posted August 15, 2013 09:05 AM            

I feel that there is strong karma at work.
It doesn't matter where I go, what I do, I don't feel that I belong. I feel like a ghost in almost everything that I do. Sure, certain individuals get drawn to me, and then it fizzles out, whether in person or online. It's as if the universe is determined that I be alone. I don't mind being alone but everyone needs an outlet and as I get older more and more outlets disappear. Right now, they're all gone. I feel like a square among circles. I can't go where they go. There's a path somewhere in this life and I have yet to find it. There's something in the stars that makes me not belong. I feel it in my soul.

I see my best friend on weekends, I see my mom on weekends, or one of my sisters. The other sister I see a couple times a year even though she lives 30 minutes away. Just this spring, I was unable to drive for around 90 days. My mom was the only person (outside of work) that I had interaction with. For some reason, no visits, no calls, no texts from any other family or friends. Complete isolation - forgotten.
I'm surviving and being alone is not THAT much of a punishment for me. I prefer a lot of alone time, but I'd be lying if I said it didn't eat away at some place deep inside me.
It is what it is. Whatever it is.
I just have to find things to fill the voids and fill the time.
Here is no exception to anything else. There's something strange in the atmosphere, something strange inside me. A feeling of disconnect, a void. I'm between here and there, but not really anywhere.

See ya

" Man is by nature a social animal, and an individual who is unsocial naturally and not accidentally is either beneath our notice or more than human. Society is something in nature that precedes the individual. Anyone who either cannot lead the common life or is so self-sufficient as not to need to, and therefore does not partake of society, is either a beast or he is a god.

-Aristotle's Politics "

posted August 15, 2013 12:59 PM            

I think it's your transits, really.
So it'll pass eventually.

Just hang in there!

If you want to get some idea of what's going on, read about transiting Uranus opposing natal ASC and transiting Pluto conjunct natal IC.

Uranus: http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum1/HTML/004864.html
http://www.thefutureminders.com/Uranus-transits/uranus-opposition-ascendant.cfm

posted August 15, 2013 03:56 PM            

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Originally posted by Zander916:
Maybe you can figure it out.

I feel that there is strong karma at work.
It doesn't matter where I go, what I do, I don't feel that I belong. I feel like a ghost in almost everything that I do. Sure, certain individuals get drawn to me, and then it fizzles out, whether in person or online. It's as if the universe is determined that I be alone. I don't mind being alone but everyone needs an outlet and as I get older more and more outlets disappear. Right now, they're all gone. I feel like a square among circles. I can't go where they go. There's a path somewhere in this life and I have yet to find it. There's something in the stars that makes me not belong. I feel it in my soul.

I see my best friend on weekends, I see my mom on weekends, or one of my sisters. The other sister I see a couple times a year even though she lives 30 minutes away. Just this spring, I was unable to drive for around 90 days. My mom was the only person (outside of work) that I had interaction with. For some reason, no visits, no calls, no texts from any other family or friends. Complete isolation - forgotten.
I'm surviving and being alone is not THAT much of a punishment for me. I prefer a lot of alone time, but I'd be lying if I said it didn't eat away at some place deep inside me.
It is what it is. Whatever it is.
I just have to find things to fill the voids and fill the time.
Here is no exception to anything else. There's something strange in the atmosphere, something strange inside me. A feeling of disconnect, a void. I'm between here and there, but not really anywhere.

It's been a nice learning experience.
Thank you for that
See ya

" Man is by nature a social animal, and an individual who is unsocial naturally and not accidentally is either beneath our notice or more than human. Society is something in nature that precedes the individual. Anyone who either cannot lead the common life or is so self-sufficient as not to need to, and therefore does not partake of society, is either a beast or he is a god.

-Aristotle's Politics "

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Holy cow-crap!!! Your chart is nearly identical to my pChart!!!!! Scary

posted August 15, 2013 06:37 PM            

"I prefer a lot of alone time, but I'd be lying if I said it didn't eat away at some place deep inside me.
It is what it is. Whatever it is.
I just have to find things to fill the voids and fill the time.
Here is no exception to anything else. There's something strange in the atmosphere, something strange inside me. A feeling of disconnect, a void. I'm between here and there, but not really anywhere."

posted August 15, 2013 08:58 PM            

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posted August 15, 2013 09:02 PM            

I have many articles on 12th House planets. They are that kind of isolation you describe like you can 't break out of the prison of your own isolation

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posted August 15, 2013 09:35 PM            

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Originally posted by Ami Anne:
You have 2 12th House planets. One seems to be conjunct the ASC. The one that is within 10 degrees of the ASC is considered conjunct the ASC.

I have many articles on 12th House planets. They are that kind of isolation you describe like you can 't break out of the prison of your own isolation

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Thanks to you all I can identify the issues. It took me some thinking though. My Gemini brain had to work overtime to process those emotions. It's nothing new, but I caught it.
Some of what I said is still irritating but about here. I found the issue.
Yeah, it's 12th house and one aspect to a planet there, no doubt. Maybe two aspects. But I'll hold onto the details.
I gotta keep some things you know.