posted December 27, 2009 02:22 PM         

I have had a life where I have also experienced inexplicable tragedies that I obviously did not deserve, but things that, whether deserved or not, made me the strong person I am today. Of course, 1.5 years is too short a time to have healed already!!!!! So, be easy on yourself and just go with the pace that life allows. Also, it probably takes us our entire lives to heal from these horrid experiences, and even though they have no purpose - they do make a great testimonial as to how resilient you are when you tell people that it is possible to pick yourself up, and dust yourself off to try again.

You may not be feeling like trying anything again, and it is natural, but time does heal all wounds and you will nt always feel this fearful. Sometimes counseling helps, although I have never really done any such thing except for 3 visits to a psychologist, I believe that since I have the luxury of retrospect, therapy would have saved me a whole lot of time.

Now, on an astrological front:

tNN might exacerbate other fateful transits also, because it seems like you and your guy were being bombarded by a karmic virus, attacked from all directions.

Anyway, I am happy that you are looking at that entire relationship as your past and not your present.