posted September 27, 2010 03:18 PM         

I fell in love with a voice and a photo. I didn`t even know where he was at that time. Of course it was a singer.
Yet, the feelings I experiences (solely on my own of course), were catapulting me straight into sppiritual ether, including my first astral travel.
And at that time I was very convinced that he was my twinsoul and that we would meet some day in a certain city.
Keep in mind that I didn`t even know if he was still alive or where he was or what he was doing at that time.

I was so delusional! But so full of faith.

Many years down the line though, it all came about as I had foreseen it.
We actually met in that city, we just had a short chat of course, but I thought how amazing it was that he "materialized" out of nothing, out of an illusion, if you want it so.

Yes, I was delusional and living in a dream, that would never come true.
But part of it also contained a spark of spiritual truth; I was like a sleepwalker, and in that sleepwalking I somehow stumbled over him. Out of the nothing, out of the mist.

Yet, until then many years passed, many tears, a broken heart, and what was worse, a shattered world, emotional and spiritual wounding, selfcontempt and all these nice little things that spoil the fun in life. Misconception about life, about him, about myself, about things "have" to be.
Acceptance of reality, losing all faith, losing all spirituality, closing to everything around me; when my little bubble shattered, I died.
I really did, internally I died, and it took me many years to be reborn again.

Funnily though when Tr Neptune was semisquare my Venus, I stumbled over exactly that guy, completely coincidentally, in the audience of a concert. I didn`t even notice him at first, I just had that feeling of my skin "prickling" in ways I never experienced before. And when I raised my head he was standing in the aisle only a few metres from my seat and was staring at me.
As if he knew me.
LOL

Of course Tr Neptune at that time was also conjunct my Moon and his SN, which is where our composite Sun-MErcury-Atlantis conjunction falls.

I still think he is a soulmate of sorts, because, even though he never really "existed" in my life in a "physical" sense, he was the reason for so much growth in me, pain, too, and healing.
Without him I wouldn`t be the person I am today.
So I am eternally grateful for that experience, and that is the reason, he will always hold a special place in my heart.

posted September 27, 2010 07:39 PM         

Thanks for talking about such a private experience.

posted September 28, 2010 12:37 AM         

Relationships may be shrouded in confusion and frustration during this transit. A spiritual group or creative project may also be a source of annoyance as you experience delays. You have a vision of how you would like your relationship to be, but the vision and the reality, to your annoyance, are not the same. There can also be some confusion surrounding money during this time. The lesson of this transit is patience. Forcing matters will simply cause more problems.

Julie has transiting Neptune semisquare Venus,and she told me that she's not sure if she's in a romantic place right now. She did tell me that it seems that she and I have a lot in common. She told me that it's good to meet other lightworkers.

I have transiting Neptune conjunct my Mars.

Her Venus in Aries semisquares my Mars in Aquarius with 17 minutes of arc.

Therefore, she and I are experiencing a shared experience transit.

She also cleared up a misunderstanding that I had about her. I was checking out photos of her, and I saw her with a little boy. I thought that it was her son. I asked her this weekend,and she told me that was her cousin. I felt a little embarassed. It's never good to make assumptions. Even though I thought she had a child, it didn't bother me one bit. I don't feel relieved. I felt corrected.

That's an example of how transiting Neptune aspecting a Venus-Mars transit can work.

She also told me that she recently got into psychic,spiritual counseling. I thought that she was in it for a long time.

She and I slowly learning and knowing more about each other.

Raymond

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No..I am not a Virgo.

posted September 28, 2010 08:43 AM         

"Born under an unlucky STAR"