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Topic: Suppressed feelings
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Jessica2407 Knowflake Posts: 743 From: Saturn Registered: Sep 2012
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posted February 22, 2013 10:13 AM
@its_aquaMay be you should not improvise on what the other person might or might not say. Why do think he would say that you are not good enough to work Saturdays? Has he ever hinted that you are not good at your job? Don't run convos in your head,it's not fair on yourself and on the other people involved. I have saturn conjunct sun, in leo, saturn conjunct mercury in leo, conjunct venus again in leo,saturn opp my cappy asc. IP: Logged |
its_aqua Knowflake Posts: 228 From: Mars Registered: Nov 2012
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posted February 22, 2013 10:53 AM
I always think that the worse will happen. I know my Mars place isn't good at all. My feelings keep being bottled up. I let things that upset me happen and then when many have happened, I want to explode and I don't know how to act.I also noticed that my Moon is quincunx my Pluto. I wonder how that plays out. I constantly try to build my confidence but I think main problem is that I search for acceptance from others. I mean if someone doubts my qualities I will think they're right.
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Jessica2407 Knowflake Posts: 743 From: Saturn Registered: Sep 2012
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posted February 22, 2013 11:01 AM
moon-pluto is intense.Have the square. My Mars is in 8th H - Virgo, squares neptune, inconjunct pluto,mercury and venus.IP: Logged |
its_aqua Knowflake Posts: 228 From: Mars Registered: Nov 2012
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posted February 22, 2013 11:11 AM
Ugh, I have aquarius sun and gemini ascendant and aries moon, but I carry all this burden inside me.Im capricorn- scorpio dominant accodring to this pullen thing. ugh  IP: Logged |
Jessica2407 Knowflake Posts: 743 From: Saturn Registered: Sep 2012
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posted February 22, 2013 12:07 PM
quote: Originally posted by its_aqua: Ugh, I have aquarius sun and gemini ascendant and aries moon, but I carry all this burden inside me.Im capricorn- scorpio dominant accodring to this pullen thing. ugh 
I do hope you can beat this  You are doing your Master's you said right? Earning a degree with all the hard work also helps at boosting up your ego, morale, and self esteem. Am sure it'll work out fine for you. You got to focus on the positive points of your life. Moon-pluto may come off too intense at times, that's the danger of bottling up emotions cause when they are let out, they are overly magnified and people are confused,and are turned off by such intensity. IP: Logged |
its_aqua Knowflake Posts: 228 From: Mars Registered: Nov 2012
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posted February 22, 2013 12:19 PM
quote: Originally posted by Jessica2407: I do hope you can beat this  You are doing your Master's you said right? Earning a degree with all the hard work also helps at boosting up your ego, morale, and self esteem. Am sure it'll work out fine for you. You got to focus on the positive points of your life. Moon-pluto may come off too intense at times, that's the danger of bottling up emotions cause when they are let out, they are overly magnified and people are confused,and are turned off by such intensity.
Ugh, both Moon-Pluto and Venus-Pluto what can I do to change?? do you see any positive aspects in my chart i should try to bring out?? IP: Logged |
I'm so cappy Knowflake Posts: 420 From: Poland/Saturn Registered: Nov 2012
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posted February 22, 2013 12:42 PM
quote: Originally posted by Jessica2407: moon-saturn venus-saturn sun-saturn venus sq moonMay be?
Lol. I have all these aspects and I tend to hide my feelings too but I'm not that dramatic and desperate for attention. Girl, you need to find strenght in YOURSELF and stop being so emotionally dependent on others. Only then you will find peace of mind. ------------------ Do you have some chocolate? IP: Logged |
its_aqua Knowflake Posts: 228 From: Mars Registered: Nov 2012
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posted February 22, 2013 01:10 PM
quote: Originally posted by I'm so cappy: Lol. I have all these aspects and I tend to hide my feelings too but I'm not that dramatic and desperate for attention.Girl, you need to find strenght in YOURSELF and stop being so emotionally dependent on others. Only then you will find peace of mind.
how do I do that cappy ? i know it sounds like a stupid question,but i really want to be confident.  IP: Logged |
starfairy Knowflake Posts: 350 From: los angeles, california, USA Registered: Jul 2010
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posted February 22, 2013 01:42 PM
I agree with Orange that it has to do with Mars in the 12th.I also agree with the Sun-Saturn conjunction having an effect, as well. The wide square from your Moon to your Saturn doesn't help much, either. Your Moon in Aries has some pretty strong aspects. My Moon is in Aries, too, but mine has really harmonious aspects, so expressing myself isn't difficult. Neptune squares your Aries Moon, which softens it quite a bit. Aries is very assertive and direct, while Neptune is compassionate, elusive, and soft. Mercury also squares your Moon, so blending communication (Mercury) with emotions (Moon) isn't easy for you. Also, you have Mercury-Neptune in the 7th. Perhaps you think a lot about the feelings of others, which makes it difficult for you to express your own feelings/needs. I have Mercury-Neptune conjunct as well, and I don't like bugging people with my problems. It can also make expressing oneself a bit difficult (Mercury is detached, unemotional, and logical, while Neptune is not). IP: Logged |
meissieri Knowflake Posts: 34 From: The Netherlands Registered: Feb 2013
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posted February 22, 2013 01:48 PM
I'm thinking Chiron in Cancer in the 2nd house, so you're very sensitive about your self esteem. It trines your Pluto in the 6th house (daily life, your day job). Chiron also opposes your Sun, Saturn, Neptune and North Node, so that's a lot of pressure again. Jessica2407 made some really good points there. The thing about wanting to close your Facebook and hoping that people would come and take care of you... I think you curl into yourself when you get overwhelmed. Others said Moon-Pluto and yeah, that's a tough aspect. Gives you really strong emotions that you said you want to suppress.I agree on focusing on the master's degree. That's a big achievement, try to take some pride in that. Having something you know you're good at helps to feel more at ease. Also, an outlet for your emotions helps, especially when you're feeling stressed out because of work and your superior. Maybe this way you can build up your confidence until you're comfortable with asking those superiors. Good luck!  IP: Logged |
its_aqua Knowflake Posts: 228 From: Mars Registered: Nov 2012
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posted February 22, 2013 02:08 PM
quote: Originally posted by starfairy: I agree with Orange that it has to do with Mars in the 12th.I also agree with the Sun-Saturn conjunction having an effect, as well. The wide square from your Moon to your Saturn doesn't help much, either. Your Moon in Aries has some pretty strong aspects. My Moon is in Aries, too, but mine has really harmonious aspects, so expressing myself isn't difficult. Neptune squares your Aries Moon, which softens it quite a bit. Aries is very assertive and direct, while Neptune is compassionate, elusive, and soft. Mercury also squares your Moon, so blending communication (Mercury) with emotions (Moon) isn't easy for you. Also, you have Mercury-Neptune in the 7th. Perhaps you think a lot about the feelings of others, which makes it difficult for you to express your own feelings/needs. I have Mercury-Neptune conjunct as well, and I don't like bugging people with my problems. It can also make expressing oneself a bit difficult (Mercury is detached, unemotional, and logical, while Neptune is not).
Yeah, all this is so right. I really cant express my feelings, if I'm not sure that the outcome will be good. quote: Originally posted by meissieri: I'm thinking Chiron in Cancer in the 2nd house, so you're very sensitive about your self esteem. It trines your Pluto in the 6th house (daily life, your day job). Chiron also opposes your Sun, Saturn, Neptune and North Node, so that's a lot of pressure again. Jessica2407 made some really good points there. The thing about wanting to close your Facebook and hoping that people would come and take care of you... I think you curl into yourself when you get overwhelmed. Others said Moon-Pluto and yeah, that's a tough aspect. Gives you really strong emotions that you said you want to suppress.I agree on focusing on the master's degree. That's a big achievement, try to take some pride in that. Having something you know you're good at helps to feel more at ease. Also, an outlet for your emotions helps, especially when you're feeling stressed out because of work and your superior. Maybe this way you can build up your confidence until you're comfortable with asking those superiors. Good luck! 
Ugh, it's just that I don't have anyone to support me. Sometimes I just need a shoulder to cry on, but it's so difficult for me. I feel guilty when I keep my best friend busy with all my problems. She's trying to push me to stand up for myself but I'm scared and she doesnt understand this.
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sweet-scorpion Knowflake Posts: 1367 From: PA, USA Registered: Apr 2012
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posted February 22, 2013 04:37 PM
Just my two cents...Moon in Aries will have intense, sometimes volatile emotions. Without the Saturn sq. to your Moon you would be far more emotionally outgoing. This shows a tendency to hide feelings away leading to a sudden possible emotional outburst. Since the Moon is in the 10th this might mean that you feel the sake of your professional/public life depends on emotional control, especially b/c Saturn falls in Cap in the 8th house of resources. Mars in the 12th acts somewhat similarly to Pisces Mars. It expresses passively, sometimes Piscean like. This means that under certain conditions, like intoxication or drug use, or whatever else, you will find a lot of hidden anger or something suppressed in your action drive [sexuality even] will come pouring forth. This placement also may mean having a hazy action nature... you might feel unsure of how to directly assert yourself and therefore you might feel trapped feelings of annoyance inside. Sun is also in an out of sign conjunction with Saturn, showing that you might feel overly worked, workaholic type, overly stern or forced to be serious at a young age. Combined with the Moon square, you might feel that something growing up with your parents made you grow up too soon and maybe outward displays of emotions seems to unrestricted and 'babyish' to you. [After all Aries is the 1st sign in the zodiac.] The Moon is quincunx/incompatible aspect to Pluto in the 6th, showing that you might feel like something emotionally traumatic happened with your health or maybe your mother's health that left a void inside. Why I say this is because Pluto is in the 6th of Virgo, usually I have seen similar configurations show something has happened with the mother especially in terms of obsessions or health that has damaged the emotional nature. Nevertheless, the intense Plutonian influence in a harsh aspect to your Aries Moon might make you again way more introverted/intense in your emotional expression, with a tendency to eventually just boil over. I have also noticed such Plutonian people are definitely ones to cry/scream/vent in private... in private rooms and their own little private worlds. 12H Plutos are especially like this. So are Pluto- and Saturn-Moons from what I've personally seen. The Moon-Pluto and Moon-Saturn combo is probably what is leading you to want to 'disappear' especially since Saturn falls in the hidden 8th house of death and rebirth. You might want to just disappear and give up instead of structuring yourself to improve and get past your practical problems of the every day which Saturn represents. IP: Logged |
Jessica2407 Knowflake Posts: 743 From: Saturn Registered: Sep 2012
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posted February 23, 2013 03:44 AM
quote: Originally posted by sweet-scorpion: Just my two cents...Moon in Aries will have intense, sometimes volatile emotions. Without the Saturn sq. to your Moon you would be far more emotionally outgoing. This shows a tendency to hide feelings away leading to a sudden possible emotional outburst. Since the Moon is in the 10th this might mean that you feel the sake of your professional/public life depends on emotional control, especially b/c Saturn falls in Cap in the 8th house of resources. Mars in the 12th acts somewhat similarly to Pisces Mars. It expresses passively, sometimes Piscean like. This means that under certain conditions, like intoxication or drug use, or whatever else, you will find a lot of hidden anger or something suppressed in your action drive [sexuality even] will come pouring forth. This placement also may mean having a hazy action nature... you might feel unsure of how to directly assert yourself and therefore you might feel trapped feelings of annoyance inside. Sun is also in an out of sign conjunction with Saturn, showing that you might feel overly worked, workaholic type, overly stern or forced to be serious at a young age. Combined with the Moon square, you might feel that something growing up with your parents made you grow up too soon and maybe outward displays of emotions seems to unrestricted and 'babyish' to you. [After all Aries is the 1st sign in the zodiac.] The Moon is quincunx/incompatible aspect to Pluto in the 6th, showing that you might feel like something emotionally traumatic happened with your health or maybe your mother's health that left a void inside. Why I say this is because Pluto is in the 6th of Virgo, usually I have seen similar configurations show something has happened with the mother especially in terms of obsessions or health that has damaged the emotional nature. Nevertheless, the intense Plutonian influence in a harsh aspect to your Aries Moon might make you again way more introverted/intense in your emotional expression, with a tendency to eventually just boil over. I have also noticed such Plutonian people are definitely ones to cry/scream/vent in private... in private rooms and their own little private worlds. 12H Plutos are especially like this. So are Pluto- and Saturn-Moons from what I've personally seen. The Moon-Pluto and Moon-Saturn combo is probably what is leading you to want to 'disappear' especially since Saturn falls in the hidden 8th house of death and rebirth. You might want to just disappear and give up instead of structuring yourself to improve and get past your practical problems of the every day which Saturn represents.
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Jessica2407 Knowflake Posts: 743 From: Saturn Registered: Sep 2012
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posted February 23, 2013 03:56 AM
@ its_aquaI can imagine how difficult and impossible it may sound to you, everybody wants you 'to step up', 'be more confident', 'think for yourself'...quite overwhelming, am sure. However, I think you have a great advantage since you are aware of how these aspects play out in your life, you would be able to counteract their influences. I haven't checked your chart to see if you have artistic tendencies may be? I've dragged a friend of mine (who was having similar issues)into dancing classes.It sure helps her now. For others playing musical instruments, painting, stuff like that help them in acquiring more confidence in themselves, be more happy..I don't know..just wanted to share that with you. IP: Logged |
meissieri Knowflake Posts: 34 From: The Netherlands Registered: Feb 2013
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posted February 23, 2013 08:32 AM
(Ok, checked the chart again. Hope I'm not butting in on anything as a new member.)It really can be so hard to ask for help. I hope you don't feel too guilty asking your friend, I'm sure that if she cares about you, she'll want to help you. The lack of confidence is making you feel as if you're pressuring others, but it's not. Some people need more time to put themselves out there, and maybe you're one of them. If she's your friend she'll understand. Maybe she thinks the tough love act will get through you, so it'd be good to talk to her about that if you feel bad about it. Suppressing will probably make it worse in the long run, because you'll get even more scared people will think you should just "get over it". Cancer's your second house and so maybe you value people who are sensitive, motherly and a little gentle. But your NN is in Capricorn, so it's also important for you to feel independent. Again, is there anything you're good at or that makes you happy that you can use as an outlet? You might feel less anxious knowing you have control over something. IP: Logged |
TaurusInParticles Knowflake Posts: 26 From: Registered: Jan 2013
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posted February 23, 2013 12:02 PM
I think a lot of these issues can be attributed to the grand trine formed by Moon in Aries, Jupiter in Leo and Black Moon Lilith in Sag. I interpret Lilith as the nega-Moon, all the needs that we repress. Since the Moon and Lilith are trine Jupiter, the needs of the Moon and the repressed needs are expressed in a big way. I'm a Lilith novice so take my interpretation with a grain of salt, but I think the aspect is worth looking intoIP: Logged |
its_aqua Knowflake Posts: 228 From: Mars Registered: Nov 2012
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posted February 25, 2013 05:12 AM
quote: Originally posted by sweet-scorpion: Just my two cents...Moon in Aries will have intense, sometimes volatile emotions. Without the Saturn sq. to your Moon you would be far more emotionally outgoing. This shows a tendency to hide feelings away leading to a sudden possible emotional outburst. Since the Moon is in the 10th this might mean that you feel the sake of your professional/public life depends on emotional control, especially b/c Saturn falls in Cap in the 8th house of resources. Mars in the 12th acts somewhat similarly to Pisces Mars. It expresses passively, sometimes Piscean like. This means that under certain conditions, like intoxication or drug use, or whatever else, you will find a lot of hidden anger or something suppressed in your action drive [sexuality even] will come pouring forth. This placement also may mean having a hazy action nature... you might feel unsure of how to directly assert yourself and therefore you might feel trapped feelings of annoyance inside. Sun is also in an out of sign conjunction with Saturn, showing that you might feel overly worked, workaholic type, overly stern or forced to be serious at a young age. Combined with the Moon square, you might feel that something growing up with your parents made you grow up too soon and maybe outward displays of emotions seems to unrestricted and 'babyish' to you. [After all Aries is the 1st sign in the zodiac.] The Moon is quincunx/incompatible aspect to Pluto in the 6th, showing that you might feel like something emotionally traumatic happened with your health or maybe your mother's health that left a void inside. Why I say this is because Pluto is in the 6th of Virgo, usually I have seen similar configurations show something has happened with the mother especially in terms of obsessions or health that has damaged the emotional nature. Nevertheless, the intense Plutonian influence in a harsh aspect to your Aries Moon might make you again way more introverted/intense in your emotional expression, with a tendency to eventually just boil over. I have also noticed such Plutonian people are definitely ones to cry/scream/vent in private... in private rooms and their own little private worlds. 12H Plutos are especially like this. So are Pluto- and Saturn-Moons from what I've personally seen. The Moon-Pluto and Moon-Saturn combo is probably what is leading you to want to 'disappear' especially since Saturn falls in the hidden 8th house of death and rebirth. You might want to just disappear and give up instead of structuring yourself to improve and get past your practical problems of the every day which Saturn represents.
This is so accurate sweet-scoripion. Thank you so much for all this feedback. Especially the part about intoxication/drugs, I need to drink alcohol everytime I need to be courageous, it's like I can't really cope if I have to stand up for myself, and I'm completely sober. About the mother part, it's true that my mother suffered from depression when I was little and generally she always pushed me and expected from me to act like a grown-up. I'm trying to stop dissapearing and cope with any difficulties, but it's not easy at all. quote: Originally posted by Jessica2407: @ its_aquaI can imagine how difficult and impossible it may sound to you, everybody wants you 'to step up', 'be more confident', 'think for yourself'...quite overwhelming, am sure. However, I think you have a great advantage since you are aware of how these aspects play out in your life, you would be able to counteract their influences. I haven't checked your chart to see if you have artistic tendencies may be? I've dragged a friend of mine (who was having similar issues)into dancing classes.It sure helps her now. For others playing musical instruments, painting, stuff like that help them in acquiring more confidence in themselves, be more happy..I don't know..just wanted to share that with you.
I really like dancing etc, I may start up classes. I have some artistic tendencies but the truth is I don't really explore them.  quote: Originally posted by meissieri: (Ok, checked the chart again. Hope I'm not butting in on anything as a new member.)It really can be so hard to ask for help. I hope you don't feel too guilty asking your friend, I'm sure that if she cares about you, she'll want to help you. The lack of confidence is making you feel as if you're pressuring others, but it's not. Some people need more time to put themselves out there, and maybe you're one of them. If she's your friend she'll understand. Maybe she thinks the tough love act will get through you, so it'd be good to talk to her about that if you feel bad about it. Suppressing will probably make it worse in the long run, because you'll get even more scared people will think you should just "get over it". Cancer's your second house and so maybe you value people who are sensitive, motherly and a little gentle. But your NN is in Capricorn, so it's also important for you to feel independent. Again, is there anything you're good at or that makes you happy that you can use as an outlet? You might feel less anxious knowing you have control over something.
At the moment,there's nothing really in my life that I have control over, so I guess that's why I feel so anxious quote: Originally posted by TaurusInParticles: I think a lot of these issues can be attributed to the grand trine formed by Moon in Aries, Jupiter in Leo and Black Moon Lilith in Sag. I interpret Lilith as the nega-Moon, all the needs that we repress. Since the Moon and Lilith are trine Jupiter, the needs of the Moon and the repressed needs are expressed in a big way. I'm a Lilith novice so take my interpretation with a grain of salt, but I think the aspect is worth looking into
That's really interesting, can you tell me more? I don't know much about Lilith. But aren't trines supposed to be good?
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charlie Knowflake Posts: 371 From: los angeles, ca, USA Registered: Jun 2012
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posted February 25, 2013 08:54 AM
I have Sun, venus, Merc, Saturn in Cancer opposite a Cappy Moon. I can be colder than a dead fish...but deep down I'm boiling..IP: Logged |
Jessica2407 Knowflake Posts: 743 From: Saturn Registered: Sep 2012
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posted February 25, 2013 09:15 AM
@ its_aquaDancing is awesome! Just started Salsa dancing classes. Am having a blast  IP: Logged | |