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posted November 14, 2010 10:12 PM         

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The only thing he has in my 12th house is Uranus.

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posted November 14, 2010 10:13 PM         

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Well maybe you have some tense aspect he's plugging into.

Exactly what do you mean by that, Lonake?

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posted November 14, 2010 10:15 PM         

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This is my chart.

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posted November 14, 2010 10:15 PM         

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Some square or opposition that he's activating...or maybe you have something in Aqua filling out his t-square, etc.

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posted November 14, 2010 10:18 PM         

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this should make things easier, if you feel so inclined.

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posted November 14, 2010 10:19 PM         

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Would that T-square, with my sun in Aquarius, affect me or him more?

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posted November 14, 2010 10:23 PM         

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Well your Mercury sorta plugs into it, but you have some things going clunk-clink in your psychological basement. And then he puts his Uranus in there, sorta throwing it up in the air.
Your Merc turns his Sun/Saturn/Uranus into a Grand Cross, opposed his saturn, sq his sun/uranus opp, yea I could see why he would tune you out right there, couldnt understand the quick sort of way that you communicated maybe thought it was juvenile in a sense and felt superior, rather than try to hear you out. Gotta tell you squares and opps in Fixed signs are the hardest, it feels like you keep banging your head against the wall and are getting nowhere.

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posted November 14, 2010 10:26 PM         

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Yeah I was super juvenile toward him because I was so nervous around him. I really did feel like a frightened little kid in front of him. Maybe it wasn't attraction so much as my sensing the his personal power and feeling a strong reaction to it that I have trouble comprehending.

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posted November 14, 2010 10:45 PM         

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Well you know you both have strong Fixed squares, so you may have been responding to his strength as a sort of mirror of your own, except yours is a bit locked up in the 12th (Moon conj Saturn there). I think you wrote on the other thread about doing some things with your life to unlock that energy a bit. That would be good for you, let it out in the open to breathe a bit. Girl (!) and his Saturn is squaring your Moon/Saturn and opp your Sun, are you kidding, do you like the pain lol. It's almost like you latched onto him as an attempt to unlock some part of your feelings, you tried so hard to be heard and for it to be let out, but when it started rumbling it shook about and didn't know what form to take, and it left you feeling in pieces. I think you're looking for a way to let this energy out but that this interaction became like a nightmare, like the universe was telling you this is what you're doing to yourself by keeping it inside. You know how nightmares bring to us the things we've repressed (aside from the post-traumatic types), that's why they're so vivid because it wants its message to be heard. Imo, You need to get on that, m'dear, it's eating away at you.

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posted November 14, 2010 10:56 PM         

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Indeed...

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posted November 14, 2010 10:56 PM         

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Any suggestions on how to go about that?

It's locked up pretty deep.

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posted November 14, 2010 11:56 PM         

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Through art or something spiritual, some concentrated discipline. Something that you can share with others you respect for their opinion. Or alternatively some service you give to others for no reward, random acts of kindness sort of thing. Scorpio is so generous, you don't really hear about it, but they can give more than any other. So you have a lot there, you just have to stop judging it, and stop negating it because it doesn't fit in with whatever Aquarian ideals you may have, or thinking what you have to give isn't good enough. Start sharing it with just a few people you respect at first, then if you feel comfortable you can branch out later. But with people you respect is important for that sense of validation. And with relationships too, don't go in for the big kill, do things that scare you but just scare you a bit, obstacles that can be overcome, then you'll start to see your strength more and more. And don't get too frustrated with the Scorpio desire for closeness vs. Aquarius's freedom needs, you can find both in the same person, it just takes a unique person, that's all. Youll prob find that people are built either fiery/airy or watery/earthy and not too many that are in-between, but they're out there.

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posted November 15, 2010 12:38 AM         

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Lonake, you are amazing. You've definitely got the astrology skills down. Concentrated discipline in artistic endeavors is what I feel such a strong yearning for, and I am putting the effort forth in that area. I'm a massage therapist and I feel very much myself and in tune with my magical, nurturing self when I am at work. How on earth did you see all that?

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posted November 15, 2010 12:39 AM         

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I have a feeling it's more than just skill in astrology that you have. I think you're pretty darn intuitive as well, right?

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posted November 15, 2010 01:00 AM         

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"and I am putting the effort forth in that area."
That's awesome

Massage therapy vibes excellently, actually, with your NN in Taurus in the 6th. I was reading the Moon/Saturn conj in 12th, in Scorpio, square the Aquarius Sun in the 3rd. But obviously there are a lot of other factors going on in there.

Interestingly now we're bringing up the nodes, your SN is in a spot close to the Moon/Saturn, so it's emphasizing the space you're coming from, your Karma/past lives in many ways. The work is to distill that spiritual knowledge into a mundane area, our physical health, everyday life, the 6th (NN placement). So, to have that balance, to not get too caught up in the esoteric. But otoh that's where you're nurtured (Moon), so it's a definite balance to keep in mind. The way you talk about what you do it just sounds brilliant

I have the opposite, somewhat. NN in 12th, and Moon in same sign as SN in the 6th, so I'm moving into the deep murky waters here. Someone, throw me a life-vest, lol.
Yea I guess I'm working on being intuitive, NN Cancer in 12th, Jupiter Scorpio in 4th, Sun Pisces in 8th. NN, Jupiter & Sun sort of all correlate to where we feel happy and/or what we aspire toward. I don't think we can feel very fulfilled if we're not doing our Sun, and I believe the Sun is something we're growing into, rather than knowing right off the bat. To me the Moon & SN is where we're coming from.

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