posted November 02, 2010 01:44 PM            

But yes, I definitely feel the Nessus / Kaali conjunction on my moon, it`s very exhausting.
I have been waking up twice or three times by now with that feeling as if my insides have been ripped apart. Almost like re-experiencing the original split of my twinflame over and over again.
Or if not that, then that feeling I`ve had 18 years ago, when my (emotional) world fell apart.
It`s weird how my soul is re-playing that emotional scenario just now.

And on Samhain to 1st november I was having a very weird dream again.
And when I woke up there was this sadness and that stinging pain inside of me.

Well, I know it`s going to pass again. It always does.

posted November 02, 2010 01:59 PM            

My friend just wrote me a mail and told me that she had been bumping into her abusive ex-boyfriend at a pharmacy (how appropriate! Never tell me the universe has no sense of humour lol).
She hasn`t seen nor met him for like 15 years, and just one or two days after I was asking her about that time, when Tr Pluto was conjunct her DNA/Angel and opposing her Nessus/Dejanira, which was when she was in that relationship, she is seeing him somewhere?

I actually have never asked her about this before, as I knew this is a very sore spot; but the way she sounded in that mail today, she sounded, well "healed", as she didn`t even really care for meeting him there (neither scared nor angry nor something of that sort; he is just a closed chapter I think), she only found it "funny" that she met him after I asked her about him.

posted November 02, 2010 07:35 PM              

hehe fireplace hunting was successful! I bought a lovely grate for my new bigger fireplace that B my beloved knocked out for me today lol

I'll email you a couple of photos tomorrow so you understand what l am talking about

ok so your SN chart.

karma cj saturn in 12th/hidden yet psychic.
cj AC/kaali/venus in 1st.
hmmm well your AC is "a young woman awaiting a sailboat".
sun is "newly opened lands"
NN is "reawaken old memories"

I sense something religious about all of this. Siva trine Karma/Kaali trine MC. There's a clue there
Your MC was trine AC which is not so usual, isn't it?
In fact, your SIVA is trine karma/AC/kaali/venus trine MC/squiggly symbol!/atlantis

Atlantis in 8th. Could it be that you brought something forward from Atlantis that you didn't finish in that lifetime and you were doing it in this obviously indian siva/kaali lifetime and it was deemed religious or something. The karma was hidden or pushed aside and an exception was made of you but the nessus/NN quincunx aspect and dejanira/sun cj in gemini (ruler cj nessus and quincuns siva!) forced the karma upon you and it left you feeling somewhat deceived in some way? Neptune in 5th opp sun in 11th?
Look at how your moon in EIGHTH! squares sun/NN and trines nessus.

What does your moon persona say? I know i've written this post as if it were a past life but thats how it feels to me. That moon/atlantis in 8th with its ruler uranus nowhere in the chart? lol where is uranus?

Lets chat more tomorrow. I'm intrigued now with this chart!

posted February 13, 2011 07:03 PM            

That could possible mean you'll meet her at work (or else look at the 2nd and 7th houses to see where the love will be met).

A 6th house Venus will probably have problems in love, it doesn't know how to love properly, it loves perfection, order, nerdy type people, organization, stuff like that. You should also take care to manage your eating well, as this Venus is inclined to incur diabetes (other illness connected to Venus as well).

The 4th house might also be about food, it's the Cancer house, and cancer is about homely things like eating, so I would look to see how your fourth house is in addition to the Venus 6th to see what kind of eating plan you should create for yourself.