posted June 30, 2010 03:10 AM            

crabbypatty,

Thanks for the offer. I have been to NYC,and I loved it. The last time I have been there was 2005 which was when I got examined by Dr. Harold N. Levinson in Great Necks, New York. I also met an old irc chat pal in NYC, and we went to clubs together. Unfortunately his Gothic dress kept us out of clubs like Webster Hall. I had a good time with him.

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Raymond Andrews,
President,Executive Director of Developmental Neurodiversity Association
Supporting the Neurodiversity Movement

posted June 30, 2010 05:50 AM            

x o x Ami

posted June 30, 2010 08:25 AM            

All creatures are flawed, but out of the flaw may come the universe.
~ Marguerite Young

posted June 30, 2010 08:37 AM            

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I think a a few of the main design flaws prevalent in my chart include:

virgo moon (h1) square sag neptune (h5). I think this aspect creates an emotional haze around my relationships, and makes it particularly difficult for me to be realistic and not have clouded perceptions which often lead to an intense disappointment with most relationships. I think it also plays a part in me not being completely comfortable with my emotions and feeling awkaward expressing them. I also tend to come across as quite antisocial at times, perhaps this could have something to do with it.

I'm also not too thrilled about uranus in the fourth conjunct IC. I think this contributes to a constant feeling of instability. My parents divorced when I was about 12 and before that the home was a tension stress filled place where I always felt emotionally repressed and uncomfortable. After the divorce I was constantly between houses for most of my teenage years because I felt like I had to spend time with them equally. Libra sun I guess. This manifested into physical sickness. Anyways even into my twenties I never felt like I had a stable home base. I still don't.

I also think that leo mars (h1) square scorpio venus (h3) is really not helpful in any of my relationships. I think that I find it very difficult to handle some of the very intense feelings that come with these placements, and I think I expect way too much sometimes.

I also think that libra sun (2h) conjunct saturn really doesn't help me express myself in a confident way when I need to. Although I am thinking if I didn't have a leo AC things could be a lot worse.

Having a libra stellium in the second house is really kicking my ass at the moment with saturn and pluto transits. All the second house issues are definitely coming up. I have no job at the moment and therefore no income, and it feels like I have not alot to show for the past 10 years of my life because I have spent it at uni. Also the whole self worth thing is there, making me feel invisible most days with a real lack of confidence. Bah.

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I appreciate your honesty, Amp.
I can relate to a prominent Saturn. I have Saturn conjunct ASC.
Saturn conjunct a Libra sun sounds hard as far as being "for" yourself and not thinking it is selfish.
Do you feel that?
You said it was hard for you to express emotions. Where is your Mercury and how is that aspected?
Does Mars square Venus make you go toward love in a strong, confident way(Leo) but then Scorpio Venus is too intense to handle the basics of the relationship,perhaps the getting to know the person part.
Is Scorpio Venus very intense and can handle the intense parts of the relationship but not the lighter parts?
I could see how Libra sun conjunct Saturn could give self doubt. Libra wants harmony so much that asserting yourself would be really hard.
I have a sense that your job situation will improve.

x o Ami

posted June 30, 2010 09:08 AM            

I think with so many planets in libra it is difficult to try and do things you really want to do without making sure everybody else is happy. This has always been an issue for me. Frustrating myself making sure everybody else is ok when I'm really not.

I do find the whole emotion thing difficult. I'm sure it has a bit to do with the virgo moon and the neptune square. My mercury is at 29 libra conjunct pluto in 3rd house. The pluto conjunction is interesting. I can talk to people for hours about their lives and problems trying to help them out if they need somebody to talk to, but I'm really not good talking about myself. It seems I let very little out about myself. The pluto mercury conjunction also makes me a bit obsessive about getting to the bottom of things. If I need to find something out or determine if somebody is lying to me or something, I don't usually let it go until I find out what I need.

The scorpio venus part of me I don't think is really very good at the small talk. It is a very intense placement to have, and when I really like somebody it is hard to be light about it, because I want to be apart of their life and know about it all. It's kind of an all or nothing kinda thing. It's all a bit of a nightmare really with that venus mars square.

posted June 30, 2010 09:22 PM            

x o x o Ami