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Originally posted by Dreaming111:
I dont want to be mysterious. Seriously.
I dont like all those immature and childish games, but I realize and often get told that Im very mysterious and secretive.I am.
I just need to be secure and feel like the person sitting across from me is a good soul and not some random nut case that would take my info and use it against me or to hurt me.
Im protective of myself.
I think we do have a dual personality.
I am a lot different with strangers, loved ones and then the guys I love.
I ...honestly change a lot personality and lookwise so that might add to the mystery.
: / We all evolve right? Nothing is ever set in stone.
But I dont find it cute that people have such huge egos that they need to play those dumb games like...*hey babe, look at me Im sexy....muah.* Bull. Just seems insecure and really dumb.
If that is a scorpio rising trait, I dont have it. lol
Oh and about being tight lipped...I always think that I want a guy who understands me. Not everything ought to be explained. Like if a guy is online flirting with a girl and says...*What? Are you upset? Mad? Sad? Did I do something?* I think....*Yes idiot you did.* But I say *No.* And if he presses me more....I just feel like why should I have to tell him that he is being an A ** hole? It defeats the purpose of getting to know the REAL person he is if I keep changing and directing him to be the guy I want. It never works that way. So why do we ever attempt to change another? So I dont see the point in telling him...*Hey yeah, you are being a jerk....maybe you should change.* He should already know that some things are stupid and to not do them.
I basically just keep a silent tally, and when I have had it, I have had it.
I tried that whole....explain to him how to treat you and letting him know all the things that hurt me. Open communication. It didnt work. I would never waste my emotion, time and energy doing that again. All I got was a guy, who eventually didnt give a damn. lol...He would change at first and not do those things but you can never change something unless it is from deep within...and unless you have the interest, desire and awareness that it is not a good trait to have yourself. People only ever change for themselves ....never for someone else. Even if they change it is temporary...
So why bother right? hehe.
I think that is where the tight lipped and secretive nature comes in.
Also...I know that I am more sensitive (Moon in first house too). But ...also I would think that most scorpios have walls because we are so emotional and when we give we give our whole hearts and purely. So when someone hurts us ...at least for me...it is excruciating. Though....we pretend it doesnt affect us. I cant tell you how many times I have cried post breakup....and for how many hours...but I wont show anyone...not even the guy, family nor friends. I have some pride...hehe
Eventually I do resent the person who hurt me....If a person hurt me in such a vulnerable state....and wanted to get back with me....omg....he would have some major work to do. The second time around it gets harder for the other people to win us over...we are totally on attack mode and have a lower tolerance and stronger walls.
I am not ashamed to say that ....I would like to see a person who hurt me badly suffer the same consequence. I would. Karma? Idk but to know that person might be suffering makes me feel better. That is not a benevolent position I know...but neither was the other persons stance when they hurt me. So...fair game I say. 
I know that I *can* be manipulative, vengeful, cold-hearted...scary. I can strike hard and make it really painful for the other person. They might think that they are on good terms with me but....no.lol
So if someone was a major enemy...yeah I would give that person hell....but...even those that have hurt me...so far...I have never hurt or had to strike back with my full potential.
But again I know I can.
I have a cancer sun too. lol
Gosh...I wish I were more libra...aquarius... Life would be light and happier.
Also dont get me wrong if you dont promise use loyalty, genuine love, compassion and are just a random person we chit chat with....we are very light hearted...Just to people, who promise us love, care and loyalty....we expect that you hold your end of the bargain.
So....dont promise us anything and we wont expect anything and then....nothign happens...Again our bad side probably comes out when our deepest core has been touched and hurt.I think that goes for any human being...
And with a scorpio anything you will rarely get to that place. Seriosuly rarely...
And I think the good aspects though are....if we say we love you...we truly do. If we say we will be loyal we truly will.
We have a lot of care, compassion, love for those we hold dear. We will do almost anything for you.
Yes we are sexual. Yes we go all out romantically. But I think if you have a scorpio friend...those are the best kind. They will not ditch you or ever backstab you.
We are very servant like...when it comes to caring for someone. We would walk barefeet for miles with you on our backs if that made you happy. lol...
Bless ur soul lmao u described me to a T. This is all true i felt ur every word with this one