posted March 17, 2014 05:38 PM            

The last time I truly glowed, apparently, was shortly after I was born; emanating the golden light for a few minutes.

This is more ... hard to describe. I think it's just seeing the indigo in my aura. Faint, though. Very, very faint.

posted March 17, 2014 06:04 PM            

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Originally posted by micole maree:
Tgem, (edited: and Lavender too!) I was just meditating and these words of yours came back to me. I'm pretty sure I didn't respond to this post of yours. If it's a double, oh well. That's my spotty memory after fifty kicking in!

You and Lavender used the term "gone mental".

My mom and I are pretty close and she's unconditionally loving and non-judgmental, thank God. I shared all of these things with her as they were happening to me. And while I was sharing them with her, she was watching her beloved daughter WAKING UP. Starting to rejoin the world, lose weight, take an interest in life again. And getting ready to leave her abusive relationship.

I know she was puzzled. (So was I.) I know it all stretched credibility. (It did for me as well.) I know she was worried about me simply because it was all so unbelievable. (Well, yeah, I questioned my own sanity more than once.) But I also know she was relieved. Because she was watching me break free BECAUSE of what was happening to me.

But one thing she said has always stuck with me. She said, "I don't know how anybody can go through all of this and not think they're going crazy".

We all share this. This "I'd think I'm crazy but it IS really happening" stuff.

I suspect on some level, this "thing" has been a catalyst for each of us in some way or in more than one way. Yes, there is pain. There is also wonder. Yes, there is longing. There is also a lingering sense of belonging.

I'm right there with you as I throw my hands up and back off and say, "Screw this. It hurts too much and it's too d**n weird". And I'm right there with you when I remember to actually SEE this amazing thing that is unfolding in my life and realize how blessed I am. However it works out or doesn't work out, very few of us on this planet are having this experience/set of experiences.

I'm with you on wanting the heartache and longing to go away. And on feeling so alone while we wait, wondering if the guy will ever, ever awaken. And following that, have the heart and the guts to follow through.

But although I vacillate between these two states of being, I always come back to gratitude. His soul woke me up and gave me the desire to reclaim my life. I have been blessed. I believe I'm continuing to be blessed even though I don't know how this will all play out.

I'm going to keep choosing Faith, even when I lose it momentarily and throw up my hands in anguish and "lostness" for lack of a better word. There IS a reason this is happening.

We just can't see it yet.

Love to you.

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Thank you thank you thank you for this!
I really needed to hear/read that.

posted March 17, 2014 06:08 PM            

Reading your post made my heart sink.
I really hope there isn't any further damage in the coming hours...

posted March 17, 2014 06:11 PM            

No wonder I felt so unsettled.
I would keep checking his page every few minutes and I was in panic mode. (I haven't looked at his page for weeks).
But last night I felt I just had to keep an eye. I didn't feel good.

I woke up at around 6:30 AM in the morning and couldn't fall back asleep, despite having slept very late last night at 3:00 AM.

posted March 17, 2014 11:14 PM            

I've been flat-out busy all day and never checked a news source. I can't believe a significant earthquake hit my own state and I didn't even hear about it.

I'm glad you and your family are well and safe. STAY safe. I know I don't need to warn you about aftershocks.

posted March 17, 2014 11:37 PM            

I'm wondering if I could open one of those post office boxes available in mailing centers. And from that address send out a few letters to some of the prominent businessmen/women in this area, including Jace.

I'm thinking of saying something along the lines of "I'm exploring a theory about a correlation between birth time and the characteristics it takes to be a successful businessperson, male or female. While birth dates have been shown to correspond to general and specific characteristics, birth times have not been studied in depth.

We invite you to simply fill in your time of birth on the enclosed form and return it in the self-addressed, stamped envelope which has been provided for you. Thank you in advance for your contribution to this study."

(Not sure whether or not to ask for birth date; I'm leaning towards not.)

Any input? Is this just lamer than lame? Any refinements?

I know there are no guarantees this won't simply be tossed into a trash can instead of returned by mail.

posted March 17, 2014 11:55 PM            

I think that sounds like a pretty good idea!

And yes, I don't think you should ask for the full birthday either, as for some it can be a bit too personal.
Birth time is more general, so its good.

posted March 18, 2014 12:55 AM            

it`s worth a try. definitely.

posted March 18, 2014 01:17 AM            

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Originally posted by Ceridwen:

LOL
Reminds me of how I was walking up to Mr Sag and asked him for his birthtime. I still can`t believe I did that, and wondered WHO had temporarily taken over my body. But HE surprised me even more when he got out his mobile and called his parents to ask.

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posted March 18, 2014 02:47 AM            

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Originally posted by Lavender CrystalSwan:

LOL is that how it happened?
That is kind of cute actually

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Yeah. That.

Well, we had been wondering before, here on LL, what his ASC-might be. And we all were wrong.
I actually was thinking of Leo because of the sunny vibe. Turned out though that I was responding to his Sun conjunct MC, which makes a lot of sense actually.
Besides it seems that whenever I am attracted to someone, they always have either Pisces-ASC or Sagittarius-ASC (in very rare cases a Virgo-ASC might happen, too, but I am apparently quite picky when it comes to rising signs ).

posted March 18, 2014 03:09 AM            

I have an electric piano in my sleeping room. Sometimes during summer, when the sun is falling onto it, it ocasionally makes sounds, crackling, like static discharges. This happens because of the warmth making things expand a little I think.

anyway this does not happen at night (no sun, no increase in warmth, no reason for discharge).
And well, last night I was being ripped out of my sleep by this piano making these very loud noises, twice. Actually it did not sound so much like discharge-noise, but as if someone was trying to lift the cover over the keys but failed to do so, so it fell down again.

I was still half asleep, so I guess I must have still been in dreammode but I was mumbling halfloud:

"Really, honey? Playing the piano at 4 a.m.? You can`t be serious!"

I fell asleep again nevertheless, never mind I was having just one and a half hour more of sleep ahead of me, and i was dreaming of hearing a song.
I very very rarely hear songs in my sleep. I mean I sometimes know that i have heard them and remember them,b ut this was me physically hearing the song (maybe my radio had already gone off, and I built it into my sleep, but I donīt do that usually either).

The song I was dreaming of was actually from "blues Brothers" as it was performed by Jon Belushi.
I am sure you know it, it certainly made me smile, because of the upbeat tempo.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EHV0zs0kVGg

I still managed to keep on sleeping, and then I was dreaming of Mr Sag, who was with me in my room somehow, and actually I was getting ready and putting on my shoes. He was hesitating a little, not because he did not want me to come with him, but he was having something to do, and it was his mess he created and had to deal with it, and untangle the threads.
And for some reason he apparently thought of me as too "innocent" and "pure" so he didn`t want to pull me into this mess of his. I didn`t had any blame in this, so I didnīt need to deal with this crap either.

Well, I was looking at him and said: "Forget it. I`m coming with you. Weīre in this together."

He warned me that life would be completely changed.

and I looked at him and said: "So what are we waiting for? Let`s get moving. Timeīs a wasting."

And since I had finished putting on my shoes, I was getting up, literlaly clapping my hands, which probably was the noise that bolted me awake.

posted March 18, 2014 03:52 AM            

I just want to say that IQ did NOT say that Mr Sag IS my tf, he said.....

Oh wow searching for his expertise in my mails, I stumbled across one he did before, quite anonymously though,

"Soulmates with love plus karmic debts.
Past life erotic partners for many lifelines, could have seriously hurt each other in the immediate past lifeline and have the right ingredients to get it right this time round if they focus less on physical love and more on emotional connection. This is not about friendship. There has to be sex, atleast in the Mind."

(of course there were some things in the synastry that werenīt as clear yet)

Anyway when he did the analysis a few months later he wrote:

"My conclusion from this is that he is the Karmic Soul mate with whom you have had the maximum sexual karma and maximum emotional love. He could be your Twin Flame (or the route to your Twin Flame), there are more possibilities with him than even with Jude, in spite of the harsh aspects and abuse aspects. "

so he said that he *could* be, not that he *is*.

And well, our composite is not as concentrated as Indigo`s one (though after checking composites there rarely are THAT concentrated composites like hers).

Still, despite not being that concentrated, and not having the 1st and 7th house emphasis (more about that later), I am intrigued with it.

It is not concentrated, yet it does not feel "scattered" to me either. Maybe I am biased, but maybe it is because of the grouping of planets in 9th, 11th and 12th house, which are reasonably close togehter.

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What I mean is these groupings here:

Libra/ 9th house:
NN-AMOR-CUPIDO-CAMELOT-Mars-conjunction on 20 and 23 Libra

Sagittarius / 11th house:
Mercury-Neptune-SAPPHO-conjunction on 15 and 17 Sagittarius

plus Sun on 26 Sag on GC

Capricorn / 12th house:

Venus and Moon on 16 and 22 Cap, not quite conjunct, but still in orb of a parallel

also:

Scorpio / 10th house:

DNA-ANGEL-LUST-VALENTINE conjunct on 20, 22 and 23 Scorpio.

plus containing the chartruler Uranus on 12 Scorpio on 12 Scorpio

While it might not be the expected concentration on 7th or 1st house, it puzzles and intrigues me a lot to see the line up of

KARMA on 9 Leo
Saturn on 21 Leo
Vertex on 25 Leo
DESTINN on 29 Leo

in 7th house.

I am not sure how to weigh this. Is this strong enough to qualify as a relatively strong 7th house placement? Or is that simply reaching and grasping for straws here?

What gets me about it is how it is ALL fated or karmic objects rigth there (branching out a little it is also interesting how helio composite KARMA is exactly conjunct tropical composite DESC on 1 Leo).

They are also making aspects to the rest of it.

KARMA sextile Jupiter in Gemini in 5th (nice, I like it. lol - not super intense, but smooth)

conjuncts ARIADNE on 12 Leo in 7th house, which is trine BACCHUS in Sag in 11th house exaclty

SATURN being a bit more difficult:
opposite OSIRIS on 21 Aquarius in 1st hosue xact
square JUNO on 22 Taurus in 4th
quinkunx Moon on 22 Capricorn in 12th

but also

sextiles the stellium in Libra, and trines SIVA on 21 Sag in 11th exactly.

also makes a 5th harmonic triangle with Jupiter and Venus.

speaking of quintiles

KARMA quintiles the Amor-Cupido-Camelot-NN
DESTINN quintiles the chartruler Uranus
and biqutintiles Moon, so that Uranus is quintile Moon.
And as I said SATURN quintiles Jupiter and biquintiles Venus.

Interesting.
Quite a quintile chart. lol

But apart from that and the question if I am reaching here, it doesnīt take away fromt he fact that my experiences are what they are, and that I did not have them in relation to Jude, never mind that THIS composite seems really very concentrated in 1st house (though maybe except for the stellium in 1st house not that much interconnected).

not even sure what I want to say with this, but maybe just that the experience is what matters most.

VERTEX is opposite PSYCHE in 1st house xact
also trines Sun obviously

DESTINN conjuncts PERSEPHONE in 28 Leo in 7th
trines CHIRON on 29 Aries in 3rd exact
sextiles UNION on 29 Libra in 9th exact

Well I suppose the Chiron-Union-opposition needed some sort of smoothing out. lol

posted March 18, 2014 07:23 AM            

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Originally posted by Ceridwen:
Michelle,

it`s worth a try. definitely.

LOL
Reminds me of how I was walking up to Mr Sag and asked him for his birthtime. I still can`t believe I did that, and wondered WHO had temporarily taken over my body. But HE surprised me even more when he got out his mobile and called his parents to ask.

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posted March 18, 2014 07:32 AM            

Why? well composite says..

ATLANTIS conjunct ISIS and OSIRIS exact.
SIVA square PARVATI exact.
KAALI sextile VENUS + MARS + SUN nearly within 1 degree.
SUN conjunct NESSUS conjunct VENUS opposite BML within in all 1 degree. (you should of seen my expression when i saw her lovely face)
EROS trine PYSCHE exact.
ALMA conjunct JUNO exact.
LUST conjunct MARS exact.
VENUS trine MARS exact.
KAALI sextile RUDRA exact.
VALENTINE conjunct MOON exact + VERTEX 2 degrees. (Gemini on 10th degree=Twins?)
(although i don't know her birth time but i believe it to be very similar if not close to what i have said or even better).
True Node on 15* Sag Degree (The Great Attractor)

"iQ" said in private she has to be the One(Twin Flame) or some one with a similar chart. He said it was amazing. The song that comes to my mind is: http://youtu.be/q9ayN39xmsI

posted March 18, 2014 07:56 AM            

That's what worries me about Cusp since I don't know his birth time either. The problem is he has a Cap stellium of sun, mercury and mars. Plus on the day he was born, the moon changed from Sag to Cap...so there is a slight possibility that he has a Cap moon as well.

The other problem is that he has a Pluto singleton. So sometimes I wonder if that Scorpio I get from him is not actually his ASC but his Pluto singleton coming through.

posted March 18, 2014 08:03 AM            

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Originally posted by superman13:
Well.. i am and pretty sure she is my Twin Flame. 9 year gap of course. Me being older.

Why? well composite says..

ATLANTIS conjunct ISIS and OSIRIS exact.
SIVA square PARVATI exact.
KAALI sextile VENUS + MARS + SUN nearly within 1 degree.
SUN conjunct NESSUS conjunct VENUS opposite BML within in all 1 degree. (you should of seen my expression when i saw her lovely face)
EROS trine PYSCHE exact.
ALMA conjunct JUNO exact.
LUST conjunct MARS exact.
VENUS trine MARS exact.
KAALI sextile RUDRA exact.
VALENTINE conjunct MOON exact + VERTEX 2 degrees. (Gemini on 10th degree=Twins?)
(although i don't know her birth time but i believe it to be very similar if not close to what i have said or even better).
True Node on 15* Sag Degree (The Great Attractor)

"iQ" said in private she has to be the One(Twin Flame) or some one with a similar chart. He said it was amazing. The song that comes to my mind is: http://youtu.be/q9ayN39xmsI

I was staring at her photo the other day and i locked on to her eyes. I repeated Loving words in fact very deep loving words for 2 hours and that night i had two orgasm's in my spiritual body or was it her? Intense.. lol

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Sounds like quite some strong astrology there.

posted March 18, 2014 08:03 AM            

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Originally posted by tgem:
That's wonderful Superman! I'm sure we all would love to see the charts if you would be willing to post them. Did you find similarities between all three charts: tropical (natal,) Heliocentric and Draconic?

You definitely have some prominent soulmate pairings- wow!! Sounds promising

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Natal chart was rubbish lol! iQ said a Natal Chart doesn't matter when a composite exists like this. I am so DEEP in Love with HER. It's ridiculous. Perfect song [remove jesus and put her name in it] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9v8Hbe5IHTE

I will do it later today. iQ will confirm it. I think he knows who i am without saying my name

posted March 18, 2014 08:08 AM            

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Originally posted by tgem:
"Well, we had been wondering before, here on LL, what his ASC-might be. And we all were wrong.
I actually was thinking of Leo because of the sunny vibe. Turned out though that I was responding to his Sun conjunct MC, which makes a lot of sense actually.
Besides it seems that whenever I am attracted to someone, they always have either Pisces-ASC or Sagittarius-ASC (in very rare cases a Virgo-ASC might happen, too, but I am apparently quite picky when it comes to rising signs )."

That's what worries me about Cusp since I don't know his birth time either. The problem is he has a Cap stellium of sun, mercury and mars. Plus on the day he was born, the moon changed from Sag to Cap...so there is a slight possibility that he has a Cap moon as well.

The other problem is that he has a Pluto singleton. So sometimes I wonder if that Scorpio I get from him is not actually his ASC but his Pluto singleton coming through.

That's why I need someone who's really good at pin-pointing ASC's. Thing is, even if his birth time was wrong, we still have so many of the prominent asteroid placements throughout all three charts- one can't refute that. I need an ASC guessing expert...

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I know what you mean.

I think kannon did or does rectifications and apparently is very good. IQ might be doing those, too.

I have done sometimes, too, using solar arcs especially (in combination with the pr Moon, pr angles and transits).

I donīt quite believe in concluding from someone`s look to a possible rising sign, though it can be used as confirmation to pinpoint it down I suppose. And others might be better in doing this than me anyway.

But you would need to have some very distinct events to be able to rectify it, and if we do not even know if at day or night, things can get very tricky.

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posted March 18, 2014 08:17 AM            

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Originally posted by tgem:
Yes, I completely agree...guess I'm just going to have to wait until I speak to him again and then have enough guts to flat out ask him his birth time.

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Yes, do that!
Gives you an excuse to talk to him, too.