posted November 22, 2009 12:57 PM         

yes, I was VERY Surprised to see some of the synastric aspects and especially some of the Draco`s.
Actually, the first moment i ever saw him, I had that unsettling feeling inside, that just something had shifted in the air. Hard to explain.

But as I said, he doesn`t like me.
I always feel like I am upsetting him.

Well, always is not right, there have been some scarce nice moments.

I remember the first words he ever said to me and another coworker of mine, and those were on his birthday (his birthday was yesterday) and he said: "I am an arrogant chauvinistic ******* . Well, I am a Scorpio." lol

And at another occasion we were discussing the upcoming dance-festival that had been planned for the school, and he was asking if I wanted to come there, too (not just me but was checking which teachers were interested in that, too), and after I said that I could not dance, he said, that he would offer the teachers, who can`t dance to teach them the basics (he is teaching Sports btw), which I found really nice. Well, the festival got cancelled anyway.
And it was about the only nice dialogue we ever had.

Apart from that he wouldnīt even say "Hello", when we crossed paths!
WEll, another colleague complained about thsi,t oo. And I joked that he maybe only said Hello to young, beautiful, slender women (which neither of us is).
Anyway I started very persistently greeting him everytime I saw him (which I only think is polite and I am doing this with everyone I see, no matter if co-worker or pupil), and I think within a week I had educated him so well, that he started greeting me back.

I don`t say, I have alwas been too nice either.

Anyway, I have the feeling that I am missing something here.

posted November 22, 2009 01:14 PM         

yes, I am in a place myself where I receive this with acceptance, or actually welcome it. Is this masochistic?
Or maybe I am just tired of trying to run away?

I am just so puzzled, that someone I do not even know (at least according to usual measurements of people), could trigger such strong transformations inside of me.
It is even a bit scary.

So in a way I know exactly what you mean, and in another way I donīt, as I am not in a relationship. I think this might be even scarier than dealing with it alone. On the other hand, you can deal with it together and grow stronger through that.

posted November 23, 2009 05:04 AM         

DD wrote:
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A simultanous releasing of all uncried tears I never shed, but inside.
>>
What an emotion!

Lara:
<< I love it though... deep down this is what i want. A totally truthful and boundaryless relationship. hahaha first i have to deal with all the childhood residue that is now rocketing to the surface. >>
This is called "Growing the Inner Child". It is one of the keys to happiness, and a soulmate can genuinely trigger this development.

Popcorn,
You need to check Ascendant Aspects as well to identify genuine twin flames.

posted November 23, 2009 07:08 AM         

"DD wrote:
<<
A simultanous releasing of all uncried tears I never shed, but inside.
>>
What an emotion!"

It is a very carthatic experience whenever I am near him. Really like an earthquake in my soul, so a "soulquake"? And a simultaneious feeling of home and completely raw inside.
And not the least bit romantic, as it is pictured so often. lol

posted November 23, 2009 09:00 AM         

I never met a soul mate who can trigger such a bare bones feeling though... must be a twin thing, no?

posted November 23, 2009 11:53 AM         

"I never met a soul mate who can trigger such a bare bones feeling though"

That is actually the question I am wondering about since having realized this sort of impact he has on my life.

Are there soulmates out there who can push you that far and trigger these raw and naked feelings in you?

posted November 23, 2009 11:58 AM         

and that i'm fast-tracking.

Well this one is like nothing on earth. I can't even begin to describe it. I have never in my life had a relationship where i trust and love the person 100%, and would take a bullet for them.
With Peter i do and i would.

posted November 23, 2009 01:38 PM         

I am just so mystified (and that for the last decades. lol) about the way I feel. If I look back on my life and the path I have taken until I got where I am now (still walking ), it just leaves me so speechless. All the transformations, and they were not easy most of the times, it felt like a very rough and for the most part lonely road, which partly was due to me being unable to make any compromises (but then I have never felt as lonely alone as in a crowd).
Anyway, it really was a long road from being that girl I was to the woman I am now. And the most surprising thing is that the girl is still living inside of me.

Okay, I am getting off track here, but it really is like I said, he feels carthartic to me - oops just when I thought that there was a lightening illuminating the whole sky. lol

Through him, just his existence and also by what he said, I have been forced to be so much more honest to myself, and to really dig deep. NOt that I thought I was being superficial before. lol

All these changes, or rather - refinements, cause I am still me, or actually I am more myself than for a very long time, and yes also the pain it came with it all was very much needed.

But the thing is I owe so much to him, he has given me so much, and he doesn`t even know it.

It took much to pull a stubborn old donkey like me along the path (if I for some reason decide to resist, noone can move me EVER). Very much. It took him.

He is the only one who - even being unaware of it- could reach so deeply into my soul and "illuminate" it.

No I never felt anything like that for anyone in my life. And I know I never will. This is unique.

posted November 27, 2009 11:56 AM         

Cathartic is a great word to use too. I feel this with mine, already i have seen parts of myself that i never knew existed and it's so amazing! I love the way they can reach down into our souls and illuminate. I think it's beautiful., and the way they just saw something in the most perfect way to resonate with one's soul.

posted November 28, 2009 07:13 AM         

Well, I still can`t say what Andy is. I can tell you he is carthatic for me, and my spiritual work started with him. Really, upon gaining awareness of him, it triggered the most intense growth, which especially at the beginning, was accompanied with much pain, too.

But just as being born is a painful process, I probably had (or still have) to go through this.

The funny thing is that he has been this spiritual work on himself, too.

Yet, I start thinking that maybe this "carthasis" CAN also happen through or with soulmates or even karmamates, maybe it doesn`t need to be twinflames.

It`s sometimes easy (for me) to forget the physical realities, if I get immersed in astrology and in spiritual things.

We may be "kindred spirits", but apparently we are not meant to manifest this kindredness on the physical plane.

But if that is so, I don`t understand why all these synchronicities keep to continue.
If he was just to trigger some particular growth in me, wouldn`t he have done and disappeared again (and stayed disappeared)?
Which makes me think that maybe his "purpose" in my life isn`t fulfilled yet.

I still can`t see the reason for all of this though, and you know how much I hate not being able to see.

Synchronicity struck again btw.
Two weeks ago, when I was on that concert, they were mentioning that they would have a repeat performance somewhere else, and despite JUST having had seen it, I suddenly felt that I wanted, no HAD to see it in this other city, too. I was puzzled by that strong feeling, and shortly thought that maybe Andy would be partaking in that concert then and there. Of course I dismissed that feeling as wishful thinking.
Yesterday I learned, that he is really scheduled to be performing at that other concert.
It is just one more funny coincidence..

Oh and funnily, it will be on the day Transiting Sun is exact conjunct my Moon (and opposing his VEN Moon). lol

posted November 28, 2009 07:18 AM         

the descirption of your first meeting is so lovely.

Also, maybe he came into your life just now, so you get this divorce and get on with your life?

Another thing is, that of course people who write these articles are describing their own experiences. I donīt think that every Twinflame relationship or reunion will follow a "checklist".

I also have read frequently, that it is not only that twinflames are both single and free.
Maybe this "single and free" rather relates to their emotional or spiritual state of mind?
I mean technically you may still be married (and I take this very serious), but you say that you are emotionally divorced. I think that is definitely a difference to someone who is happily married and still loving their spouse.