posted January 03, 2010 11:20 PM            

I've also crazy familymember and took my children 40 miles away. We moved. My family and my exhusbands family came to be raving mad but I not cared.

Today my children thanks me because I did as I did.

You have moon in cancer. There is not easy for a moon cancer to leave her/his mother. Its almost impossible. You also have mars in cancer. Your S.N conj your moon so maybe your mother and you have some kind of karma. Maybe you togheter must solve or work out your karma in this life. For me my feelings are the guide in my life. When I feel I must do, I will do. I can't get inward peace before I did it.

You are a very smart and clever woman with all the deeply feelings you care inside you. Sometimes you not use your best on the best way for your self. I think the moon conj SN are the answer.

The hole gamut of feelings togheter with geminis intelligent shallow seeing from all direction and from everywhere it's not easy sometimes... It's important to find out the best way to treat and do the right thing. Sometime only the time give you the answer. That's not easy to a geminiwoman to wait and take it cool. She want direct quick answer to resolve all problem.

You have mars trine saturn in your chart. You have the capacity to fight. You can live in strong hard circumstances. You are an survivor.

You love to be with friends. It could also be away out of the problem you have. Try to turn your thougths to friends and talk to them. N.N in SAG in house 3.

I cant se chiron have a strong important meaning for you in your life. You have one chiron trine to your venus (4)and that give you a positive personal charm.

Why not try to leave your mother for a while?

posted January 04, 2010 12:32 AM            

My mother and I have a very good synastry. I've no ide about her birthtime.

We beeing away from each other in 10 year. First now when I'm 45 we can talk to each other.

I can think hers juno/merk on my S.N opp my Venus/N.N/mars could be a part of the problem. Also her uran square my Sun/ASC. The most of our synastry are positiv.. OOKK I've forgot my pluto square her sun .

Suddenly it happends things we cant explain. Also my father and my mother be togheter again after divorced in 10 year. When my father moved I say to him he will be in love again . He is 80. I saw it in his progress. I could in my life not believe it was my mother but but....

My mother(in 72) is changed and now in love.

posted January 06, 2010 04:55 PM            

Also Saturn rules the 4th house and trines your Moon... you will emerge stronger so keep
positive.
Your chiron ruler, Uranus is in Cancer 10th house, suggesting a very unstable mother who was very deluded, poosibly addicted to substance or alcohol... (Uranus square Neptune).
Mars also in Cancer can also show an agressive mother who was a bully to her children.

posted January 06, 2010 06:52 PM              

As a bridge to the outer planets, Chiron has a lot to do with cultural issues; specifically, personal wounds which are rooted in cultural imbalances, and which, in another context, would not be interpreted as wounds at all, but strengths. The challenge is to use this talent or insight, whatever it is, and to claim it as a strength, in a culture where it will mainly be seen and experienced as a wound. "It is no sign of health to be well-adjusted to a profoundly sick society." ~ J. Krishnamurti While Chiron may be interpreted in other ways, the abuse you suffered sounds to me like it would have more to do with Pluto than Chiron. However, Chiron may alert you to questions of how that experience may be related to, and viewed by, the culture. You will always be healing, both yourself and others, and you'll always be perfecting your skills as a healer. Depending on the house position of your Sun, you may express your healing abilities on a more individual basis, or towards the culture as a whole.

posted January 07, 2010 02:55 PM            

At the end of this period of reflection you will feel the Pluto influence in full force and it's influence will stay with you for a few years, up until 2012.

Because Pluto moves so slowly it willeffect you for longer and it's effects will more than likely be unconscious, so that by the time the year 2012 draws to an end you will look back and see how it's influence has effected you. You won't necessarily stop mid-cycle and think... ah that pluto doing it's work.

Pluto transforms, breaks down, cuts off (Moon) your feelings, attitude, memories of childhood experience, so you will feel it internally much more than anything else.

What will be inevitable though it letting go... of someone? or some feelings?

At the end of 2011 Saturn will be conjunct your natal Neptune and again this highlights cutting off illusions that you had about life, people etc.You may have some ways of coping with life that you yourself need to change also. Your ideals will mature and you will see life with a stronger vision which will be a great help to you as the Pluto transit will be effecting you also.

"How bad was my mother? In other words, is it a REALLY bad aspect, moderate or mild.It may sound silly but knowing would help me to accept that it was meant to be."

I'm not sure that astrology can tell you that, certainly not planetary astrology. If you post your details to IQ he will give you some amazing insight that come with adding asteroids to your chart.

I cna tell you however that Capricorn in the 4th house shows isolation in childhood, lack of feeling, and with Chiron in the 4th house Aquarius this adds to your pain, instability.
Aquarius and Uranus can be associated with trauma so you were deeply affected by your mother's behaviour, this is especially highlighted because Uranus is in Cancer (sign of the mother), and in the 10th house, it has left HUGE impact in your life's irection also.
Sge has effected your feelings of worth, your position in life, your aspirations for yourself in life, and your own decision to have children.
I would not be surprised if you told me you experienced hurt, feel disempowered and even rejected by your superiors at work etc.

My thoughts are that you will for the first time begin to look at your mother's actions through her eyes, as one adult to another adult, and this will help heal the pain.