posted September 07, 2013 08:14 PM            

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Originally posted by Ami Anne:
This is my total personality, for better or worse.

In real life, I get afraid people will think I am weird but on here, I let it rip

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I second that! I feel like If I talk to people about Astrology in real life, they'll think something is wrong with me because I know so much about it. In addition, I don't feel like people pay attention to me when I talk about astrology in real life.

I once told someone: You are more than your sun sign!

They replied: NO I AM NOT!! IMMA CANCER!!

I felt like I was being ignored, so I just rather not discuss astrology among people in real life. Lets just say I keep my astrology knowledge hidden... When people talk about horoscopes & stuff.. I pretend I don't know what they're talking about.

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posted September 07, 2013 09:14 PM            

When I was a kid I was as open IRL as well but that got me (and occasionally others) into all sorts of trouble so I learned to check myself (though I was in my early 20s before I actually had). If I were as honest about what I think IRL then I'd be homeless. It's one reason I chose to interact OL as it allows me a place to share with the safety of anonymity without having to worry about alienating people who could (and perhaps would be driven to) ruin me. Heck, most of my YT lists are now private after neighbors learned of my channel and it started affecting my life and those with me.

posted September 07, 2013 10:06 PM            

Good. Lord.

posted September 07, 2013 10:25 PM            

The journey of pixie jane.

posted September 07, 2013 10:29 PM            

In real life I can come across as more responsive and/or aggressive.

posted September 08, 2013 12:07 AM            

But while 6H Cappie is prone to being very vigilant and cautious I maintain than an ounce of prevention is worth a pound of cure. Many outspoken women on the net get hassled, harassed, and threatened, and if their pix and addresses are known these get used as well. I'd freak if stalkers had that, especially if they knew what I looked like and where I lived whereas I had no idea what they looked like. I sympathize with the many women who were too trusting who had to flee the net in terror though it wouldn't have been necessary if they remembered the world isn't just all fuzzy sweetness, and acting naive isn't sweet or faithful as some think it is, it's stupid with sometimes grave consequences, just like running stop signs as some people do believing God wouldn't let anything happen to THEM despite that others who believed the same found out otherwise.

As for those specific examples I gave...the guy who cyber stalked me thinking I was his soul mate was very much into the goth subculture (most goths are pretty laid back and don't live up to the negative stereotypes, but there are a few who take pride in the bad image and try to live up or even exceed them!). The guy who threatened to rape and chop me up (and I believe he would've if he could've) admitted to having a bad meth habit (thing was everyone else was dogpiling him and as a mod there I tried to defuse it and was the only one to speak in his defense but his meth-addled mind took it as an attack, and perhaps as I'd always been nice to him maybe he felt betrayed somehow, too, but that threat got him banned by another mod).

I think the funniest (laughing at my own reaction) was a YTer did a vid condemning the Danish cartoon riots and (as an atheist) condemned Islam as violent. This really drew outraged Muslims, some of whom proved her point in trying to argue her. One cussed her out for saying Muslims were violent and threatened to rape & slit her throat (and as he had an active YT channel I believe he was an actual Muslim immigrant in NYC rather than just some troll pretending to be) and I, in my gallows humor, posted a reply (with a winky face), "Truly Islam is the religion of peace."

posted September 08, 2013 01:04 AM            

Idk how I feel about sharing this but Idk care because it's from another life time.. and does not matter anymore...
besides i don't care what anyone here thinks of me..

I remember I was friends with this girl in the 7th grade and told her personality was goth like (yup stereotyping) She had somber personality.
The next year she was full on goth lolita with jet black hair..
I loved it...
We became good friends
She became myspace famous.. and so did I by association and it was really crazy.....

See I use to be very feminine in the middle school like I could pass of for a pretty girl with no **** , so I pretended a girl online because I liked the attention.....
So I was trap and I use to talk to all these cute boys and they would talk about marrying me and having my children and it would amuse me.

I use to take those stupid as photos with their name and everything....
I really connected with this one boy.. well
I found out he was actually like 26...
Than he sent me of video of himself carving my myspace name on his chest.
I started to freak out and I thought I cut contact with him.
Some people in middle school found out my antics and basically most of my myspace friends found out I was a boy and at that time the concept of traps were not as popular like they are now, they are sexualized and desired now but people were much more confused back than.
Basically the guy find out and he threatened to rape me and murder me, and he found out my location because I was stupid and told him where I lived before..
I told my mom about my antics and she called the police and sorted everything out.
I got a hair cut and got a scholarship to a private school, the end.

I know what it's like to be a girl and it's ******* horrifying.. This is why I have a deep respect for women and transexuals.... because I failed at being one..
Even thou during that time period I really wanted to be a woman but that experience really changed me...
So I am internally comfortable with my feminine side... I don't need to appear like one..

I look like a male and that's all that matters.... my life is so much more easier...

I bet those photos are still floating around...lmfaoooo Thank whatever deity that I've changed physically...... because I can't handle androgyny even thou I find it to be beautiful.

posted September 08, 2013 08:04 AM            

Thanks for sharing that.

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posted September 08, 2013 08:05 AM            

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posted September 08, 2013 01:27 PM            

I don't identify as mtf, and at the time it felt like I was ftm. I did make a very convincing girl but I don't think I would actually want to alter my body and become a woman ever.. It just does not seem right for me. Not at this point in my life.
Not that there's anything wrong with doing that, of course.

When I say it was really from another life time it actually feels that way... What I was like then has nothing to do with who I am today.
So I suspect my SN was at work which is in the duad and decan of cancer, having critical degree and all.
I dunno?

posted September 08, 2013 11:55 PM            

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Originally posted by chargeomentum:
Yes, in real life I'm crazy and weird, in here I'm a bit more serious. I don't understand why people act so.. familiar with each other on this site though.

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posted September 09, 2013 04:04 AM            

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Originally posted by Kerosene:
I'll check out that comic it sounds appealing!!!

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Reading your post reminded me of one arc that "starts" here (part of a much bigger story so that there's a lot more background and understanding of the characters involved, including villains, if you read from months and even years before). The arc starts about here (Zoe suddenly scared that the guy who dumped her without explaining why knows she's a MtF):
http://www.venusenvycomic.com/index.php?id=527

posted September 09, 2013 04:24 AM            

Love your posts!

On topic,I won't say I behave differently. I'm a very private person. I mentally filter all the things that I say here. That's all.

I don't trust the net TBH.

I usually take down all astrological charts that I post here.

I don't register on many forums because I don't want my info everywhere on the net.

posted September 09, 2013 04:29 AM            

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Originally posted by geea:
yes, i eat babies for breakfast and sacrifice my enemies to satan

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posted September 09, 2013 04:48 AM            

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Originally posted by PixieJane:
Reading your post reminded me of one arc that "starts" here (part of a much bigger story so that there's a lot more background and understanding of the characters involved, including villains, if you read from months and even years before). The arc starts about here (Zoe suddenly scared that the guy who dumped her without explaining why knows she's a MtF):
http://www.venusenvycomic.com/index.php?id=527

Be aware that it sometimes gets interrupted for random shout outs and the like. Also keep the warnings in mind, it can get a bit triggering at times. But try reading up to July 21, 2004.

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Aww these comics are really cute!
I'm going to try and find one that depicts an actual experience!!!
thou I can kinda relate to a lot of them!!! like the mentally of the character.

Also I'm still so sorry you've had to experience these things... and you've probably have many times in your life just because you are empowered to live your life outside of societies expectations.
For a man it's easy being sexually empowered, he's a Casanova right? Oh he's just being a guy...

If I rejected a guy 7 years ago he would wig out and disrespect me .. because who am I lolol..
But today if I reject a male it's the nature of the beast lol .. i'm a player, what can you can you say?...
It still blows my mind, everyday.........

It's difficult being a woman in a mans world unless she can give the illusion of being a proper "lady"..... whatever that means.

posted September 09, 2013 05:10 AM            

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Originally posted by chargeomentum:
Yes, in real life I'm crazy and weird, in here I'm a bit more serious. I don't understand why people act so.. familiar with each other on this site though.

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Sometimes you just feel comfortable with people you meet. Whether it's in person or online. Plus a lot of intimate knowledge of each other is passed back and forth when answering questions about planetary placements in natals, synastry, composites, etc. For some people giving them access to your chart with correct birth time is like giving them a book to read about you, that's how well they can interpret.. Not to mention people offer up their own charts and those of people they know specifically for the inspection and opinion of other people. If an interpretation suits or doesn't, the reader needs to be informed of such and the poster is usually more than willing to be honest and forward with info, especially if the reader is on track..

So basically you're starting off with people you don't know purely on a faith/trust basis. That starts things off on the right foot. And getting to know them rather quickly as you either read information or they give it freely. I think it's rather easy to see how people could become comfortable talking to each other, sharing advice and stories.

For the OP:
I don't think I behave much differently here, or anywhere online for that matter, than I do IRL. In person I'm may come off a little more showy and flamboyant.. okay, maybe a lot more.. but then again I don't recognize those traits in my conversations online. I'm only open with things that I want people to know. There's so much about me that not even my best friends of 15 and 16 years know about me..

And actually to go along with your post, there is one person online whom I've spoken to briefly about my most private feelings/thoughts and I do feel a little bit better that it's someone who hasn't known me for over half my life.. But I do feel like I can trust her, which is rare indeed.

posted September 09, 2013 05:14 AM            

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Originally posted by Jessica2407:

People thought my name is really Jessica.[/B]

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posted September 09, 2013 06:27 AM            

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Originally posted by LionFish:
haha I never once did only because I used to have a username with the name Felicia in it. Not my name, but I let everyone call me that and never divulged my real name to them.

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posted September 09, 2013 12:55 PM            

My chart? What are they going to do with that? Tell me I'm crazy or something? Pfffffft.... tell me something that someone else hasn't already told me. LOL!