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Topic: My 12th house stellium and why i love it so much
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NYCdodger
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posted August 28, 2015 10:35 PM
  
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Originally posted by DopGang:
I think a "problem" with this house is:It contains many blessings, true. It also makes us feel a bit different and probably we are. But if the reasons why you're different can elude you. It's a fog. You can't understand why you're different or what purpose it has.
Worse, at least for me, when I tried to force myself to be like everyone else it was a bit like trying to shove a square into a round hole. It didn't work.
Only when I accepted who I am and these gifts that I have, which seem minor, but they're mine, then I felt better. I felt like, I don't truly NEED anyone else. I could isolate myself and be fine.
However, I think part of the 12th is a capacity at least, even if you're not aware of it, to love everyone on some level. Because they're people, just like me, and you. Perhaps very different and with drastically different opinions and beliefs. It's deeper than that. They are still people, who feel love and pain, and grief when they lose a loved one. All behind whatever belief and opinions, sex, or sexual orientation, behind color and etc. Those are somehow superficial when thinking on an even deeper level.
That no matter how much I may dislike a person, and sometimes I am very mean, even unpredictable, and caught up in life. I'm still connected to everyone because we have so many things in common. Like when people try to make lions as pets. They sometimes find out that you can take the lion out of the wilderness but not truly take the wilderness out of the lion. It's still a beast at heart. So we are all people with similar, "wild" needs that we all share. For that reason, it's hard not to love a little, every person and feel compassion for suffering.
In that sense, it's hard to not "need" others. Because deep down, I want to help. I want people to see what I see and I want people to love each other.
But it's all so overwhelming that most often I just shut it all out. Which ironically leads to me being thought of as unemotional and lacking empathy. It's just too much. So much easier just to tone out and do my thing. I was given the gift in the rest of my chart that allows me to "turn off". I could go on seemingly forever about this stuff and how it's affected me personally, now and growing up.
But I don't want to bore everyone.
Plus some might think that I'm heavily drugged and plan to howl at the moon tonight. 
Man you just described my entire life in detail...Its like theres never a satisfaction when you try to please and fit in with others, but as soon as you remain true to yourself people accuse you of things because they don't understand you. Then you feel guilty again and you try to prove that you're a good person but then you realize that you're only robbing yourself of your own happiness because in truth, you have NOTHING to prove. A vicious cycle. But still, for some reason you feel obligated to show compassion towards those people even when you no longer care. They "think" they're superior but they're not, you just see the bigger picture and you're willing to sacrifice your ego for whats more important. A bigger picture that can't be explained in words. If they understand then good, if they don't, then its their loss. The 12th house isn't a house of communication, it isn't meant for others to understand... IP: Logged |
DopGang
Knowflake Posts: 725
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Registered: Jun 2015
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posted August 29, 2015 06:08 AM
Yes!
Glad it made sense.
I could talk forever about that stuff! Thanks for responding. I've felt like I'm invisible on this site for about the last day or so. IP: Logged |
NYCdodger
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posted August 29, 2015 10:28 AM
So is it safe to say that the 12th house is my "dominant" house being that this stellium is here?IP: Logged |
DopGang
Knowflake Posts: 725
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posted August 29, 2015 11:28 AM
I'm personally inclined to say yes, but I'm not 100%. In my case, my chart ruler, dsc ruler, and sign ruler (mercury in Virgo) are all in that house. I lean towards yes because there's so much concentration there. Your Leo sun though is also important as it's in its own sign and is a luminary.
But yes, by house, I'd say 12th very likely. My personal opinion.  IP: Logged |
NYCdodger
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posted August 29, 2015 12:18 PM
Thanks!IP: Logged |
Gracha
Knowflake Posts: 220
From: NY USA
Registered: Jan 2013
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posted August 30, 2015 10:16 AM
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Originally posted by NYCdodger:
The 12th house represents things we have no control over, while the 6th house deals with our work ethic and our daily routines. Both houses are houses of service so the 12th house may feel they are suffering an ordeal, or must face something that can't be explained. The 6th house helps your 12th house to focus on things that will give you ease and focus when it comes to your service. Focus on the small, yet important things instead of things you feel are impossible to settle. This allows you to rest much better and the problems will begin to solve itself...Why are you doubting your writing talents?
I just feel it's not that good. I'll be taking a creative writing for beginning writers this fall. So hopefully that gets me out of this rut. IP: Logged |
NYCdodger
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posted August 30, 2015 12:00 PM
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Originally posted by Gracha:
I just feel it's not that good. I'll be taking a creative writing for beginning writers this fall. So hopefully that gets me out of this rut.
Meh, I think you're fine. The BEST writers detest their writing believe it or not. Some of the best works you may have read came from someone who was insecure about it. I don't think there will ever be a time when you fully approve of your work, because its so personal. IP: Logged | |
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