeleton."

THAT`s IT!!!!
That is EXACTLY The expression, I have been looking for for 17 years long to describe how it feels whenever I see him. THAT`s it! Emotionally raw. Down to my skeleton. Naked in a sense that goes far beyond a physical nakedness. Naked essence. Incredibly vulnerable and yet stronger than ever.
With this impossibility to lie even to mySELF anylonger.

That is exactly what it feels like.
A simultanous releasing of all uncried tears I never shed, but inside.
Like my soul opens up immposibly wide, and there is this bright gleaming globe of white-golden light inside of me, so bright and so warm, that it even hurts, even though it is a good warmth.

Actually I have heard him sing a song which was summarizing my feelings pretty well:

"I can't really explain it,
I haven't got the words
It's a feeling that you can't control
I suppose it's like forgetting, losing who you are
And at the same time something makes you whole
It's like that there's a music playing in your ear
And I'm listening, and I'm listening and then I disappear

And then I feel a change
Like a fire deep inside
Something bursting me wide open impossible to hide
And suddenly I'm flying, flying like a bird
Like electricity, electricity
Sparks inside of me
And I'm free I'm free

It's a bit like being angry,
it's a bit like being scared
Confused and all mixed up and mad as hell
It's like when you've been crying
And you're empty and you're full
I don't know what it is, it's hard to tell
It's like that there's a music playing in your ear
But the music is impossible, impossible to hear
But then I feel it move me
Like a burning deep inside
Something bursting me wide open impossible to hide
And suddenly I'm flying, flying like a bird
Like electricity, electricity
Sparks inside of me
And I'm free I'm free
Electricity, sparks inside of me
And I'm free, I'm free
I'm free. Free I'm free"

PUt these lyrics together with that feeling of emotional rawness, and you know what I am feeling.
This kind of feeling is very uniquely tied to him. I have never met anyone who could even make me feel remotely similar, but that would probably impossible to bear anyway. lol

posted November 22, 2009 12:45 PM         

on the day we met T NN was opposing my valentine.
It also squared my moon/saturn 2'
trined my mars/uranus/pluto

T venus/groom was trine my briede and groom
T groom was cj my vertex/karma/juno
T sun was cj my vertex
T DNA was cj my DNA
T valentine was cj (0) my mars/isis and trine my pluto

posted November 22, 2009 12:51 PM         

I am so emotionally raw right now i'm embarrassed to even admit it to anyone, except you guys