posted November 05, 2011 05:26 PM            

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Originally posted by amowls**:
Most of my planets are in houses 5 through 11 so I tend to not focus on my self. I'm also a bleeding heart because of my Pisces Venus and my Sag placements. My Uranus is in Sag and I have Jupiter in the 11th so politics and human rights are a big deal to me. I used to volunteer for Food Not Bombs and I've helped NARAL and Planned Parenthood. I also like to spread awareness because I believe that a lot of people are too blind or too apathetic to care about what's going on in our world. A lot of things on my Tumblr are political and deal with racism and sexism. Hardly any personal posts lol. So I wouldn't agree with your assessment of Aquas.

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posted November 05, 2011 05:41 PM            

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Originally posted by amelia28:
LOL you are an enigma my friend...

I too love the mental exercise of figuring out people and part of my attraction to people that I choose to pursue as friends or for a relationship is that they fascinate me and I want to study them.....but also I want to learn from them and also I enjoy the feeling of helping them and seeing them grow and love the concept of growing together.

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I know. I apologize. I sound confusing.

In general I dont really care like I'm not concerned about the wellfare of others... maybe it's self-involvement who knows! At the same time I am fascinated by people.. just not a on a personal level.. more like wanting to understand their habits, psychological makeup things like that and once they open up to me I go "woaaah wait back up! Huh? We are not friends or lovers...!!" this happens with most people! A few months ago a sag guy did this to me. I wasn't interested in him... sure I asked a lot of questions but mostly about his habits, psychological makeup, I wanted to see who he was, and he took that and "trusted" me than started pouring out to me about his life and his relationship hardships and he clearly wanted a relationship with me I thought "what the heck is wrong with this guy? when did things get personal here?" so I just distanced myself but you get my point. my avid interest in people on a mental level, often confuses others and they think there is something deeper. I don't see what they see so to speak lol!!!

The same thing is actually happening right now with a Cap sun cancer moon!

And no it's the correct birth time. I've always wondered too why I seem a lot more driven, affectionate and value material things over most people *lol* it sounds evil. but the only explanation I can think of is material things dont hold feelings or emotions, I can dispose of them when I please without dealing with the boring inevitable "You hurt me" blabber.

posted November 05, 2011 05:48 PM            

I would, therefore say, as three of my five key planets are in the Aquarian-ruled house -- I am definitely an Aquarian woman, through and through. I have a rebel-without-a-cause streak in me, I am incredibly eccentric (which is often mistaken as a form of seeking attention -- this is just my natural aesthetic and comfort), and with my feelings -- I could be considered "chilly" at times.

I have an uncanny ability to put on a happy face for the crowd (not as often as I wish), and to let all emotional experiences serve as the learning experiences that they are -- meaning that although inside I am deeply human -- I know that loved ones often mistake my process of the experience as an opportunity for learning, as a super or sub-human experience. Many people, it seems, don't understand that deep inside the heart of the Aquarian, and with all of that learning and growth -- is a lot of anguish and pain. Perhaps, this suffering is why we are detached, and why so many of us long for a more utopian world...one in which no hearts will be broken...

posted November 05, 2011 05:49 PM            

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Originally posted by amowls**:
Most of my planets are in houses 5 through 11 so I tend to not focus on my self. I'm also a bleeding heart because of my Pisces Venus and my Sag placements. My Uranus is in Sag and I have Jupiter in the 11th so politics and human rights are a big deal to me. I used to volunteer for Food Not Bombs and I've helped NARAL and Planned Parenthood. I also like to spread awareness because I believe that a lot of people are too blind or too apathetic to care about what's going on in our world. A lot of things on my Tumblr are political and deal with racism and sexism. Hardly any personal posts lol. So I wouldn't agree with your assessment of Aquas.

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Well you have your planets focused in planets not relate to the self, whereas I do. I really envy you a little I wish I could hold such desire an passion like you do,

How can you care about others? This is strange to me... enough to take time out of your hands etc? It's just not me I don't think I will ever be. I've tried volunteering it bored the life out of me.. I felt sorry for the people there that believed I was "such a lovely helpful person" they all though "Wow what an honorable woman you are! More people should be caring and generous like you." I felt very sorry for them because these people are the exact type to be taken advantage of. they wouldnt recognize a wolf in sheeps clothing. Because I am none of those things they described. I'm stingy, and rarely do things for others.. not cause I don't see a point there's that too but mostly cause it bruises my ego. I dont receive enjoyment from doing things for other people unless there is a motivation behind it or god forbid emotion (when I genuinely care about you even then it's rare)
I don't donate a cent to charities I dont think this is determining any ounce of selflessness, I don't understand how people donate money and think they are helping others. if I wanted to truly help, id get mysel on a plan and physically make myself present. I'd rather spend my money on valuable things..

posted November 05, 2011 06:01 PM            

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Originally posted by RunAroundScreaming:
O_O

air signs......don't kill me but dang. That sounds so superficial, cold, and insensitive...

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I'm really curious, could you expand? I'm working on trying to better myself so I could use any input!

I try very hard to care but it's just not there. I can be in a room full of people.. still not there. This is why I almost enjoy being alone I never understood the group mentality I am never part of a group, because I can't relate to them. I try to, it works but momentarily.

I do have feelings. Maybe not on the surface (a general daily emotion I'm in would probably be called indifference/contentment) I just don't know how to emotionally invest 80% of the time. Even though I Have Pisces moon and Venus I was always confused to why I couldn't reflect or understand or feel my feelings in depth, I just assume with the fixed uranus/saturn influence. but I do have a lot of feelings. Somewhere.... I promise! I wouldnt say I am a cold person... just not very demonstrative with personal matters. add to the fact that I react very slowly if at all to things especially personal matters. I will say/do something that "hurts" someone feelings and I wont register it at all even though to them its apparent, I will probably figure it our 2 hours - a week later if at all, and I wont come out and talk about it either, so I can see where the coldness come from and why people might get that impression from me. my ego/inability to verbalize things people seem to need/want to hear from me, like "I love you" "I care about you" "i am sorry" stuff like that.. I rarely say.

I don't mean to come off as unpleasant but I truly am not humanitarian. It's very difficult to evoke that feeling out of me. I care... just on my own terms....