posted September 20, 2012 02:59 PM            

She had killer pipes.

She would never let anyone know that she could sing, though... Til this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=61eBpff-5U8

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"To PLAY is human.

posted September 20, 2012 03:05 PM            

Saturn & Neptune trine my 9th house Mars in Taurus. Mars conjuncts my Moon, the latter being in conjunction also with Jupiter.

Hannaramaa, always remember it's not your fault! You don't have anything to be ashamed of. You're just yourself doing your thing. Everyone must express herself/himself. It's the ones who make you feel otherwise who should be feeling remorseful and start questioning themselves about what they said and did to make you feel like this.

posted September 20, 2012 03:09 PM            

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Originally posted by DeathIsanIllusion:
I used to be brainwashed into thinking and feeling like that. My 4th house is the culprit. Since Pluto in Capricorn began making an applying conjunction to my natal Saturn and Neptune I've finally started to be exactly the way I really am and not what others want me to be. Like 100% myself. No more hiding, no more feelings of guilt, shame, no more inability in recognizing others' patterns in trying to manipulate me. I'm Earth influenced, Pluto will do me good. And with Uranus's square I let everyone know who they're dealing with. Uranus is the dispositor of my Sun and Venus.

Hannaramaa, always remember it's not your fault! You don't have anything to be ashamed of. You're just yourself doing your thing. Everyone must express herself/himself. It's the ones who make you feel otherwise who should be feeling remorseful and start questioning themselves about what they said and did to make you feel like this.

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Aww, thanks DII. My parents aren't directly unsupportive. I guess I wished they took more of an interest in my talents, especially because I actually AM good at it (and not some delusional "Worst Idol Audition" person). But my mom only ever comes upstairs when she can't get ahold of me to do something for her, and my dad will mock me because that's his way of showing affection.

I have Virgo in the 4th, so maybe that has something to do with it? Virgo is a sign that likes functioning in an automatic way, right? So expressing my Pisces NN traits is uncomfortable....maybe? There's no aspect or planet in my 4th either.

posted September 20, 2012 03:11 PM            

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Originally posted by hannaramaa:
...Was that really Brittany Murphy?

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Yes, indeed..! She was also doing songs for the movie Happy Feet... The girl had a great voice and no one knew her for it. Even now, i think maybe a handful know that the voice in the oakenfold song is her.

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Interesting. I didn't let anyone know I could sing 'til these past 6 months either. I don't feel embarrassed knowing people watch my YouTube videos but my parents just trigger an awful temper in me when they drop in unexpectedly.

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I think it's only natural.

I think when anyone is in the 'zone' there is a certain level of letting their guard down to access their muse and when they intrude, it's almost an invasion of privacy but, you also have the responsibility of setting limits so that they know how far they can go and can't.

posted September 20, 2012 03:11 PM            

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Originally posted by ail221:
Yes, Mars in Taurus 12th house

I love art and performing but I HATE having people watching me while doing it. Literally locking away my sketchbooks when I was a kid I didn't like anyone seeing them which was kind of awkward because I went to a vocational hs, were presenting my work was a part of the learning process. Art just feels intimate to me.

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I got over my fear of other's seeing me perform when I started posting my videos on YouTube and was shocked by the positive responses. Then again that's not IN FRONT of people! I dream of performing for an audience someday though. I'll just blacklist my parents.

posted September 20, 2012 03:14 PM            

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Originally posted by C1ND3R:
I think it's only natural.

I think when anyone is in the 'zone' there is a certain level of letting their guard down to access their muse and when they intrude, it's almost an invasion of privacy but, you also have the responsibility of setting limits so that they know how far they can go and can't.

The anger is probably just built up resentment that you've had against them for a while. That's a childhood thing, more than likely... If they never encouraged that side of you, maybe you're resentful that they jump in to be a part of it when u had no help or encouragement from them while you were younger? Just throwing a wild guess out there.. I haven't seen your chart.

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posted September 20, 2012 03:25 PM            

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Originally posted by hannaramaa:
I got over my fear of other's seeing me perform when I started posting my videos on YouTube and was shocked by the positive responses. Then again that's not IN FRONT of people! I dream of performing for an audience someday though. I'll just blacklist my parents.

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posted September 20, 2012 03:29 PM            

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Originally posted by hannaramaa:
You're right. And for some reason I'm able to pinpoint what it is easier this year, than others. No, they never encouraged me and they don't encourage or discourage me now. My dad mocks me singing, and my mom never asks so whenever the come barging in unexpectedly and interrupt my "sessions" I guess you could say, I just feel extremely self-conscious!

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Well, calmly, after you've vented the anger through exercise or something, let your dad know that he's out of line. Make it clear that it isn't ok and that it's disrespectful. State what you want; privacy, them to back off, etc... Then, you can sing peacefully.

If they trangress, then you're allowed to open up a little bit more and state your point with a little more zeal...

I don't mean that you should throw the piano at them but if he is crossing blundaries, he is disrespecting you and not honoring what you say.. In my opinion, you're allowed to then defend yourself and your space.

posted September 20, 2012 03:29 PM            

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Originally posted by hannaramaa:
I have Mars Gemini in the 12H ruled by Taurus. I always imagined the shame that comes along with my playing piano and singing being interrupted by my parents was because of my Mars being there. When they intrude, I feel exposed and embarrassed. I wondered if anyone else with the placement feels the same - when you are doing something you're passionate about and someone finds out unintentionally - how do you feel?

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posted September 20, 2012 03:31 PM            

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Originally posted by hannaramaa:
Aww, thanks DII. My parents aren't directly unsupportive. I guess I wished they took more of an interest in my talents, especially because I actually AM good at it (and not some delusional "Worst Idol Audition" person). But my mom only ever comes upstairs when she can't get ahold of me to do something for her, and my dad will mock me because that's his way of showing affection.

I have Virgo in the 4th, so maybe that has something to do with it? Virgo is a sign that likes functioning in an automatic way, right? So expressing my Pisces NN traits is uncomfortable....maybe? There's no aspect or planet in my 4th either.

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posted September 20, 2012 03:36 PM            

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Originally posted by Desiring Shadows:
Hannahrama, I think this is because of your saturn placements on the sun/moon. The moon for a girl is an important aspect of her personality, and saturn is a hardworking planet.
I have this terrible perfectionist streak
you shouldn't feel self-conscious. There is life outside of your family. I saw your singing and I thought you are beautiful and talented. by posting those videos you had more courage than I ever did. I always want to post videos and never do. my 5th nn?

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Oh wow! Thank you

posted September 20, 2012 03:40 PM            

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Gemini rising is the orphans asc, I've heard

They grow up asking TOO many questions, wanting to know more.. But then they're shunned by those they love most and become blocked out. left with their toys and games
pisces is the other orphans ASc.

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posted September 20, 2012 03:42 PM            

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Originally posted by C1ND3R:
P.s. I have mars in aries in the twelfth and i have the same attitude towards ANYONE when i work out.

I absolutely have to have my own fully decked out gym because working out in public just does not feel right to me.

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Okay see now I'm intrigued if anyone has an answer for why C1ND3R's "quirk" is working out alone, and mine is singing. What's your 12H ruled by? Mine is Taurus, and Tauruses rule the throat (and is ruled by Venus = art) plus my Mars is in Gemini which is, like, chatty cathy..

posted September 20, 2012 03:45 PM            

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posted September 20, 2012 04:21 PM            

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Originally posted by hannaramaa:
"blah blah.. positive experiences moon trine saturn? There is life outside of family" I like that.

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posted September 20, 2012 04:26 PM            

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[QUOTE]Originally posted by hannaramaa:
[b]"blah blah.. positive experiences moon trine saturn? There is life outside of family" I like that.

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Natal Uranus in the 4th approves that!