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Originally posted by RegardesPlatero:
To answer your questions:--I try not to surround myself with unappreciative people, but it just happens.
Even Platero-lite just seems insufferable to other people.
The whole big mess with Leo and Sag is really depressing me right now. I don't understand why they were put in my life at all (and they did end up in my life purely by chance) because I clearly haven't benefited them and they cause me a lot of deep, intense sadness.
--I am hard on myself because I expect a lot from myself. Mars in Capricorn. Saturn 1st house (Sag).
--People do see me as defective. I'm not "out" about what I have, but they still pick up that I'm "not right". The common denominator is me, so obviously there's something wrong with me. They would treat me differently if they didn't find something wrong with me. Can that many people *really* be wrong about me?
--Seeing reality can be hard. Sometimes, I get a very clear idea about things, but other times, I see two contradictory messages being presented and have difficulty in knowing which one to believe, or if I should believe neither, or both, or part of one and part of the other. I constantly am holding things in tension and it's frustrating. The not-knowing gets on my nerves. My Neptune is in Capricorn too. Capricorn isn't exactly the rose-colored glasses sign of the zodiac. It does tend toward pessimism and doesn't sugarcoat anything.
My Venus is in Scorpio along with Pluto, in the 12th, so perhaps relationships lead to my undoing/maybe this also has something to do with it.
strong saturn can make you rather gloomy and take things very serious. saturn can also give depression. im pretty sure when its in the 1st house it can lower the confidence as well.