posted February 22, 2013 04:21 AM            

No Moon-Saturn, nor Venus-Saturn

posted February 22, 2013 04:40 AM            

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Originally posted by Jessica2407:
I relate to how you described, I have moon sq pluto,pluto sextile venus.

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I have Sun in the 8th too, (I think it's not considered a good sun position)

Ugh, you see when things dont go the way I want to, I just want to dissapear make people wonder about me or just create some drama.

There are people who are cool, and discuss everything politely and conquer what they deserve
But I just can't. I'm too scared to say that I deserve this so instead I go passive and wait for things to happen or I create drama.

posted February 22, 2013 05:30 AM            

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Originally posted by Jessica2407:
^^ well not that part

I meant about the emotional challenges...but I'm a drama free queen, I hate drama. I'm quite blunt in expressing my feelings, I don't beat around the bush, so I at times come across too harsh when it wasn't my intention at all, then I start second guessing myself not on what I said but on HOW I said it,and then I beat myself up so much because I would feel like I aggravated the situation. I also carry huge grudges, like forever, I don't forget.

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posted February 22, 2013 06:13 AM            

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Originally posted by Jessica2407:
scared of what if you don't mind me asking?

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Ugh, I get very anxious at work. Actually deep down I'm a very competitive person. I want to be the best you know. I can't bare the feeling that someone else is considered better especially when it's not true.

posted February 22, 2013 06:17 AM            

if thats true, only way to cure it is to take the leap and express them to whoever is making you feel all crazy inside lol you'll find most people can relate and will want to get closer to you because of it. friendship is formed by one of relating after allllllllll

posted February 22, 2013 06:29 AM            

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Originally posted by foxxyxo:
you seem like you take your emotions seriously and fear rejection that if expressed others won't take them as seriously as you? maybe maybe?

if thats true, only way to cure it is to take the leap and express them to whoever is making you feel all crazy inside lol you'll find most people can relate and will want to get closer to you because of it. friendship is formed by one of relating after allllllllll

its just getting there is the hard part cause its so unknown to u

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Yeah, I dread rejection. You can't imagine how important it is for me to be accepted by others. If someone is not in a good mood I always fear that they have a problem with me.

posted February 22, 2013 06:34 AM            

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Originally posted by Jessica2407:
and what do you want?

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Right now I work as a bartender to raise some money for my master degree.
I'm good at my job, because I've been doing it for a long time.
Everyone goes to the supervisor and asks about the days they want to work but I'm scared to talk, so I get stuck with the worst days.
Things like that happen to me all the time.

I really want to not got back to work again and lock my facebook and phone, so that nobody hears from me again. Then they might think that something happened to me and try to find me and care about me.

Ugh, my ex is sort of a supervisor there and it's so difficult for me since we were only f-buddies, but I had feelings for him. It's so difficult because I now have to go and ask him for things that have to do with the work and it gets all so confusing.

posted February 22, 2013 06:43 AM            

I think you may have self esteem issues. Locking your facebook profile or your phone sounds like you want people to show you that they care about you, that you actually mean something to them, but at the same time you may think ''what if they don't?'' I think it's more to do with 'the self', building up confidence. You think you are very good at your job, but that doesn't have to have any bearing to when you have to speak out and talk to your supervisor to ask what you want. See, your colleagues don't have to be better or worst than you in their jobs to speak out, it's all about confidence. I've seen people who literally suck at their jobs but who manage to pull through in a meeting where the top dogs are in attendance! So chin up and work on that confidence girl!

posted February 22, 2013 06:48 AM            

I feel like If I go and ask him, why I'm not working on Saturday since you told me you wanted me on Saturdays, he will tell me something that I won't be able to react to.

I even thought of telling him that I'm thinking to quit you now sort of "blackmail" him if he doesn't do me the favour i want.

posted February 22, 2013 06:57 AM            

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Originally posted by jupitersgirl:
Can you post your chart its_aqua?

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posted February 22, 2013 07:33 AM            

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Originally posted by jupitersgirl:
I agree that Saturn conjunct Sun is limiting you from expressing yourself fearlessly but I've also noticed communication problems with cap mercuries. Capricorn mercuries that I've known never tell what they want or think directly. You said you wanted to lock your facebook and phone so that the people would be worried about you and care for you, I've noticed this way of acting (more or less) in other cap mercuries as well.They do not tell directly what they want, they want people to care for them and find out what they want. It may be due to the typical capricorn's fear of rejection.
Saturn conjunct sun can be quite challenging, especially about self-esteem issues. I have Saturn in the 5th house(I also have Sun conj. Uranus in the 5th), and it's the house of self-expression and creativity. When I was younger I used to paint but I never showed my paintings to anyone because I always thought that they were not good enough. After sometime some people saw them and really liked my paintings, wanted to have them etc. It was so hard for me to believe that they actually liked my paintings because Saturn was damaging my self esteem about creativity and self expression, but now I've overcome that because I saw that it was only a trick Saturn was playing on me.
You can do the same thing. Saturn is doing the same thing to your Sun, and your Sun is your character, ego.
Defeat your fears. You can start by going to your supervisor/ex and tell him what you want. Your Sun wants that, Saturn is just challenging you.

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In addition I'm too proud, and I mean that if I go and confront him and if he tells me "well i don't think your good enough to work on saturday" then I will have to cope with that, and I won't be able to stand it.

posted February 22, 2013 09:36 AM            

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Originally posted by its_aqua:
Ugh, guys I don't know how to build my confidence, I think Sun in the 8th CONJUNCT Saturn is giving me a hard time.

I feel like If I go and ask him, why I'm not working on Saturday since you told me you wanted me on Saturdays, he will tell me something that I won't be able to react to.

I even thought of telling him that I'm thinking to quit you now sort of "blackmail" him if he doesn't do me the favour i want.

Ugh,sometimes I really wished that something bad happened to me so that he would care

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