posted July 02, 2019 02:03 AM            

all these eclipses and new moons don't produce anything in my external world which sucks cause i'd love to have a boost in the career sector or whatever

posted July 02, 2019 03:06 PM            

The dream was lovely I was in an event and he was there too, he seemed to have a date. I had tried glancing at him a few times throughout the event. At some point I started to dance and go around in circles just connecting essentially with my inner child and feeling free. I then stopped dancing and got close to him and we started to chat a little, the next thing you know we decide to take off from the event together and he gets completely naked and we start going up this wood stairs. Him getting naked was not a sexual thing though, it was more like an "adam" archetype thing or like a "freedom thing" like lets get out of this event and go be free. I feel the event was symbolic of adulting and commitments we have to take on as adults. I think the dream was about helping him connect with his inner child and about me connecting with my own inner child and hence why it brought in someone from 7th grade.

posted July 02, 2019 03:30 PM            

Child in Cancer at 10 degrees
Endymion in Cancer at 10 degrees

posted July 02, 2019 03:35 PM            

WOW

posted July 02, 2019 04:50 PM            

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Originally posted by teasel:
I'm okay so far. It's conjunct my Saturn, square my Jupiter-Pluto opposition.

This morning, I woke myself up laughing at something in a dream. I haven't done that in years - I normally have nightmares. It wasn't a snort, but it was a very amused and strong laugh. I wish I could remember what made me do that.

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posted July 02, 2019 08:31 PM            

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Originally posted by Nadja:
So far nothing... at least not today. I'm on vacation and not doing much or meeting anyone. No interesting dreams either. And mood is as stable as usual. Thumbleweeds galore here really.

What sort of time span do you think an eclipse of this sort manages to affect? Days, weeks...?

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posted July 03, 2019 03:05 PM            

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Originally posted by athenegoddess:
Its conjunct my Sun/Valentine at 8 Cancer and I just started liking someone who has Pluto at 12 Cancer and Eros at 10 Cancer.

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posted July 05, 2019 01:50 PM            

So the morning after the eclipse, on Wednesday,
I woke up from a terrible dream at 2 a.m. .. I haven't been able to remember dreams in a very long time.

Dreamed about my "relationship" {H7 Solar eclipse} and the 12+ year long-term {non-romantic} detached relationship with roommate {a couple years older than I am, elderly man}. It's been a relationship based on mutual very-basic needs.

The sky was black, and his red car looked HD and shiny in the distance, against the flat-black sky. It was across the lit but 'empty' parking lot. We were standing in a lighted open door, threshold to the parking lot. We had been out shopping. {Door and place reminded me of a farmer's market I visited semi-often, in my younger decades}.

In the dream he was soooo relationally cold. So stiffened. Like a white-paint wooden-plank. So un-responsive. So STIFF.

I tried to get him to humanly soften and loosen up a bit... to respond to questions I was asking him. Trying to engage a reciprocating response towards me. No response. Not unkind (except in that he wouldn't look at nor talk to me).

So at that point, I woke up.
It was dark in the room.

And this intense GRIEF was black and gripped inside my chest. My lungs. I felt a whelming of physical sharp emotional-pain that was soooo intense that I could barely get a physical-breath moving inside my body, and it scared me to think further.

I felt the overwhelm.. and couldn't even cry because my chest was packed-out. I couldn't catch my breath, fill my lungs, to do so. ..

The 'pain' was just so blocking and intense! And just so black. Needed to cry but couldn't because weights were sooo stiffling heavy all inside my body and chest.

At that point...
I realized that it 'felt' to me that I didn't "matter" to people. I didn't "matter" to anyone in my life.
There was (and r/l is) no one I could call, nor call-upon in time of personal trouble.

'That moment' felt soooo REAL and present. The gulf and hurting-pain of not having a sense of mattering to anyone, anywhere, in "alive"-existence.

That was the "experience" from the energies, in my private deep thoughts and world.

The Cancer 10+ NM Solar eclipse was in my house of relationships. H7.
conjunct asteroid 380 Fiducia Cancer 10.59'

The north node was conjunct my VESTA Cancer 17.25 H8.
.. Which is also the degree of my Prenatal Lunar Eclipse 17+ Cancer H8.

tPluto-rx Capricorn in orb of my Ceres-rx 25+ Cap H2 trine Virgo Moon24.56 H(9).
My Progressed Moon is 20+ Capricorn and involved with the coming transits pf tSaturn-tPluto Capricorn, with a tCeres-Return.

tSaturn-rx tSN 17+ Capricorn on my
7961 "Messenger" Capricorn 17.44 SR

with 5 Astraea rx 17.24 ..
across from Vesta Cancer H8.
.. quintiles Juno-rx Scorp
.. biquintile Pluto Leo
.. sextile Saturn-rx Scorp
{will stop delineating}

(music) A Change is Gonna Come (Sam Cooke, perf by Seal) [4:00] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AK7L5eIfd0o

So!! I'm feeling better now.
Thank you for reading.

Later, I told my rm about the dream, and that he needs to be 'nicer' to me! (smile)