posted October 28, 2020 11:18 PM            

Very much so, if i'm not in position to fight back now. I hold it for a better time latter when everything is stacked in my favor.

As unfortunately is to admit, I've left some people in shock and awe when I have let my temper out and I do hold grudges.

posted January 17, 2021 02:09 PM            

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Originally posted by mee_chryssa:
People who have Aquarius Moon have some difficulty expressing their emotions and sometimes they have some outburst of anger.

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posted January 17, 2021 04:13 PM            

If I was given a chance to change one aspect that I would choose moon opposite mars...

Several hours ago, even though I promised myself not to turn into a monster and have been working on my anger... I came so close to physicaly harming my father... Thank god, instead I broke a candle holder by throwing it on the floor...

And having pluto squares ( mercury ) can make me brutal with my words.

Having Neptune in the 12th opposing Moon makes me feel guilty about everything...

Even though everyone I know is telling me that after all what my family put me through since childhood it is normal to be angry and loose control from time to time... I cant help but feel quilty...

When I was a child I was beaten by mom a lot. Most of the times not for the things I did. but for what other people did to mom.
After I developed reflexes to hold my guard up whenever mom comes towards me even to show affection, she stopped.

Many times, she apolosiged for beating me... After being her caregiver for 7 years, she died last year. ( she had dementia - I might be the last drop that caused her dementia - because at the beginning stage which I was not aware of, her routine every day nervous breakdown got worser and I could not stand it anymore and I started to shout at her and accused her being a horrible mother... she screamed, screamed, screamed... A month later, she was diagnosed as dementia... sitting right across to me crying where is my darling daughter, where is she... I was saying mom this me, I am your daughter... she was looking at me in tears, not recognising me... )

Damn, my moon opposite mars... Ah sorry I am in tears now... And depleted...

Yeah, if I was given a chance I would definetely kick moon opposite mars from my natal chart and mercury square pluto...

Apart from agony, moon-mars opposition is the root cause of me not having a family of my own. Never wanting to give birth...

But I was forced by my forever quilty concious to be a caregiver to mom and dad...

And being a caregiver makes me angry...

family makes me angry...

emotional pain makes me angry...

posted January 17, 2021 04:42 PM            

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Originally posted by sis:
I have moon in gemini opposing mars neptune nn conjunction squaring Jupiter...

If I was given a chance to change one aspect that I would choose moon opposite mars...

Several hours ago, even though I promised myself not to turn into a monster and have been working on my anger... I came so close to physicaly harming my father... Thank god, instead I broke a candle holder by throwing it on the floor...

And having pluto squares ( mercury ) can make me brutal with my words.

Having Neptune in the 12th opposing Moon makes me feel guilty about everything...

Even though everyone I know is telling me that after all what my family put me through since childhood it is normal to be angry and loose control from time to time... I cant help but feel quilty...

When I was a child I was beaten by mom a lot. Most of the times not for the things I did. but for what other people did to mom.
After I developed reflexes to hold my guard up whenever mom comes towards me even to show affection, she stopped.

Many times, she apolosiged for beating me... After being her caregiver for 7 years, she died last year. ( she had dementia - I might be the last drop that caused her dementia - because at the beginning stage which I was not aware of, her routine every day nervous breakdown got worser and I could not stand it anymore and I started to shout at her and accused her being a horrible mother... she screamed, screamed, screamed... A month later, she was diagnosed as dementia... sitting right across to me crying where is my darling daughter, where is she... I was saying mom this me, I am your daughter... she was looking at me in tears, not recognising me... )

Damn, my moon opposite mars... Ah sorry I am in tears now... And depleted...

Yeah, if I was given a chance I would definetely kick moon opposite mars from my natal chart and mercury square pluto...

Apart from agony, moon-mars opposition is the root cause of me not having a family of my own. Never wanting to give birth...

But I was forced by my forever quilty concious to be a caregiver to mom and dad...

And being a caregiver makes me angry...

family makes me angry...

emotional pain makes me angry...

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