posted October 06, 2019 04:53 PM
Hi Plut0nian
I resonate with what you've expressed; and again I'll say not to lose that small bright 'experience' seed you've had in your life previously, with those who are gone now. {Lost your dad? *hug*.. that can feel so painful.}Being a single-for-life, is Cool.
Some folks are called to it!
Don't neglect your need for closeness with another human being (that goes further than just the sex). FEEL 'cared' for. Get hugged like they mean it with their heart.
Don't give up the 'dream' that there might be someone with that same kind of loyalty and love {unconditional} that you experienced with the other 3 people. .. No need to search for it in a pressured way. Just live your life. Sometimes you never know if the ones you labor with {Capr} could become closer than just-friend.
{With tPluto in your 7th, you can draw an important soul into your life who could play a vital role in helping your life. With tSaturn, could have long-lasting sense to it.}
I knew a couple who married with tSaturn towards end of H7. Both were near their 2nd Saturn Returns. These were 2nd-Marriages, and they have a business together. Very happy.
*~ MidLife Transits
It's okay that you feel the way you do right now.
You're transitioning into a new passage of time right now. Entering a 'corridor' {40s decade}. In a way, it's a summing up, and processing of your life up-till-then. You softly {become aware of sometimes} that you've closed out a phase of your earlier life, and turn towards what's ahead.
This 2nd phase of your life begins without too much 'notice' of it, unless you know about it. Span of 40~42+ is a segue way into a new beginning. The Uranus Opp Uranus (very-slow transit) marks this transition into your next phase {2nd half}.
Committed relationships
Some long-term relationships go through that added Uranus restlessness and stress during those years.
If the couple can stay, make allowances, and adjust to it--, then past Chiron Return, the relationship might feel as though it's had a rebirth. Fresh start.
You're with someone you've done the "work" of sifting all the personality and character-kinks out with, with lots of history behind you (nostalgia). You get a 2nd wind. There's comradery and companionship with a comfortable Friend to enjoy the elder years with, later on.
{BH Clow}.
So. Back to what I was saying..
There are shifts and realizations that occur gradually during those transits.
Once you're generally over the mid-40s, there could be an awareness and sense that things really-have changed in ways you hadn't expected. {Matured further, and a sense of breakthrough becomes present-- relief?} Another kind of energetic wrap-up happens by 46 and through to 49/50. -- By that time you may have a sense that 'you've got this', as you approach the finale of that time-passage-- your Chiron-Return. ..
Once the Chiron Return has had enough separation time, your 50s may feel quite different once-more-- another mini-breakthrough-clearing.
I 'liked' the energy past that Return. Was more soothing. Life-itself had a sense of 'sweetness' I'd not experienced before. Some body things that had been nagging and plaguing (in 40s), with the Chiron Return, managed to COMPLETELY disappeared on its own.
At Ur Opp Ur ..
Some people get married, and even start a 2nd family {surprise baby}. -- I had known couples like that.
Some women sense that 'biological-clock' urgency. Start process of menopause past Ur opp Ur?
*~
Teasel. Thanks for sharing.
And I DO understand the added 'energy years and tears' of being a mom, in later years of life. Don't do it-- unless it's a burning desire, and you've made ALL the considerations about age-stage you and child would be when older. .. Young teen Adolescence + Menopausing.
{hormone-fun? *grin* ~~ huge blessings on that house!! }
Again Plut0nian..
I understand wanting to remain in status-quo, rather than have old wounds stirred up and refreshed?
Then too??, a person who comes into your life and actually IS a really good person, can do much towards providing a Healing corrective experience.
~
Oh.
I don't like "players" either.
I hate all the deceiving and out-rite LIES involved with dating. {SOME people find that 'fun'? .. nope. not-me.}
You don't know if they are presenting an image of their 'false' self-- Then, when you begin to be more interested, you 'learn' that this person was liar??
Intensely dislike some of the tactics I've seen taught before-- that you "woo" the woman, then, stiffly insult her when she shows interest?? ~THAT's supposed to attract her to you?
{Waste of time}
I'd like the kind of relation I described earlier to Plut0nian-- For example, to be involved in an activity or work project, and become close friends.
At the root of self, I'm more geared towards the role of a help-mete. A supporter and cheerleader for the dreams of others. And, I'd want to be unconditionally Loved and Cherished.
Would be cool to be in a Best Friends/ There-for-you/ Companions kind of relationship .. for the remainder of lifetime. I really like long-term relationships.
Have you ever watched the movie, The Horse Whisperer?
I really appreciated Robert Redford in this role. Soul whisperer.
(music) A Soft Place To Fall (Allison Moorer, actor Robert Redford, K.Thomas, [I]The Horse Whisperer[/b]) [2:44] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oedoFqEZJgY