posted May 06, 2013 09:04 AM            

I´m a girl, but I really feel like a gay man on the inside. I´ve touched on this subject in other threads.

Basically I don´t usually fall in love with straight men, I have nothing in common with them, unless they are unusually sensitive, humanitarian and empathetic, or with women, for that matter, either. The people I can relate to are gays and transvestites. But I´m not a lesbian. I´m bi, and I feel like a gay man on the inside. I wish I was a man. Do gay men feel my masculine energy and are subcounciously attracted to it? If so, can they ever be attracted to me phisically too, or am I doomed to be but a fan for the rest of my life?

There´s a gay guy in my class (he has a bf) who is always checking me out.. My ex-husband also liked guys. And in my other threads I´ve stated that I belive that my current crush is gay too, and he has shown igns of interest, but then again, he´s terribly hard to read, so I´m not sure what it means.

I´m very athletic, I have short hair and I look androgynous, pretty cute, and actually kind of feminine. I mean, I don´t mind looking feminine, since I´m not really concerned with my looks, it´s just that I would like to attract gay men attention and have a relationship with a gay man, in particular, my crush.

Astrologically speaking, can you tell me what it is in my chart that indicates my sexual ambivalence?
http://astro.cafeastrology.com /cgi-bin/graphic/daisy24?dformat=2&date=1983/12/30&time=2.0&lat=45.08&long=-17.15&adjust=-1.00&lang=en&x=480&y=640

posted May 06, 2013 09:11 AM            

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Originally posted by Little Doe:
it´s just that I would like to attract gay men attention and have a relationship with a gay man, in particular, my crush.

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posted May 06, 2013 09:13 AM            

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Originally posted by hikoro:

a question...
are you ever content? happy with yourself? in life?
i dont know...your posts, for some reason conflict with me somehow.
to me, they 'reek' of emo-angst...
too 'woe is me'.

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posted May 06, 2013 09:19 AM            

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Originally posted by hikoro:

a question...
are you ever content? happy with yourself? in life?
i dont know...your posts, for some reason conflict with me somehow.
to me, they 'reek' of emo-angst...
too 'woe is me'.

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Do you mind me asking what is your asc, sun, moon, venus and mars?
Maybe it´s something in our synastry that doesn´t sit well with you.

posted May 06, 2013 09:26 AM            

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Originally posted by doommlord:
so maybe you are a transexual.

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Hmm.. I don´t think so. I mean, I´m ok with my body. I don´t really have a problem with being a woman. The whole gender thing is confusing to me. I just wish I was a man because I´d easier attract gay attention, that´s all.

I´ve had bad experience with men in the past. The´ve been judgemental and so on. Gay men have always been super nice to me though.

posted May 06, 2013 09:28 AM            

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Originally posted by Little Doe:
Hmm.. I don´t think so. I mean, I´m ok with my body. I don´t really have a problem with being a woman. The whole gender thing is confusing to me. I just wish I was a man because I´d easier attract gay attention, that´s all.

I´ve had bad experience with men in the past. The´ve been judgemental and so on. Gay men have always been super nice to me though.

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posted May 06, 2013 09:35 AM            

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Originally posted by doommlord:
but isnt it possible for a straight man to have similiar personality qualities as a gay man? why not look for these?

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I guess so. It´s just that I haven´t found one yet.

There is also another thing. Sometimes I think I´m afraid of intimacy and falling in love with someone who might love me back.
Idk why, because I really do want a relationship.

The thing that I really want is UNDERSTANDING. Someone who knows what it´s like to be overly emotional, overly moody, "different", "unconventional".. and so on.

I find that alot of straight guys find me childish and too emotional, and they´re not attracted to me. I´m too boyish.

posted May 06, 2013 09:39 AM            

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Originally posted by Little Doe:
I guess so. It´s just that I haven´t found one yet.

There is also another thing. Sometimes I think I´m afraid of intimacy and falling in love with someone who might love me back.
Idk why, because I really do want a relationship.

The thing that I really want is UNDERSTANDING. Someone who knows what it´s like to be overly emotional, overly moody, "different", "unconventional".. and so on.

I find that alot of straight guys find me childish and too emotional, and they´re not attracted to me. I´m too boyish.

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posted May 06, 2013 09:45 AM            

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Originally posted by doommlord:
so take a deep breath and try to look into yourself and see if you are ready for a relationship and not just in need of some cuddeling.

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What else is there to a relationship other than cuddling? Enlighten me please..

(I think my 12th house in libra might be responsible for my confusion about relationships actually).

posted May 06, 2013 09:50 AM            

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Originally posted by Little Doe:
What else is there to a relationship other than cuddling? Enlighten me please..

(I think my 12th house in libra might be responsible for my confusion about relationships actually).

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commitment, trust, co-operation, support, attraction, respect, honesty, communication, etc...

im sure your libra venus knows all those things (libra is the sign of relationships afterall :P)

posted May 06, 2013 09:52 AM            

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Originally posted by Little Doe:
What else is there to a relationship other than cuddling? Enlighten me please..

(I think my 12th house in libra might be responsible for my confusion about relationships actually).

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Emotional chow chow and dependency!

I have a friend like you, you're not alone and it's nothing strange, like you, she feels more like a gay guy on the inside and believe me she acts it (coming from a gay person myself), however she feels comfortable in her own skin, no transgender
You could be genderqueer, do some research on it and the different gender identities

It could be your Mars in 12th in which this subconscious masculine energy comes from

posted May 06, 2013 10:01 AM            

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Originally posted by doommlord:
commitment, trust, co-operation, support, attraction, respect, honesty, communication, etc...

im sure your libra venus knows all those things (libra is the sign of relationships afterall :P)

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posted May 06, 2013 10:02 AM            

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Originally posted by AshSkye:
Emotional chow chow and dependency!

I have a friend like you, you're not alone and it's nothing strange, like you, she feels more like a gay guy on the inside and believe me she acts it (coming from a gay person myself), however she feels comfortable in her own skin, no transgender
You could be genderqueer, do some research on it and the different gender identities

It could be your Mars in 12th in which this subconscious masculine energy comes from

JESUS CHRIST YOUR CHART HAS NO SQUARES OR OPPOSITIONS AT ALL!
What is that like having no stressful aspects in your chart?

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It´s not easy.

posted May 06, 2013 10:05 AM            

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Originally posted by hikoro:

a question...
are you ever content? happy with yourself? in life?
i dont know...your posts, for some reason conflict with me somehow.
to me, they 'reek' of emo-angst...
too 'woe is me'.

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I agree with hikoro...you bring your personal issues onto astro 2.0 a lot and i'm sure you a nice person.Maybe you should have put this in sweet peas?

posted May 06, 2013 10:07 AM            

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Originally posted by Little Doe:
I don´t have a venus in libra. Oh, you mean my mars in libra!
Well unfortunately I don´t really "feel it", since it´s in my 12th. *shrugs*
I´m a loner most of the time. I don´t have meny relationships. I just fantasize about them..

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now thats why i hate those stupid little charts! better make one on astro.com its clearer

anyways maybe the mars is holding you from "taking" the guy you want.

posted May 06, 2013 10:08 AM            

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Originally posted by DepTaurus:
I agree with hikoro...you bring your personal issues onto astro 2.0 a lot and i'm sure you a nice person.Maybe you should have put this in sweet peas?

You might gotten better feedback on there.

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posted May 06, 2013 10:13 AM            

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Originally posted by doommlord:
now thats why i hate those stupid little charts! better make one on astro.com its clearer

anyways maybe the mars is holding you from "taking" the guy you want.

one way or another i think youl find strength to find your guy....or maybe just not need relationships.

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I DO need a relationship. But I think my mars in 12th is very picky. I´ve noticed that alot of people with mars in 12th have unconventional attitudes about commitment, relationships and so on, as well as being "picky".

I was kind of joking about the "cuddling" part. Yes, I do want cuddling, but first I need a deep understanding and unconditional love. If I find I guy like that I´ll be cuddling with him non-stop.

Well, I´m outta here!

posted May 06, 2013 10:25 AM            

I have also had mainly bad experiences with men. Basically wanting what otherwordly superdeep scorpionic connection with them is like wanting to get juice from a stone... it is hard.

I have been all my life an overemotional person... this had ruined my nervous system. Believe me, we will never get EXACTLY THAT what we want, we must relax and enjoy life, then maybe we will get MORE OR LESS what we want... or maybe the longing will cease. I have had moments when I doubt my sexuality and think that I might be a bi, then the desperation passes and I realise I still like straight men and it was just a bad moment haha!

posted May 06, 2013 10:45 AM            

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Originally posted by Ami Anne:
I will look later, little Does. I will give a personal impression of you. I think you are very special with unique sensitivity and depth. I would take 100 you's over most of the superficial people out there!

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Oh, thank you!
That made me feel so good. <3

(Just wanted to say that before I go)

posted May 06, 2013 10:57 AM            

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posted May 06, 2013 07:17 PM            

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Originally posted by Little Doe:
Hi,

I�m a girl, but I really feel like a gay man on the inside. I�ve touched on this subject in other threads.

Basically I don�t usually fall in love with straight men, I have nothing in common with them, unless they are unusually sensitive, humanitarian and empathetic, or with women, for that matter, either. The people I can relate to are gays and transvestites. But I�m not a lesbian. I�m bi, and I feel like a gay man on the inside. I wish I was a man. Do gay men feel my masculine energy and are subcounciously attracted to it? If so, can they ever be attracted to me phisically too, or am I doomed to be but a fan for the rest of my life?

There�s a gay guy in my class (he has a bf) who is always checking me out.. My ex-husband also liked guys. And in my other threads I�ve stated that I belive that my current crush is gay too, and he has shown igns of interest, but then again, he�s terribly hard to read, so I�m not sure what it means.

I�m very athletic, I have short hair and I look androgynous, pretty cute, and actually kind of feminine. I mean, I don�t mind looking feminine, since I�m not really concerned with my looks, it�s just that I would like to attract gay men attention and have a relationship with a gay man, in particular, my crush.

Astrologically speaking, can you tell me what it is in my chart that indicates my sexual ambivalence?
http://astro.cafeastrology.com /cgi-bin/graphic/daisy24?dformat=2&date=1983/12/30&time=2.0&lat=45.08&long=-17.15&adjust=-1.00&lang=en&x=480&y=640

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I don't think you understand. If a guy is into men...no matter how androgynous you think you look, he's not going to want to sleep with you because he's not into female bodies and female genitalia.