posted May 20, 2012 06:05 AM
Hi, I've writeen this in another post. Could someone give me an insight about my love life and my job?I'm a Gemini, my venus is at 8 Gem in my 2/3th houses squaring my Saturn in the 6th house.
My sun is at 27 Gemini in the 3th.
My jupiter is in my 5th house forming a sextil with venus. I was waiting for tr venus rx and for tr jupiter in gemini.
8 months ago I got out from a 9 years relationship (he left me and has done things in the most painfull way he could have done it (eg he said he didnt love me for 6 years at the date he left. No mercy for the fact that we have a 4 years daughter. We have saturn stuff in our natal charts (he has cap asc), in our synastry and in our composite.. It's being difficult to get over this person and the ties I feel with him.. the guy with who I had dreamt before I had even met him. Really.. I've dreamt with us in a house I didn't imagine existed, a house we shared some years later.
I cant move one.. he was like family to me, he wouldnt ever do these stuff he's doing. Does his venus and moon in his 8th house anything to do with this?
Since he left I had been "ok" for a while, but my emotions are low since about a month ago.
I have hope in this venus retrograde.. tr venus at 8 gemini will be important and it will conjunct my natal venus. And I have hope in the tr jupiter entering gemini.. First I had the hope he would come back to me and make things work out for us.. because tr uranus is starting to trine our composite MC. But at 15 May (wow) I found he has a girlfriend (and tr neptune is opposing his natal venus).
Maybe I should only have the hope for me to heal, forgive and forget.. how could someone I've been with for 9 years in such a strong tie, in a relationship which survived so many things....... Maybe it would be nice for me someone from the past to come in.. since venus went rx it has happened to someone people around me..
I'm reading about this and he could apologize during this venus rx.. surprisingly at least, at 15 May, he admitted he could have done things in a different way which is something very different from the stuff he has been saying to me since 8 months ago
I had hope.. at 16 May I was informed my job is ending at the end of the month.. I read somewhere in the net that tense work relationships could end.
I have great aspects between transiting planets and my natal planets and I think I have the potencial to get a better job, to find a new lover, to improve my life, etc, etc, but things just seem to keep getting worse and worse. tr jupiter will conjunct my natal venus, tr uranus will sextil my natal venus.. I'm trying to take advantage of the opportunitties the transits of the last months are giving me, doing unusual things since im a shy girl but doors keep closing at my face and its like a disaster.. at least i'm taking fun of it.. its like I?m clown taking fun of myself (tr uranus at my 1st is a magnificent, its unbelievable, tr saturn trine sun, etc.)
Do you think my natal venus at 8Gemini will be something important for me in this venus rx? Could someone help understand what is happening in my life and what else shall I wait?
Thanks for reading this and sorry for my english 0_o