posted January 22, 2015 07:39 AM            

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Originally posted by Violets:
Wow, do you have Saturn in 11H? I am a lot the way that you described, and I agree that friendships are kind of a pain unless they're really special.

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posted January 22, 2015 09:10 AM            

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Originally posted by next to neptune:
I think we have a lot of inner turmoil that has to be fixed. Maybe it's because we have so much contradictions, that we feel torn apart inside. Some people hide it more than others.
But I think one of the biggest problems is, that it's hard for other people to get really close to us. Both because we are filled with bad luck and many difficult situations that make people tired of being with us, but also because we are filled with so many contradictions all the time, and don't always understand our own personalities.
And if we are together with people who has very easy chart, they don't get it (and synastry is often bad probably). And on the side, if we match up with people of our own kind (difficult chart) we can't get along after a while probably, because we have all our own problems to deal with.
So it's hard for us to have lifelong friendships or longtherm relationships...

But! The drive is certainly there, because we are forced to meet obstacles from the day we were born... so actually we learn a lot, compared to those with trines and sextiles all over their chart.
We definitely have the drive and motivation, because we don't have another choice...

we can't just sit on the couch and expect things to happen!

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posted January 22, 2015 03:12 PM            

I used to be very antisocial while in highschool. Had only one friend really. I changed a lot over last few years. It's like i've embraced who i really am - a Libra Sun, Venus and Mercury
.. a social butterfly. I have many friends and go out all the time, attend and organize many events. My "good" aspects assist me at that, i guess - i have Moon conjunct Jupiter in 11H and sextile Mercury and Venus, and Mars - and Venus has an exact trine with Mars.

posted January 22, 2015 04:52 PM            

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I would like to know what people with deeply afflicted natal charts are like

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posted January 22, 2015 04:59 PM            

I can be very obsessive, naive and delusional. Impulsive, rebellious and pent up anger but no desire to take it out on others- just myself. I have always been drawn to dark aspects of human nature, which is probably a very common thing amongst people, except - and I think this is due to my afflicted Mars- I tend to actually follow through with my morbid curiosities, and have placed myself in dangerous situations all my life. I have also gone through phases of hating my existence and being extremely self-destructive with drugs and eating disorders, and unhealthy, abusive, sexual relationships that I probably should have brought to court. I grew up in an abusive environment, mixed with a loving one from the other half of my family (who I didn't live with, I guess they didn't want to deal with raising me). I'm also diagnosed with bipolar disorder. I'm extremely lucky to be alive and well, but am not on meds due to a recent freak accident with them. I am constantly afraid of 'slipping' and ruining my life, which I've had a tendency to do periodically.

I also have a yod with the moon as the apex, which makes so much sense to me for the bipolar factor.
As for my Mars, it is just tightly squaring Pluto and Jupiter, and widely opposing Saturn.

BUT at the same time, I have a lot of grand trines involving my Moon, Mars, Sun, Mercury, Ceres, and Ascendant in fire signs. I see it as a blessing that - A) I'm alive, and B) I have been able to look inside myself and take responsibility for my actions, face my own demons. I've also learned to channel the energy constructively, into art.
I think part of the reason I'm here is so that I can connect with other people and help them see the beauty of living, and help them realize their own self-worth. It took allll my life for me to realize mine.

posted January 22, 2015 05:35 PM            

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Originally posted by fairaqua:
My Saturn is in the 4th
Cancer, which is the 4th's natural ruler, sits over my 11th

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*facepalm*
You said that about your Saturn placement already, sorry.

posted January 22, 2015 06:51 PM            

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Originally posted by Lazyscarecrow:

One is a guy. He is an Aries Sun/Moon and a Cap ascendant, if he gave me the right birth time. Well, he's very, very reckless. Smart guy, but makes certain life decisions that would seem to prove otherwise. I feel like he has a good heart and is generous, but often times winds up in situations with untrustworthy people. His friends seem to talk behind his back and people do in general. A lot associates did not like him right off the bat because he is overly energetic, sociable, and likes to be the center of attention. Seriously. He likes to jump on people, invade personal space, and play with people's faces/ears/etc like a kid... He can be really moody and gloomy but will not tolerate another person's emotional problems, ESPECIALLY if they involve him. He appears to have a bit of bad luck, as he is always involved in an accident, a bad relationship (his last gf turned out to be a sex worker and he didn't know it), switching jobs, schools, random violence, just all sorts of crazy sh1t. He's a little overbearing at times but means well... when I was in a relationship with him he would always disregard or disrespect my feelings with his rashness, generally not communicate and ignore me, but it seems now that we are platonic friends he treats me a bit better, actually A LOT better.

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posted January 22, 2015 07:21 PM            

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Originally posted by I'm so cappy:
I'm weird. And messed up. And scary. Boo!

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