posted March 19, 2017 03:45 AM            

I do also believe that there is relationship for anyone who wants one. But I also believe there is different reasons for being in relationship. For me it isn' "natural state of being". I'm used to be alone. I don't fear to be just with myself. I see so clearly that many many relationship around me are not manifestations of passion or great love but manifestation of normal state of being of those people. Why is that? Maybe they fear to be alone, maybe they need regular sex or maybe they just feel it is normal state of being for they to be with someone all the time. When one relationship ends the next start very quickly. And all the people who are in-between and all other things.I don't know if I make myself understood. Sorry to say but at my point of view large part of population is in relationships for convenient reasons. I don't say that is a bad thing. But I do believe we born here with different toolkits. And well..my natal chart Ceres and Lilith conjunction is fired me to give myself sexually only when I really feel I'm cared and care for the other one. Among other thing.

At my life I'm at point it is important to me find someone special to start a family with, to whom fall in love with and to trust. My life has been rocky. I don't believe it will happen to me without fate to have fingers at the game. Why is that? Fate has been playing so big part of my life so far. (Better not to start with that.) I don't feel that just checking suitable time windows from transit or progressions will help. If I do understand correctly what you do mean. But I'm not so familiar with secondary progression. I have to check it better, thank you.