posted January 21, 2019 04:47 AM
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Originally posted by mooninaries94:
I got Moon quincunx Pluto (in scorpio) on my natal chart, imo in a very tight orb 0.40. I never gave a look to this kind of aspect and found out today about it. By the way, my moon is in the 7th H, pluto in the 2nd.[b]Does anyone here have it in your natal chart ? What do you experience from it ?[/B]
Spring in another thread pointed this aspect to me in my natal chart - I'd never paid attention to it before. Jewel Mayberry's reading of Moon quincunx pluto resonated in a stunning way with me. She says:
"On some level they (natal moon quincunx pluto people) are very much obsessed with, very intent on, extracting life from the mother. They feel that she owes them on some level, usually her resources. ... What they're really doing is trying to extract validation and they are very in needy for the mother, or the family, or people represented by the past to give, give, give. And it will never be enough! Because this is not a problem that lies on the outside. They are very much looking for their discomfort to be soothed, fixed by this outside process of typically resources coming into being for them. There's security that comes from identifying with the resources of the mother or the family or inheritance. These are very ephemeral - they are not going to fix the problem.
Their happiness and security is not a condition. To them they do see it that way. They will be able to be secure when they will get this amount this resources... etc. They will feel secure when the mother responds to them in a particular way. Their attention is very much on their lack and what they are missing. Wherever our tension lies is what we will get more of. This is when we are so focused on changing the condition as a result of changing their behaviour, or coming to a certain place where a person deems them I guess more "real" or "able".
However, they need to change in themselves."
She also talks about an inability to connect to one's own source. She continually mentions about early trauma and disconnect that one keeps experiencing in cycles, and an obsessive fear of homelessness. And that these natals will substitute tangible resources to soothe this discomfort, and basically blame other people for this feeling.
Jewel says a disconnect and detachment is necessary for healing with someone with this aspect. No compensation, no substitution. Just consciously trying to feel secure in what they have. There was also a great simile to someone going hungry because they're holding onto food with such tight fists, they can't nourish themselves. Please watch the rest of it here, Jewel is amazing:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=01cDRQ2egwY
I found all of this to be so shockingly true. I find more and more comfort in giving (both materially and sentimentally) as I age. I realised this not only makes me feel better, but it also distracts me from a nagging discomfort that I am not being given enough (which in actuality couldn't be farther from the truth, I am so blessed in so many ways in my life). In short, focusing on worthy causes (both personally and professionally) continually rids me of both the feeling of lack and the feeling that I'm ungrateful for feeling this. I think I also need to work on giving back to my family a little bit instead of contsantly holding back because I sense I'm judged for being a little different than them.
I really think focusing on what one has and give is a solution to this really maddening feeling of expectation for moon inconj pluto individuals.
I'd love to hear the experiences of other natals.