posted July 25, 2010 09:20 AM         

In house 5, the relationships with men have not been easy. Really challenge.

posted July 26, 2010 02:57 PM         

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What house is Pluto transiting in your chart? And more importantly, do you feel you understand what he's asking you to do? What is he asking you to transform about your life?

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7/27/2010
(before 7/27/2010 to after 12/9/2010)
Pluto in 9th house

A metamorphosis in your understanding and philosophy of life, your beliefs, and your faith is the theme of this cycle. A critical test of your faith and an in-depth examination of your basic assumptions about the nature and meaning of life are on the agenda. Any superficial, poorly thought-out, or immature beliefs and attitudes will be eliminated in the process.

You may become fanatical about a Cause or belief now. The crusader or zealot in you comes to the surface, and you can become rather one-sided and extreme in your pursuit of truth.

My answer: No, not at all. Sounds like I've already been thru this the past 15 years.........

posted July 29, 2010 07:53 PM         

Some friendships started looking promising, and ended out of the blue. When I make a good friendship with someone, they end up moving to another city (for work or family matters).

posted July 31, 2010 11:02 AM         

Twisted Fates & Shining Destinies

Fate and destiny are two words commonly mistaken to mean the same thing: Fate is whatever happens. Fate is inevitable; nobody controls or escapes fate. Destiny, on the other hand, is ours to create - it develops through our personal responses to fate. Look at fate as the cards you're dealt; destiny is how you play them. Our sense of destiny can be strengthened by exercising a certain ability to respond - our "response-ability."

Look at the natal horoscope as fate and how it is actualized, or lived out, as your journey of destiny. Our ongoing responses to fate accumulate over time and give shape and substance to our personality. As this destiny-building process interacts with the daily mysteries of fate, a real life is born. Not every life is made real; not all of us are willing or able to do the work to realize our destiny. Many remain content to drift willy-nilly in a passive reactive life, subject to the shifting circumstances of whatever fate has in store for us. Some will even discover a deep, abiding love and devotion to surrendering to fate. These are the mystics among us - rare beings, more vessel than person.

The development of destiny expresses a creative act. The more we face the music of our fates, our lot in life, the more opportunities arise for responding to that fate. This responsiveness can deepen our sense of what is most personal to us and what distinguishes us from the herd mentality of consensus reality. This process of individuation, however, requires a profound degree of self-acceptance and willingness to accept fate as it is, not as it should be - or could be, if only this, that, or the other were different. Do not confuse this idea with fatalism. There is nothing fatalistic or passive about accepting one's lot in life for the greater purpose of increasing self-accountability.

The Truth about Transits

I understand transits as a technique of predictive astrology for measuring the timing of change - but never its causes. Please give this some thought. Though our interpretations of the likely effects of transiting planets can coincide with certain changes we experience in our lives, consider that the transiting planet itself may not cause those changes or control our fates. The planets, the Earth included, may also be under the influence of greater and heretofore unknown causes, such as the vast rotations of fixed stars, black holes, distant galaxies, and other interstellar events beyond human comprehension and especially beyond astrological categorization. If the planets are undergoing their own "transits," then it stands to reason that the cosmos may not only be stranger than we think, it may actually be stranger than we can think. Life is a mystery at best. With open minds, we can begin to alleviate the suffering caused by the illusion of too much assumed certainty and perhaps, uncover a sense of wonder that nurtures the soul in ourselves and in others.

The inner (or visible) personal planets can represent multiple modes of our personal responses to fate. Loo at the Sun, Moon, Mercury, Venus, Mars, Jupiter, and Saturn as a spectrum of personal responses: our presence (Sun), emotional habit patterns (Moon), ideations (Mercury), evaluations (Venus), will (Mars), beliefs (Jupiter), and commitments (Saturn). As we come to know and express ourselves through these responses, our personality matures. Everyone has areas of self-denial where personal development is arrested by resistance, ignorance, or immaturity. Sometimes, this results from over-emphasizing one kind of response over another. Fixate on the Moon and ignore Mars, and then watch the force of habit overwhelm the force of will in your life.

As we gain personal accountability (as Saturn is integrated) for our thoughts, feelings, beliefs, ethics, actions, etc., a healthy ego emerges and we naturally seek out and attract challenges to push us beyond the familiar. Ego also gets cocky and acts out its confident delusions. Why does the need to be right all the time leave us feeling so clear and yet so rigid? The illusion of certainty. Why does the fulfillment of personal ambitions leave us successful but so strangely isolated? The illusion of separateness. Why does the compulsion to be in charge of everything make us feel so important and yet so deeply insecure? The illusion of control.

When we are exposed to objective realities - existing conditions of life that persist without our personal efforts - the transpersonal can be said to be getting personal with us. Whether this manifests as current socioeconomic conditions, or the fates and destinies of others, or tragic circumstances and deaths, any transpersonal experience shocks the ego with a reality greater than itself and sometimes, greater than anything we have ever known.

You don't have to be an astrologer to know that real life delivers outside shocks all the time and, sometimes, when we least expect it. By "outside," I mean beyond the creation and control of ego. I think outside shocks act as well-timed evolutionary triggers, synchronized to jolt us whenever and wherever we are suffering from the illusions of excessive certainty, separateness, or control. I have come to see these illusions as symptomatic of transpersonal frustrations of such evolutionary imperatives as freedom, unity, and empowerment (symbolized by Uranus, Neptune, and Pluto, respectively). Do the planets shock us? Of course not. Outside shocks arrive as fate, and fate is unknown until it happens. How we respond to our twisted fate determines the course of our shining destiny.

Three Types of Outside Shock

Just as the inner planets symbolize a spectrum of personal responses, the outer planets - Uranus, Neptune, and Pluto - represent the deeper mysteries of transpersonal processes, such as intelligence increase and sovereignty (Uranus); compassion and inspiration (Neptune); and empowerment and regeneration (Pluto). In relation to the ego-personality, these transpersonal forces (or planets) also symbolize three types of outside shock, each delivering a one-two punch: one to the sleeping ego and one to the awakening ego. Uranus corresponds to corresponds to shocks of oppression and freedom; Neptune, with shocks of isolation and unity; Pluto, with shocks of naivete and death/rebirth. Do the planets shock us? No, the planets do not shock us. Perhaps we attract shocks to ourselves as a way of meeting deeper transpersonal needs for waking up to what's oppressing us (Uranus), dissolving arbitrary barriers that obscure the experience of unity (Neptune), and resurrecting our lives from naivete and stupefying stagnation (Pluto).

If we are up for the challenge of realizing our destinies, the natal positions of Uranus, Neptune, and Pluto can show us where (which house) and how (the sign and related aspects) to address our transpersonal evolutionary needs. For example, a 9th-house Uranus can symbolize an evolutionary agenda to break free of externally conditioned beliefs and discover our own truth. We earn our spiritual freedom by waking up to the oppression of religious dogma blindly accepted at an earlier age. An 11th-house Neptune might signify a transpersonal intent to embrace greater social unity, after suffering isolation resulting from prejudiced social conditioning. A 5th-house Pluto may conceal a higher life purpose by enflaming the heart's desire and transforming our love through Art.

PLUTO
Shocks of Impermanence, Death, Rebirth

There's nothing funny about death. We can (and should) laugh at death, at times, if only for comic relief, but death itself is no joke. If it is, then life would be a joke and life is no joke. Life and death are real. To remain aware of death in daily life - especially in an overly sheltered life - is quite difficult. Though the process of death exist everywhere, it is very easy to overlook because it takes on so many forms. Inertia, stagnation, corruption, decay, and degeneration all express forms of death. When Pluto enters a house and aspects natal planets, we may be exposed to something that is dying or has died. We are as easily shocked by our naivete about death as we are by death itself. We exclaim, "I can't believe this is happening!" as if death requires our belief to occur. The objective reality of death is everywhere and does not require anything from us at all.

In the wake of being exposed to death, we discover how attached we are to what has died (or is dying) by the degree of our suffering. The more ego cling to what is dead, the more ego hurts. It is natural to want to stop something from dying when we are attached to it. Whether it's the death of old feelings or beliefs or a relationship or project or friendship or reputation, or the actual physical passing of someone who is dear to us, the shock of death is almost always devastating to our illusions of control. Pluto transits coincide with the emergence of a transpersonal need to surrender the ego, to let go of control where no control existed in the first place. In this surrender, the ego transforms by outgrowing its previous naivete like a snake shedding old skin; we wise up to life. There is a wisdom in transformation that empowers us with a greater capacity to endure future changes. Mere control, it turns out, is but a dime-store replica of real power.

Just as Mars signifies the motivational force of whatever excites us to action, Pluto symbolizes the overtone function of what we are ultimately living for - the incarnating soul's purpose in this life. From the soul's vantage point, we are not human beings having spiritual experiences but, rather, we are spiritual beings hungry for specific human experiences so we may embody more of the human condition. Just as natal Pluto pinpoints a core appetite for specific essences of human experience, Pluto transits extend this hunger to areas where the life force has been diminished or crushed by deadening inertia. Wherever our life situations, needs, habits, and relationships suffer from excessive redundancy and stagnation, another transpersonal need erupts from the evolutionary imperative to grow. It is transpersonal because the ego cannot do this alone; the ego must surrender, die, and be reborn for this to occur. To grow now means to outgrow.

Pluto transits can show us what has been corrupted or has degenerated and what needs to be surrendered, in order to resurrect what has died. The shock of death can annihilate our illusions of permanence in those naive assumptions about death as "an ultimate end" and about life lasting forever. Two transpersonal truths are common to the experience of losing those we love. A part of us dies with them, and a part of them lives on in us. We also discover the objective reality of impermanence: Nothing lasts. Death is a transition to greater cycles of unknowns: Life really is a mystery! And as with all true epiphanies, these insights must be earned through direct experience and the personal courage to continue responding to what fate has in store for us. By taking such a position, the personal becomes the political, and we grow stronger for it.

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