posted October 26, 2015 07:52 PM            

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Originally posted by ReadingTheStars95:
^^^ xD xD xD xD xD

Hahaha

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LOL...well it's a little bit true, and I guess that's why it's funny. Though I only did an actual love spell once, which I made up on the spot. Freaky thing is, it worked.

posted October 26, 2015 07:53 PM            

*puts away her rosary beads* *talks in confidential tones*...

Like some others here, I'm not the one to go out to seduce others. Usually they come to me.

I've had girlfriends steal my boyfriends when I was younger because I'm not a fighter-- not in competition with any female (or male). No hair-pulling, mud-slinger, threats or chick-fights. ... I'd figured that if he 'could' be stolen?, then he wasn't REALLY the type of ~Man that I was looking for or needed in my life. I'm not into control... except for when I consume his body afterwards, like the praying-mantis. (~ omg, LOL )

In my college years I'd had two long-term sexual side-affairs with two Aries-- One for 3 years, the other for maybe 7 years, overlapping, WHILE I "seriously" in marriage-minded way dated a beautiful passionate-about-life Sagittarian Soul (never had sex with that one-- one of my regrets in life, but no, things happen 'as they were meant to be').

The Arian for 3 years asked me to marry him, and I was shocked because I had no idea he was thinking actual 'serious' thoughts about me... We tended to squabble a bit too much for MY comfort-- I'd always redirect things back to having the sex. He was a combination of quiet yet picky bossy-competitive around his friends who looked to him as their leader. My wit could top his, when we'd get competitive on THAT level-- (to his embarrassment in front of 'the guys', so I shied away from that after a while to protect his ego), but I think that even made him MORE into me.

For a REAL settled down relationship, I was looking for someone who wasn't always out to pick constant tiny little fights with me. I love to have a Peaceful home environment. You can have debates and animated-talks WITHOUT these turning into nasty 'fight' type energies.

I'm a philosopher and a Lover, not a nit-picker Fighter.... So, kiss me, breathe a little in my ear, and lets get undressed!

First inkling is usually some kind of flash-moment that resonates through the eyes. People say that eyes are the window to the soul, and some people have eyes that read Forever in them... For a moment there's that receptive mutual Life past-present-future recognition and quiet validation.

Then in someway, my sluttyVenus has fast-forwarded herself to sense-scenes of already having BEEN in a heavy intimate union with them. (omg, ---- does that make me a dirty-old-lady??? j/k) Of course, I don't let off like a part of me had been thinking like that...

I quash it now. Guess that's because I'm in an arena where that would be soooo inappropriate to behave in that kind of fashion (including flirty), both at home with non-romantic rm or out in my social church-circles.

I can also appear really nervous and very tight, but that's NOT how it feels deep inside me.

And like I said in a different thread, I wouldn't want to challenge anybody's happily married status. REDline there!
(*And IF I find out?, then your wife is gonna hear about it-- the first chance I get!*) ... That's just 'wrong' to hurt another woman in that way... It would be akin to harming my OWN self. Women, and their Loves, are Sacred.)

My men in the past were usually quite smart... I attracted mensa-level IQs. Ex1 was an uber-Virgo (we had same moons). He had IQ of 175... Our two kids turned out to be registered genius-levels also. (Makes me feel awkward and slow for everyday? But my brain can flash on amazing ideas that come out of nowhere, sometimes. Makes up for it.)

Then the next step after the intellectual, Mercury in late Gemini H7, comes my early Mars Cancer in H7gem, needing to establish an emotional connection or bond if the relationship is to really have a foundation.

With Cancer on the 8th, IF I connect sexually with this person, it will have a scorpionic intensity of sensitive personal caring, and feel deeply devotional, loyal, and healing. (Saturn Scorpio trine Vesta Cancer 8th; also stellium of outer planets there).

So basically, I'm not the one who seduces... In fact there's a great deal of shyness I have to suppress in me. Behind all the gay laughter and noisy repartee, inwardly there is a deeply sensitive and alone-feeling individual who feels that she'll never have true love or her own needs met in life. She's made it about 'others' because of it.

In my younger days, I was very flip about sex. Oh yeah, all you want is the sex... and these would have been with my body, but NEVER 'knew me'. It was my way to deflect truly emotionally-intimate partners (the Arians).

Right now for the past nine years I've been living around a ~basically-touchphobic man. No true emotional exchanges. All very 'safe'... He basically just keeps alone to himself, and he likes that. For me, I'm looking for some 'companionship'... I've livened his life up considerably. I think he'll live-longer having known me. I think he counts on me 'being interested' in his day at work now-- but he'd never reciprocate that towards me (even though I'll pretend it in my mind). I'd have to 'volunteer' any information about MY day. We'd never talk, if I didn't initiate the speech all the time.

And I'm a Gemmy~~~ talk!!!!, It's is like FOOD to me. And sometimes, I feel starved to chat!-- And I'm already so deprived in the emotional realms that it feels past being able to handle and heal, sometimes. However......

Life has a way of changing things... And I've been wanting some closer bonding and to draw intimate relationships to my life that will bring more emotional care and satisfaction to me.

But I ~MAY? have to somehow escape the church-circles...even though I like them a lot. And they like me, a lot too! And they are all women-seniors (like 20 years older than me). I don't think they'd want me to leave them..... Thing is, I can't 'really' go after the notion of having meeting some boyfriends while I'm in this possessive group. *sigh* ~oy, the gossips are intense and lively!! goes FAST like wildfire.

And now, I just found out that I might have this kind of post-menopausal condition that MIGHT make it harder for me if I wanted to fully engage in a romantic sexual relationship?? Oh God, nooo, please! Don't do that to me now?~~ not NOW, when I don't have to worry about pregnancies anymore??!.... (LOL) *Little-Incense-Guy*

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When I was breaking up with my ex2 in 1990s, I used to sing this song, only using the reversed words that 'You can't make Me Love You, if I don't'....

(music) I Can't Make You Love Me (Bonnie Raitt) [5:16] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=swpHN97j8sE

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