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Doux Rêve
Knowflake Posts: 39
From: France
Registered: Dec 2010
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posted December 21, 2010 01:43 PM
  
mochai, you are so right about Spanish people! They are so affectionate and warm.. and very expressive! They are the life of the party for sure.
"brujita"? never heard of that! sounds sweet though ^^. Saggie sun! I've got Saggie on the 7th cusp (and 8th).. I love foreigners 
Aww how stereotypical of Frenchies, truffles! and fashion.. haha that's so interesting you had a French friend  IP: Logged |
mochai
Knowflake Posts: 235
From: Charon
Registered: Sep 2010
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posted December 21, 2010 02:01 PM
Bruja means witch. It kind of implies a magical effect. I used to play online games so I made friends all over the world, even in the faroe islands and one friend who worked on oil rigs in siberia. I've also been a university bus driver and would get excited when I had passengers from cyprus where I could ask them about whether they were turkish or greek cypriots and how things were going in their country politically. Meeting people from Lesotho.. I seek out such experiences. Things like that made my life worth living. People always get shocked that I'm American because I know too much about their country and know how to say too many things in too many different languages. Most want to know what I'm in grad school for because I seem way too smart and it confounded my bus passengers.IP: Logged |
Doux Rêve
Knowflake Posts: 39
From: France
Registered: Dec 2010
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posted December 21, 2010 02:12 PM
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Originally posted by mochai:
Bruja means witch. It kind of implies a magical effect. I used to play online games so I made friends all over the world, even in the faroe islands and one friend who worked on oil rigs in siberia. I've also been a university bus driver and would get excited when I had passengers from cyprus where I could ask them about whether they were turkish or greek cypriots and how things were going in their country politically. Meeting people from Lesotho.. I seek out such experiences. Things like that made my life worth living. People always get shocked that I'm American because I know too much about their country and know how to say too many things in too many different languages. Most want to know what I'm in grad school for because I seem way too smart and it confounded my bus passengers.
That is amazing! You're very lucky
I would love to meet people from all around the world, I think it's so interesting, learning about different cultures and languages.. there are so many people on Earth, it's insane!
And have you ever been to Europe? IP: Logged |
mochai
Knowflake Posts: 235
From: Charon
Registered: Sep 2010
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posted December 21, 2010 02:39 PM
I've wanted to but I've been fairly broke a lot with depression and thyroid complications and now with kundalini emergence, so it likely won't happen. Most people assume I have been. I used to go to friendsabroad.com to practice spanish and met a lot of foreign people that way. I think they switched over to babbel.com, but it's a great way to meet foreigners. I found the moroccans on the site to be most amusing. They would introduce themselves and then propose. It happened to me twice as well as my sister, all with different screennames.IP: Logged |
Doux Rêve
Knowflake Posts: 39
From: France
Registered: Dec 2010
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posted December 21, 2010 03:16 PM
Oh dear, I'm so sorry about your problems  But you're still young though, aren't you? Don't give up hope! You never know what'll happen. I sincerely hope you will feel better. I can so relate to depression too.. I also have anxiety issues, and avoidant traits, amongst other things.. lately I've been having issues with food, I can't eat properly without going into extremes: I either eat too much (especially sugar) or nothing at all. It's very difficult to find a balance..
Kundalini? I've heard of that.. Can you tell me more about your experience? Only if you feel like doing so of course.. if you don't that's okay, I'll understand.IP: Logged |
VenusDiSirius
Knowflake Posts: 168
From: Praha
Registered: Aug 2010
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posted December 21, 2010 07:18 PM
Doux Rêve,my best friend suffered from eating disorder,we shared both bad and good about whole situation. I grew to be a bit of an expert,exploring that illness in depth so that i could help her. If u have any question,feel free to ask.
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Doux Rêve
Knowflake Posts: 39
From: France
Registered: Dec 2010
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posted December 22, 2010 07:12 AM
Oh thank you so much for offering help VenusDiSirius! I went to the doctor's a few days ago, he prescribed me antidepressants because I'm not severely affected yet, so he thinks that will help, but I think I need to see a psychiatrist because I know it's a deep-seated issue. So I don't know what will happen next.. Saturn is transiting my 6th house now, and it will stay there for like 2 years, right now it doesn't make any major aspects to any of my planets (but boy do I feel it), but soon it will be touching all my personal planets one by one.. remember my overloaded 6th house? I'm kind of scared to be honest.IP: Logged |
mochai
Knowflake Posts: 235
From: Charon
Registered: Sep 2010
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posted December 22, 2010 09:20 AM
It's really not all that bad, and psychics say I've followed my life map very well. I've learned a lot from my experiences so it's not all bad. I've made a lot of random posts in various threads about kundalini. I'm sure a lot of people have it to some degree and that it will become more common and get worse. I can barely work right now, so that's the main issue. One person here had so much kundalini he was shocking his cats. I've only messed with electronics and made lights flicker. Kundalini is kind of like the doorway to enlightenment if used correctly.IP: Logged |
Doux Rêve
Knowflake Posts: 39
From: France
Registered: Dec 2010
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posted December 22, 2010 10:56 AM
I hope it's not all that bad. Anyway it's a good thing you've learned from your experiences. I'm sure everything will go well for you, because you are a smart and aware person.
Kundalini is something I find quite intriguing. I don't know what to think of it yet, it seems so.. unreal? I mean, it's still a new concept for me.IP: Logged |
VenusDiSirius
Knowflake Posts: 168
From: Praha
Registered: Aug 2010
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posted December 22, 2010 11:02 AM
I noticed you post on moon/saturn thread,so i suppose that big oppostion between moon and saturn works? I was looking at your chart,because of big orbs on astro.com u have too many squares.
Don't be afraid of saturn transits,you are coming of age kid,saturn will help u find your way. Saturn teaches and tortures
Yes,my friend also had many and-this-time-different-pill sessions... Antidepressants=modern,western way... She could have done without them. Conversation is the cure,and u r already half way through it because u r aware of problem ! ------------------
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allouette
Newflake Posts: 15
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Registered: Dec 2010
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posted December 22, 2010 11:30 AM
hey Doux Rêve, welcome our charts are very much alike, i also have a gemini rising and sun, mercury, pluto, vertex, saturn in the sixth house but i survive, haha your chart is not horrible, you have a very beautiful venus-jupiter conjunction and those planets in the ninth house...i would rather focus on these nice aspects and on the NN conjunct descendant. can you also place you vertex / black moon / asteroids? PS: I'm also from Europe
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mochai
Knowflake Posts: 235
From: Charon
Registered: Sep 2010
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posted December 22, 2010 12:10 PM
A lot of people don't believe in kundalini. I had it for many years before I felt the pulsing in my muladhara going up my spine. There's a lot of information on it but it's still not well understood. I can't meditate anymore because it kicks up too much kundalini and I become very emotionally reactive all the while wanting to tell people they're divine manifestations of god. It's pretty crazy. There's a lot of healing involved.IP: Logged |
aethan
Newflake Posts: 13
From: Lisbon, PT
Registered: Sep 2010
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posted December 22, 2010 12:19 PM
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Originally posted by mochai:
One person here had so much kundalini he was shocking his cats.
Now that sounds familiar. It's happened to me and my older cat recently, more than once. Which is pretty weird. I wonder if constantly seeing repeating numbers in the clock has anything to do with it as well? Will investigate this kundalini business. IP: Logged |
mochai
Knowflake Posts: 235
From: Charon
Registered: Sep 2010
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posted December 22, 2010 02:35 PM
The repeating numbers have to do with messages your guides are trying to send you about your thoughts or about changes in your life. If you were shocking your cats without static electricity you are likey very ungrounded kundalini-wise. There's a ton to research there and some disagreeing information. If you're overloaded on kundalini it's best not to meditate or do any self healing and exercise and grounding visualizations as well as eating root vegetabes (recommended by tantrics) is advisable. Kundalini is energy and it needs a circuit/ground to function. If it's kundalini unconditional love towards everything is the easiest way to handle it along with downtime to integrate. It's still hard for me to recognize my limits. Here's a symptom list for kundalini.. http://www.elcollie.com/st/symptoms.html IP: Logged |
Doux Rêve
Knowflake Posts: 39
From: France
Registered: Dec 2010
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posted December 22, 2010 05:11 PM
Thank you for your support, VenusDiSirius, you are so right. After all, we only learn the hard way, don't we? And yes some of my aspect orbs are pretty wide, but I still feel them, certainly because they are part of a t-square.
Ps. And how is your friend now? Is she doing well? allouette, Thank you ! I remember the first time I saw my chart, I was so shocked and depressed for a while haha. I was like, "HOLY C**P! I've got the worst chart EVER!" but then.. I've kinda learned to accept it (even though at times I wish I had some more trines and sextiles and stuff...lol)
I don't know how to post charts here..
My Vertex is 24' Libra, widely conjuncting my Venus-Jupiter conjunction.
Lilith is 13' Aries, falling in my 12th. It doesn't make any major aspects to any of my planets.
I usually don't pay much attention to asteroids because they are not very prominent in my chart.. uhm.. well Juno is at 10' Libra, falling here again in my 6th, no aspects (except it's near my Sun/Moon midpoint at 8'5 Libra).
Pallas conjuncts my Saturn at 23' Aquarius, and squares Pluto. Vesta is 0' Pisces, opposing my Moon, squaring Mars, trining Venus-Jupiter. Ceres 25' Aries, opposing Venus-Jupiter, sextile Saturn. I don't really know what all of this means though. Except for Juno What sign is your 6th cusp?
And have you ever been to France? hehe mochai, That is so interesting. I do believe some people experience Kundalini. Why not? There are so many unseen things in the world.
But do you think anyone can actually experience it? Or is it something that only happens to few, "special" people? IP: Logged |
mochai
Knowflake Posts: 235
From: Charon
Registered: Sep 2010
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posted December 22, 2010 06:04 PM
There are many tantrics and gurus in india as well as people in other places that believe that it will happen to everyone on earth someday. It used to be that one had to practice their entire life to get kundalini, and now one can meditate substantially a few months or feel love just enough and they acquire it. I attribute the majority of the cases of chronic fatigue syndrome and fibromyalgia (both new illnesses) to expressions of kundalini, as well as the 1000% increase in bipolar disorder. Both mirror kundalini symptoms and kundalini does not arise the same in any two individuals. It's based on what you have to heal. Something is going on there.IP: Logged |
Doux Rêve
Knowflake Posts: 39
From: France
Registered: Dec 2010
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posted December 22, 2010 06:20 PM
You seem to know so much about it, mochai, I'm impressed. So basically, Kundalini manifests itself when there is something to heal? It's like an energy which "forces" you to fix something inside? and until you do that, it will express itself in different ways depending on individuals..? (or am I getting it all wrong?)IP: Logged |
mochai
Knowflake Posts: 235
From: Charon
Registered: Sep 2010
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posted December 22, 2010 06:36 PM
No, we're all a little injured living on this planet. You have to seek kundalini out or be of the right orientation whether via meditation, or experiences with love etc. for it to happen. It does force you to heal things. It's not a very well understood phenomena. Many say it will start healing things unconsciously with little consequence, but with extreme kundalini your blockages are kicked up to the point where some people are incapacitated in bed for months, it becomes impossible to concentrate on simple tasks or follow conversations and the physical pain can be tremendous. For emotional blockages you can become overreactive or angry or egotistical and then extremely insecure, and if you identify with that without healing the blockages you could be stuck at emotional extremes and eventually burn out your body. Some people spend weeks in awe of the world and they get so wrapped up in a love of god it scares them because they feel they might never leave it. There is a lot to it. It's not uncommon for people to think about or even commit suicide because it is so hard to control and they can't fathom living with it. I nearly had to go on disability for mine. IP: Logged |
Doux Rêve
Knowflake Posts: 39
From: France
Registered: Dec 2010
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posted December 22, 2010 07:23 PM
All right.. I see. Thank you very much for taking time to explain me. I guess it is still a misunderstood/ignored/denied phenomena, but it is definitely very intriguing.
And so your awakening happened because you were looking for it? by meditating? Or did it just hit you without warning?IP: Logged |
VenusDiSirius
Knowflake Posts: 168
From: Praha
Registered: Aug 2010
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posted December 22, 2010 07:26 PM
Doux Rêve,friend is good now. But,she is heavy pisces/cancer... fun never ends all that talking to herself,questioning,examinig,analysing... Fun never ends,i repeat ------------------
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mochai
Knowflake Posts: 235
From: Charon
Registered: Sep 2010
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posted December 22, 2010 07:29 PM
I have a lot of kaali aspects in my chart which are prevalent in charts of people with kundalini. There are many things that influence mine but the largest one I would say is experiences with love.IP: Logged |
Doux Rêve
Knowflake Posts: 39
From: France
Registered: Dec 2010
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posted December 22, 2010 07:31 PM
VenusDiSirius, Ahhh those water people!! It's good she's well though, even if the fun never ends  IP: Logged |
Doux Rêve
Knowflake Posts: 39
From: France
Registered: Dec 2010
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posted December 22, 2010 07:33 PM
quote:
Originally posted by mochai:
I have a lot of kaali aspects in my chart which is prevalent in charts of people with kundalini. There are many things that influence mine but the largest one I would say is experiences with love.
Ohhh all right. Well thank you again for sharing! I hope your experience will teach you even more than you already know IP: Logged |
aethan
Newflake Posts: 13
From: Lisbon, PT
Registered: Sep 2010
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posted December 23, 2010 09:46 PM
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Originally posted by mochai:
The repeating numbers have to do with messages your guides are trying to send you about your thoughts or about changes in your life. If you were shocking your cats without static electricity you are likey very ungrounded kundalini-wise. There's a ton to research there and some disagreeing information. If you're overloaded on kundalini it's best not to meditate or do any self healing and exercise and grounding visualizations as well as eating root vegetabes (recommended by tantrics) is advisable. Kundalini is energy and it needs a circuit/ground to function. If it's kundalini unconditional love towards everything is the easiest way to handle it along with downtime to integrate. It's still hard for me to recognize my limits. Here's a symptom list for kundalini.. http://www.elcollie.com/st/symptoms.html
I will definitely check that link out, thanks so much for your insight and information. quote:
Originally posted by mochai:
Many say it will start healing things unconsciously with little consequence, but with extreme kundalini your blockages are kicked up to the point where some people are incapacitated in bed for months, it becomes impossible to concentrate on simple tasks or follow conversations and the physical pain can be tremendous.
OK, it's sounding more and more familiar. I had a breakdown two/three years ago. I couldn't do anything. Now I'm better, but I still feel creative block, and a hard time concentrating, among other things.
Can it be that I'm finally going to understand what happened and is still happening to me? Maybe even heal completely?
Bless you mochai.
And sorry for barging in on your thread Doux Rêve! IP: Logged |
mochai
Knowflake Posts: 235
From: Charon
Registered: Sep 2010
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posted December 26, 2010 01:13 PM
Gah! Sorry I had work so I didn't see your post till just now. It is possible to heal completely, and I know it's not uncommon for kundalini to come in bursts and quiet down for a while. My current understanding is kundalini takes 13 years of healing on average before coming out the other side. Everyone's experience with kundalini is a little different so I wouldn't expect to fully understand it as no one really does. From my perspective, I see no reason why you can't heal completely. There are a lot of books on kundalini, but keep in mind that concentrating and reading up on the subject will make it worse.I'm going to add some videos that I think are important to kundaini. While not every kundalini activation will look like bipolar disorder, I do think bipolar disorder is really just active kundalini. I attribute the increasing kundalini activations to the 4000% increase in the diagnosis of bipolar disorder (I was statistically underreporting it earlier) and the new incidence of chronic fatigue syndrome and fibromyalgia. There is something about anti-depressants and anti-psychotics that prevent healing in kundalini so I would never recommend them except in extreme cases of paranoia (and I'm getting things now that disagree with me on that now). The first video I liked for it's approach on healing and the second because it talks about big pharma and anti-depressants (really sad and disturbing). This guy has many great bipolar videos and has been healing bipolar disorder successfully for years now, however he does report that having been medicated makes the process much harder.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yDQjJErJRk0&feature=related how to heal and integrate spiritual psychosis.. has implications in normal kundalini arousal and healing in general really
http://www.youtube.com/user/bipolarorwakingup#p/u/42/xBBc3fEnwOw big pharma
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Db8AYSrs2kk&feature=related on spiritual psychosis and bipolar
http://www.youtube.com/user/bipolarorwakingup#p/u/45/3c4CmhwD80w I added this in for healing of depression. His description of the cycles is very fitting for studies in neuroscience dealing with long term potentiation and long term depression. In a computer system and also in learning, one can learn best from heightened states and lowered states of arousal. The long term potentiation being arousal where you need to learn and long term depression where you need to take away something that is holding you back, which I found greatly correlate to my own experiences with depression. Something is not serving you, and this video illustrates that so eloquently. Also another thing I want to throw out there. Buddhist have long known that aversion increases both emotional and physical pain, and the most effective chronic pain management systems (MBSR) center around that. IP: Logged |
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