posted October 02, 2020 11:11 PM            

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Originally posted by Somna7H:
Until I become 19 I was use to care about dress and appearance. I was running Rahu Maha Dasa till 19. Then my good time gone. Jupiter Maha Dasa and now worst one Saturn Maha Dasa running. Now I become a Slave. Also most bad transit running. Pluto and Saturn opposite my natal Sun. They also Square to my Pluto and Mars etc. But within a year Rahu will transit over my Asc. May be then I will start to take care about myself specially outer look. You know most planets in my chart are in bad dignity except Rahu I guess.

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i was born into mercury dasha, then ketu, finishing venus now (in venus-ketu period) my venus and ketu are in 1st house together

i have a virgo lagna (chitra) in vedic so debilitated venus with ketu, and my entire life has been pretty hellish really (significantly worse than just what i say here)

i have 4th house sag mars (so manglik, explains my first relationship going to **** ) 12th house leo sun 3rd house scorpio saturn 6th house aquarius jupiter retrograde 11th house cancer mercury and 7th house pisces moon with rahu (revati nakshatra)

so i feel you on that level, life can be a ***** , but these things bring mixed results

everything has mixed potential no single placement only gives one result there's ways for things to play out that are varied even if there's confines that you have to work within

yes some **** in life is fated but that doesn't mean everything is and even when **** is bad there's potential for growth in suffering, and positive things can come out of it

still good times even in bad periods of life and so on

don't give up on yourself or life just because **** 's bad right now, still more to go you never know what's coming

should try to take care of yourself and be kinder to yourself now, as much as you can, not even just about appearances

posted October 02, 2020 11:41 PM            

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Originally posted by Somna7H:
Thank you!
I really appreciate it.

You know my Saturn/Saturn just ended and Saturn/Mercury started. If by the end of 2020 nothing good happen to me the I know this life fcked up once and for all. There will be 16 years of pain and suffering waiting for me from Great Saturn.By the end of this I will become to old to enjoy this world. So I almost give up. Just living now for sake of living and waiting for the END.

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you don't know that though, it feels that way and you think it but you don't know it

you can flip a coin 20 times in a row get heads every time but as long as it has 2 sides you could still get tails the next time you flip it and life isn't any different

i'm no stranger to pain and suffering, have 34 years of it to judge by (a good chunk of my earliest memories are terrible and i know for a fact abuse started even before that due to other **** ) so i'm not saying this lightly or minimizing the impact this kind of thing can have at all

life can be terrible, there are points where you can feel empty and like there's nothing ahead of you and nothing behind you that made any of where you're at worth even getting to, i get that

but if you stop, dig, and really look around you then you can see that even in all that there's still things to appreciate that you get to experience because you're alive

try really immersing yourself in each moment, any given moment, you'll start to see how much can fade away around you how much doesn't need to matter past you and what's right in front of you

there's a lot of beautiful things in the world, lot of things life has to offer, they might not always be what you want right then but it doesn't mean they're meaningless or have no value

there's no such thing as being too old to enjoy your life, if you're alive it's possible to find enjoyment and live, that simple

i get going through the motions just waiting to die, been there, but you don't have to stay there even if the situation itself doesn't get better you don't have to be in that mindset that makes it all worse

can't force you to appreciate life, but maybe take a minute here and there to be grateful and appreciate the simple things and see whether or not some of what you feel changes

and you never know what will come along, there's no set time for good **** to happen, or a set age for things to be right

posted October 02, 2020 11:58 PM            

getting to a place where you feel like you're going to crack and can't take anymore just means you have to dig deeper and find parts of you that you didn't realize were there

you might **** up along the way or have points where you feel like this or like you can't go on, that's fine, but don't drown in it

things are only completely hopeless when you let yourself drown, and i'm not just talking about circumstances or anything external i'm talking about your spirit everything inside you that makes you who you are and any connection you could have to something greater outside of yourself

posted October 03, 2020 02:23 AM            

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Originally posted by Somna7H:
Thank you!
I really appreciate it.

You know my Saturn/Saturn just ended and Saturn/Mercury started. If by the end of 2020 nothing good happen to me the I know this life fcked up once and for all. There will be 16 years of pain and suffering waiting for me from Great Saturn.By the end of this I will become to old to enjoy this world. So I almost give up. Just living now for sake of living and waiting for the END.

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It doesn't have to be this way, Somna7H. Saturn is tough but Saturn doesn't have to end your world. During my friend's Saturn Mahadasha, his wife divorced him, he lost his house and was left with debts. He had to sleep at his workplace for awhile because he had nowhere to go/no money...but 3yrs later he cleared his debts, reconnected with an ex-gf who helped him and they got married... now living happily. Most recently I heard that he just got his pension and is a rich man now. So what I'm saying is... Saturn will cut off what's not working in your life but it can bring you good things as well as long as you believe and persevere.

My boyfriend also just started his Saturn Mahadasha and I noticed he's been feeling demoralised (money also becoming an issue) so this is what Saturn can cause in people...you will feel like you're dragging your feet and nothing seems to be going right... but that's usually the initial phase, not the whole 16yrs of Saturn Mahadasha. It breaks you then it rewards your hard work (depends how your Saturn is placed).

For my friend, Saturn is in his Aries 4H aspecting by Moon/Jupiter. In D9, Saturn in Gemini 6H. For my boyfriend, Saturn in Leo 10H with out-of-sign conjunct to Venus and in D9, his Saturn is in Aries 5H.

posted October 03, 2020 11:46 AM            

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Originally posted by Dumuzi:
it's just been a thing i've always dealt with so i've grown accustomed to just sort of avoiding it as much as possible

not sure if it's sun-pluto being sextile or because i have pluto first house (in some systems anyway, do for placidus but libra ascendant/libra venus and libra south node all conjunct) i have sun-saturn too (square) and sun-neptune (trine) heavily aspected ascendant too

i find it very uncomfortable though it's not really so much about being accepted as it is just finding it easier to not deal with ****

i'd be just as content with those people ignoring me altogether tbh

my ex was like the woman you're describing everything could be a mess and she'd be spending extra time in the mirror as if that'd fix it, got that from her mother though

so yeah i get you appearance changes can definitely be about hiding ****

a lot can be behind what people see on the surface

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posted October 04, 2020 08:58 PM            

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Originally posted by Orange:
also, i have read, that hair cutting/shaving, unusual hair color, and drastic change in appearance, as well as unusual change of eating habits, are a sign of psychological trauma inside the individual when they deal with a major loss, a desire to turn a leaf by becoming another person, so to speak. It also gives you a sense of control when you feel helpless to change certain situations in your life.

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Was very true in my case. I was trying to completely cut someone out of my life at the time. After doing her a favor, I asked her for a favor in return--to please set up a mutual time (for intention strengthening purposes) where we would devote a meditation/ritual, where we would ask the Source, our Expanded self level, and the Creative Forces to help us sever all earthly, energetic connections between us.

Never heard back from her, though I would occasionally write and remind and ask her, hey, can you please help me with this? I knew it would take both of us and a very strong mutual intention to accomplish this. For 9 months she acted like she didn't give much of a crap about me (she could barely muster a reply/response to emails or texts after a couple weeks), so I didn't understand why she wouldn't agree and be like, "yeah, let's get this done and over with".

Anyways, I shaved my hair off during this period, though somewhat after I initially asked her.