posted October 03, 2010 10:40 AM            

OK--for you to be THIS ready to die from a current relationship, you have to be replaying a horrible trauma from the past.

The trauma unglued you--whatever it was. It made you feel you would die.
You squished it down so you could survive. It was a wound and you halted the bleeding and even the death that may have happened from a broken heart by squishing it away---down as deep as you could.

Usually, you get numb, to some degree, from doing this.
You may or may not FEEL numb but pushing things down like this does make us removed from reality to some extent(dissassociated)

All that is is "numb"--not a word to worry about .

Anyway, what happens is that when you encounter the "same" situation in later life i.e. someone you love and he leaves you, ALL the squished feelings rise up.

Then, you are in that same horrible place, emotionally, that you were during the original trauma.

I am just saying this much to see what you will say. There ARE ways to deal it it. Don't despair.
*I* am healing. My mother molested me so you can't get that much worse than that.

PS I hate writing that about my life cuz I don't want to be associated with it, even to myself lol

However, it reminded me of an experience I had last week.
I went to talk to a pastor. I was telling him about my life.
He asked me a question which seemed clueless.
I tried to explain the answer and HE looked clueless.
I said,"Have you ever been in shock?"
He said,"No, but I have been with people who were."
I KNEW he would never "get" me.
*I* get people cuz I have been there.
That would be the only thing to make it worthwhile.

posted October 03, 2010 10:54 AM              

I agree on the strength part. We have a crazy amount of physical and mental strength and can endure almost anything. I'm not very stubborn but I only do things my way and I am capable of doing things most are not able to do.

posted October 03, 2010 11:26 AM            

i'm coming off a long series of saturn and pluto transits, 2 soul connections, a divorce, and the deepest depression i've ever known where i was forced to come face to face with every open issue i have. the universe usually delivers the hard lessons through love, because it's not an experience we go through willingly.

posted December 19, 2010 12:57 AM            

Where can I get a composite chart with transits?

posted December 19, 2010 02:16 AM            

For example: I remember you'd mentioned in one of the posts that Pluto conjunct the composite Sun would indicate a complete overhaul or a complete break.

So how would I interpret transits

Pluto conjunct composite Mars
Pluto conjunct composite Mercury
Saturn conjunct composite Pluto

etc?

Is there a site which gives this information? All sites I've browsed so far only explain transits to the natal chart, not composite.

Please let me know.

posted December 19, 2010 02:27 AM            

Just play around with the chart and see what it tells you.

Then also look to see if the comp Pluto is making any strong aspect (conj trine opp sq) to either person's natal. Contacts from composite to natals are v.important. This person may be more strongly affected in terms of relationship by the coming conjunction than the other party. Aspects will tell the story.

posted December 19, 2010 02:42 AM            

-Aspects in natals are personalized to the individual, very subjective

-Aspects in synastry pit one person against another so that each acts out only one portion; easy enough once you get how each planet acts in their natal

-Aspects in composites are personalized to the relating experience, so in general they set the tone for the partnership, you have to look at the aspect from a more objective sense, this is almost diametrically opposed to looking at aspects in synastry. Sun conj Mars in natal would tend toward strong drive and initiative, in composites essentially the same energy, but it occurs when the 2 people are paired up, it consumes them both as an energy

-Aspects from natals to composites once again pit one person against another chart, but this time you're looking at how the aspect changes a person's experience of the relationship. Once again look at how that planet is functioning in that person's chart. These aspects are most like synastry. For example a person's Moon conj a composite Venus would likely be soothed by the emotional relating that takes place when they're acting as a couple. But maybe the other person's Moon is squared composite Uranus, then the relationship would act as quite an electric shock to them emotionally and it may be quite exciting or it may take its toll and wear them out, again depending on their natal

-Aspects in transits, you would look at how the transiting planet is acting in that chart, what is it about? What house does it rule, what aspects does it make, what does it want and how does it go about getting that? Then look at the transit itself and see what new elements are being brought to the table. Transits carry the energy of its natal placement, so know the charts first and foremost.

posted January 07, 2011 02:16 AM            

I have natal Saturn conj Pluto, and Saturn will go over my Pluto a lil later this yr...it can't be too different from what I know....