posted July 26, 2012 01:55 AM            

The guys i did have a relationship from my very first relationship cheated on me and used me for my kindness, ill admit i was way more naive and appeasing back then but I did change and I vowed that I wouldnt let anyone treat me like that again. My 1st bf did a real number on me and as bad as it was I still had hope. A year after breaking up with him I met someone else who said they liked me and then after like 2 mnths started treating my like crap, I guess I was too nice to him too. After about 2 years I broke up with him and again regained my strength and self esteem. I remember that time in my life it was about 6 years ago and I felt great. I wasnt trying to date anyone seriously I was making good money, spending alot of time with my friends and getting into great shape. Then I met another guy, dated for about 3 months I thought things were good and we would end up in a relationship, but then he started to distance himself and play mind games with me. So i tried to make it work for a while then I let it go, and was on my own again for like 8mths. Met someone else who strung me along and since then i swore to myself I would not go through that again and if they werent in the same place I was in I would move on. That brings me to last summer when I met a Gem who really seemed to be someone I could get to know and we seemed to have a connnection. We went on plenty dates, spent alot of time talking and chilling with each other, and then he asked me to be his girl. I agreed because I finally felt like that was someone I could be with. Things were great for like the 1st month of being official and then he started lying. His mood changed, he was cold and distant. he also started asking me unrealistic questions like will you move away with me in 6 months and get married and have children? which was wierd because it was too soon for that and he wasnt even acting like that is something he wanted by his actions. So i concluded that he was just using me saying no to those things as his excuse to get out of the relationship. He too played mind games with me and then I checked his phone one day and saw that he was never serious about me because he was getting naked pics from other girls. After confronting him he had the nerve to break up with me.

Since then I have met three guys that I was potentially interested in and they all keep alot of distance from me after a while. One guy i was talking to via the internet I guess changed his mind about me after I suggested we talk on the phone vs texting. We had been in communication everyday since exchaning numbers and he even suggested we meet in the week but I couldnt because of work. I was getting tired of always texting and I said when you get a chance to talk, call me. His reply was i will around 7-8 and I said ok. I havent heard from him since. that was 6 days ago, I didnt contact him since either until today, and he ignored me. So im done, but I am a bit hurt that he couldnt even have the decency to reply, he didnt even give me a chance.

Sorry for the long post but I am very sad about this, I just cant understand what Im always doing wrong. I am not ugly at all, im a nice person but I am becoming angry, bitter and just sad. People around me and my age have had plenty of healthy, good relationships, I am the only person in my fam who never is able to bring anyone to fam functions and them always asking about my dating life, at this poiht they think something is wrong with me i think I can sense it. I am perpetually alone

Zodiac in degrees 0.00 Placidus Orb:0
Sun Aries 17.18 Ascendant Aries 0.24
Moon Pisces 26.12 II Taurus 12.25
Mercury Pisces 20.41 III Gemini 9.01
Venus Taurus 6.16 IV Cancer 0.12
Mars Capricorn 5.03 V Cancer 21.25
Jupiter Pisces 10.37 VI Leo 18.08
Saturn Sagittarius 9.24 R VII Libra 0.24
Uranus Sagittarius 22.19 R VIII Scorpio 12.25
Neptune Capricorn 5.49 R IX Sagittarius 9.01
Pluto Scorpio 6.30 R Midheaven Capricorn 0.12
Lilith Gemini 4.26 XI Capricorn 21.25
Asc node Aries 29.57 XII Aquarius 18.08

Sun Trine Saturn 7.54 2
Sun Trine Uranus 5.01 63
Moon Conjunction Mercury 5.31 214
Moon Square Uranus 3.53 -42
Moon Conjunction Ascendant 4.12 209
Moon Square Midheaven 4.00 -30
Mercury Square Uranus 1.38 -56
Mercury Conjunction Ascendant 9.42 7
Venus Trine Mars 1.12 215
Venus Trine Neptune 0.26 128
Venus Opposition Pluto 0.14 -351
Venus Trine Midheaven 6.04 25
Mars Conjunction Neptune 0.46 384
Mars Sextile Pluto 1.26 175
Mars Square Ascendant 4.40 -17
Mars Conjunction Midheaven 4.51 161
Jupiter Square Saturn 1.13 -108
Jupiter Trine Pluto 4.08 65
Uranus Conjunction Midheaven 7.53 25
Neptune Sextile Pluto 0.40 75
Neptune Square Ascendant 5.26 -2
Neptune Conjunction Midheaven 5.37 35
1783 -606 1177

is there anything in my chart that points to my problems? Could it be all my planets in the 12th house?

posted July 26, 2012 02:27 AM            

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Originally posted by awakemer:
Just wanted to say one thing.. you are a very beautiful person inside and out. remember who you are. I think its important to learn how to love and accept yourself.. then "rejection" will not happen. Look at the words you use and use only positive affirmations about yourself. You ARE good enough! You ARE lovable. You are WORTHY!! <3

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Thanx for that!! And i do try to stay postive but it is hard because I dont really have anything to balance out the rejection, I dont have any good memories or experiences to reflect on in this area of my life.

posted July 26, 2012 02:28 AM            

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Originally posted by awakemer:
give me your birth info and I will try to do it for you.

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April 7, 1986
5:00 AM
Brooklyn, Ny

posted July 26, 2012 03:16 AM            

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Originally posted by awakemer:
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everything looks the same to me.

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