posted December 14, 2012 09:51 PM            

Even in the room with crowded people, even with your family and relationship partner? Even when people constantly tell you how good you are but you still feel alone and unloved in this world, and unsure of myself and others' advancements. I think people are against me or lying to me all the time.

I have Neptune conjunct ASC opposite my sun

posted December 15, 2012 08:54 AM            

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Originally posted by KarkaQueen:
1st house rules casual relationships

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posted December 15, 2012 09:07 AM            

To be honest I feel more "all one" or "one with all", to the degree that I HAVE to distance myself or I will get overwelmed.
An astrologer once told me that I was a "psychic sponge", but luckily with my Neptune/ASC in a minor triangle with my Pallas-Pluto-trine, which gives me a good way to cope.

It is actually more an issue to me to discern between my OWN individual feelings or if I am just soaking up someone else`s emotional energy.

However, I do feel alone (but not lonely) sometimes in the sense that I know that people live with a very different mindset than mine. All these statussymbols you "have" to have in our society, just doesn`t mean anything to me, which many people can`t comprehend, so I think I am considered "nice but weird" by most people.

Though I think it might not be due to my Neptune alone, but I have Uranus as ruler ofthe 3rd house in SCorpio on the 11th house cusp. Plus Neptune is the ruler of my intercepted 3rd house.

I guess I am "far out there" mentally for most people.

But even though there is some kind of distance due to people not really understanding how my mind operates, I still feel surrounded by love. Especially when it comes to family and friends (though I donīt have many).

My mom had a motto when we were kids and that was: "A happy childhood is the paradise you can never get chased away from" and she and my dad did anything in their power to give us happy memories that would serve as a buffer to whatever would be coming our way. Though of course my siblings and me had our nasty experiences (even in childhood), I think her concept worked fairly well.

When I think back of the earliest memories in my life, I remember orange and yellow (the livingroom had these colours back then) and I remember warmth, light, laughter; long walks or bicycle tours with my parents or even just my Dad through the forest on sunday morning, watching some soccer matches and basically long walks (too long for my taste in puberty. lol) through nature, either in forests or at the sea or in the mountains.

Of course there are not so happy memories as well, but these come later. I believe these early memories of sunshine, serenity and warmth is something that can never be taken from me, and is a real spiritual support in tough times.

posted December 15, 2012 04:42 PM            

5th house is casual dating, romantic relationships that aren't serious.

posted December 15, 2012 05:28 PM            

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Originally posted by Ceridwen:

uh, no.

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WOW why do you guys have to be BLUNT about everything?? Its what i HEARD from OTHER ASTROLOGERS