posted March 30, 2011 04:21 PM            

hospital corners...? does that mean having my **** together? and, YOU CAN CHANGE LIFELONG THEMES??! BOING...THE ACTUAL ENERGY RIVER, THE FLOW YOU GO WITH?? ...BOING...BOING...LIKE, TAKE A NEW ROUTE, AND YOU HEAD IN A DIFFERENT DIRECTION AND CHANGE YOUR LIFE EXPERIENCES AT CERTAIN KEY POINTS??!....BOING....BOING....BOING...!! if it's not as drastic as the possibilities i'm imagining, i'll still leave one boing for the inspired moment i just felt.

This transit occurs roughly 18-28 December. << that's a long time. so i have until then to figure out how i am going to change things for good and not just with scotch tape and elmer's?

posted March 30, 2011 04:23 PM            

"...4c. In the opposition you have your greatest chance to break the victim pattern. Your personal energies and sense of self are at their strongest (as long as you have hospital corners on your bed.).."

hospital corners...? does that mean having my **** together? and, YOU CAN CHANGE LIFELONG THEMES??! BOING...THE ACTUAL ENERGY RIVER, THE FLOW YOU GO WITH?? ...BOING...BOING...LIKE, TAKE A NEW ROUTE, AND YOU HEAD IN A DIFFERENT DIRECTION AND CHANGE YOUR LIFE EXPERIENCES AT CERTAIN KEY POINTS??!....BOING....BOING....BOING...!! if it's not as drastic as the possibilities i'm imagining, i'll still leave one boing for the inspired moment i just felt.

This transit occurs roughly 18-28 December. << that's a long time. so i have until then to figure out how i am going to change things for good and not just with scotch tape and elmer's?

4d. Overall, the key to watching these transits is the times the sun goes into Aries, Cancer, Libra and Capricorn. The day prior to the cross-over will be the day of strongest influence. Keep in mind that these are also the points where you can exercise your will on events with greatest influence. <<is this because those signs (when at angles at least) carry psychopathic tendencies and i'll be a-hole bait during those times? or am i WAY off here?

posted March 30, 2011 09:50 PM            

that's funny, i remember feeling more solid as little kid too. a very little tiny kid. my first memory was before i could walk. it's true that pisces have a loooooong memory.

random thought of the day:

posted March 31, 2011 04:35 AM            

i'ma total kook!

posted April 01, 2011 01:02 AM            

quote:

---

Originally posted by RunAroundScreaming:
Dear Alice,

Life sucks. It does. That is just something you're going to have to accept sooner or later. Now go out there and do what you like whatever you like....and eventually you will meet someone who makes you laugh your socks off, or someone who is so kind that it makes your heart melt, or someone who is so SO unafraid to live life to the fullest, that every single night they do. Almost every moment of their lives they do something outrageous and convince people to think out of the box. Life sucks. But a lot of people don't. Go out and volunteer and play with children, go see animals in nature, connect yourself with the innocent beings of the world who have no ulterior motives---but just are themselves. If you get a job you hate---well, all jobs suck. Stick through it. What will give you happiness is sticking through it---and everybody else at the job suffers like you do---become their friends. Try to make people laugh every moment of your life. Try to make every moment special and larger than life. You are not a victim. Everyone thinks life sucks, they do. They just don't show it. There are good people out there, people who just want to help, they'll approach you themselves and offer their kindness multiple times. Accept it. Don't worry, everything will be okay. Just make sure to have a rich inner life because that is the most importabt cure against loneliness. I write in my private tumblr diary every day. And when I read back on each entry I see how many different things I realize each day, and how much I've and my life has changed in just a week.

"Listen to the mustn'ts, child. Listen to the don'ts. Listen to the shouldn'ts, the impossibles, the won'ts. Listen to the never-haves, then listen close to me... Anything can happen, child. Anything can be." -Shel Silverstein

---

You, I like.

posted April 01, 2011 02:07 AM            

My thoughts are don’t be too ecstatic bout death coz that just means you will have to go through it all over again! just have sweet faith that everything will work out -eventualy..

posted April 01, 2011 02:25 AM            

quote:

---

Originally posted by RunAroundScreaming:
Dear Alice,

Life sucks. It does. That is just something you're going to have to accept sooner or later. Now go out there and do what you like whatever you like....and eventually you will meet someone who makes you laugh your socks off, or someone who is so kind that it makes your heart melt, or someone who is so SO unafraid to live life to the fullest, that every single night they do. Almost every moment of their lives they do something outrageous and convince people to think out of the box. Life sucks. But a lot of people don't. Go out and volunteer and play with children, go see animals in nature, connect yourself with the innocent beings of the world who have no ulterior motives---but just are themselves. If you get a job you hate---well, all jobs suck. Stick through it. What will give you happiness is sticking through it---and everybody else at the job suffers like you do---become their friends. Try to make people laugh every moment of your life. Try to make every moment special and larger than life. You are not a victim. Everyone thinks life sucks, they do. They just don't show it. There are good people out there, people who just want to help, they'll approach you themselves and offer their kindness multiple times. Accept it. Don't worry, everything will be okay. Just make sure to have a rich inner life because that is the most importabt cure against loneliness. I write in my private tumblr diary every day. And when I read back on each entry I see how many different things I realize each day, and how much I've and my life has changed in just a week.

"Listen to the mustn'ts, child. Listen to the don'ts. Listen to the shouldn'ts, the impossibles, the won'ts. Listen to the never-haves, then listen close to me... Anything can happen, child. Anything can be." -Shel Silverstein

---

I agree with Jake.This touches me, greatly
However,in times past,I would have felt guilty cuz there would be NO way I could receive this.
It would have felt like another way I was failing.
I am NOT saying RAS did anything to condemn or bring down anyone,just the opposite.
However,for me, I found more self condemnation cuz I could NOT do what the wise advice said.I knew it was right but it could not reach me.The layers of pain were too fortified and too deep.
Perhaps,Alice is not like that. I am just talking about myself, here.
Keep writing and talking,Alice.You are at home

posted April 01, 2011 03:46 AM            

quote:

---

I pray for sweet death...can someone tell me when that might be please?

---

Oh brother!

Like you so totally don't! ... want!... to know that!

sheesh

people these days...

PS. Welcome

posted April 01, 2011 09:02 AM            

If anybody knows here about death, please don't write about the date.

Some people can really die from the fear if they know day of their death.

I went through the hell and I know, how difficult life is, but I am still here.

Alice,

I will pray for you! Please, stay with us!

Bobbie

posted April 01, 2011 09:57 AM            

I am doing Kundalini yoga. I do it for an hour or two a day(when I am good )
I had a terrible depression come on me as I was doing it.
I realized that feelings come UP so we can let them go,release them.
It is a natural healing mechanism as in Homeopathy,if you ever studied that.
I go IN to the depression.I don't run.I embrace it and it transmutes.
If I embrace it long enough,it turns to something else, a good emotion such as peace

posted April 02, 2011 07:53 AM            

quote:

---

Originally posted by saquariogoces:
i agree! one of the more painful aspects is that other people have a hard time seeing YOU no matter how genuine you are, or as jake clarified, they see you but don't know what to make of you. ON THE BRIGHT SIDE, i no longer have any qualms about being myself considering people are gonna think whatever they are think no matter what the hell i have to say about it, haha.

of course this is true for everyone, but ESPECIALLY SO for neptune ascendants. and, hth DOES one clear neptune fog? meditation, eat right, etc.? visit a witch doctor? wait for a better transit? all 3? or what?

---

Well, you are YOU in an imitable way.I love it

posted April 02, 2011 07:58 AM            

You are DOING the first---BE YOURSELF

posted April 04, 2011 08:26 AM            

I really suggest you seek help. Whatever problems you find in this life won't necessarily just evaporate because you've left your physical body.

I'm suprised nobody's talked about your eighth house saturn and moon, offering you some real challenges regards your parents... perhaps some problems with coercion, plus a difficulty communicating genuine affection: I'm not going to give a full reading of your birth chart but am concerned that your chart does show suicidal tendencies, particularly the leo moon in the 8th and then neptune, conj asc from the 12th house. i want to reiterate that death really isn't the solution to your troubles, and just adds extra bad karma to what is already a difficult situation. Instead I want to pick out 2 factors that speak to me; your third house mercury in pisces: wow, it wants to communicate! Your really need to find a way to express yourself authentically, even if that means breaking with past relationships. With saturn crossing pluto it's a perfect time to leave behind past baggage and start afresh. That might involve a healing crisis: that feels similar to a breakdown but the results are positive, what is breaking down is a false ego that doesn't serve your genuine happiness.

The second factor is that beautiful truth seeking, joyous neptune in sag! You have real potential to spot ******** , and share a singular spiritual vision. That's if you decide not to trip out on the escapist nihilistic vibe.

So, I'm gonna skip the whole issue about when you are going to die. I don't think it's ethical or possible. If I read between the lines what I see is the question "How can I be fulfilled in this life?". My answer to that question is: speak your truth, and find a tribe or community that can support you in that. With the 12th house neptune you might really enjoy being in part of an organised comunity, or at least some kind of cloistered lifestyle. You don't have to be afraid of leaving behind an abusive family, there's a bigger family waiting for you once you claim your true identity and speak out loud!

Blessings

posted April 04, 2011 08:34 AM            

Those are just some possibilities.