posted December 01, 2022 11:15 PM            

I got nausea that is still around, started to get chills last week, and had some stomach pain that would come and go. I have been Googling symptoms and am expecting the worst. However, I am in a tough spot as I quit my recent job and my new one will start in the middle of December. Due to how things work in the US, I will not have health insurance until January.

Maybe it is due to anxiety, who really knows, but I feel like deep down, I do not have long left on this earth. I feel like my time in coming soon and I will be lucky to make it past 5 years of living because I know I am going to get some health condition. I feel like when I do talk to the doctors and specialists in January, it won't be good news I hear.

However, are any transits happening right now in my chart making me feel this way?

posted December 01, 2022 11:42 PM            

Whether it's your time or not... I pray for peace & comfort for you, dear. 💜 You very well may be fine come January though! It's easy to get bogged down in fearful thoughts when you aren't feeling well, I've been there. Allow yourself to feel all the "feels" without letting them consume you - if you're able. And please seek assistance (if it's available) with getting potential meds you may need.

posted December 02, 2022 12:04 AM            

It's so scary when you get ill and start thinking this too.

Or, if you get really ill, like, life-threatening ill, and the thoughts come and you start thinking of those thoughts as more than thoughts but, rather, natural premonitions and insights because, given the illness, the possibility is very real.

It's hard too, because there's no one to talk to. People tend to brush you off with: think positively. When, on the contrary, you are not thinking negatively, you are genuinely wondering if your thoughts are premonitions or not? So you can plan, or something.

You are seeing a specialist?

Don't know how old you are but the possibility of death starts to be on your mind as the years go by.

Please keep us updated and I hope you get the support and comfort you require.

posted December 02, 2022 02:28 AM            

A lot of transits I’ve already experienced because of retros and directs. I seriously cannot believe how the stars have aligned where I am down and kicked. Like destroyed. For over the period of a month.

Uranus and NN is in my 12 house. 12th house is hospitals right? Uranus is square my IC Leo. I just got over the hump with this. But Leo is Joy. Where is it?! Taurus is self esteem self worth. I’ve never felt so not in control in my entire life.

It’s so important that people are nice to me right now. Or get out.

I’ve grown to hate having a Scorpio stellium in the 6th.

I need comfort, I need empathy, I need privacy, I need to cry alone, I need to heal. I need to feel safe where I am.

Everything is taking too long. The damage has been done.

I feel like I can’t even oomph to break the cycles that I constantly run into until Chiron goes direct. At the end of this effing month.

posted December 02, 2022 02:41 AM            

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Originally posted by Stawr:

It’s so important that people are nice to me right now. Or get out.

I’ve grown to hate having a Scorpio stellium in the 6th.

I need comfort, I need empathy, I need privacy, I need to cry alone, I need to heal. I need to feel safe where I am.

Everything is taking too long. The damage has been done.

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posted December 02, 2022 03:16 AM            

Sometimes fixing diet, picking up exercise, fixing sleeping habit etc is all it takes for the body to start healing itself. Trust in your body and give it what it needs.

posted December 02, 2022 03:39 AM            

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Originally posted by plutonianmenace:
However, are any transits happening right now in my chart making me feel this way?

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All fixed signs are going through a rough patch at the moment with transits. Your 12th house Leo stellium is probably being impacted by Taurus Uranus, Taurus north node and Aquarius Saturn. We just ended eclipse season and this could also still be having effect.

You have had some personal events that could lead to anxiety. In my late twenties, I had a big health scare with a lump in my thyroid while at the same time my grandmother was dying of cancer. I had a lot of medical exams and in the end it turned out benign but my anxiety during this period was through the roof. Regular heart burn issues due to stomach acid and muscle spasms related to hyperventilation, I was a mess. I had a very close friend that took me out for a city trip to get my mind off things. That helped enormously. Do you have any close friends or relatives that could help to distract you and do something fun with you?

posted December 02, 2022 03:54 AM            

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Originally posted by Stawr:
I’m in the hospital right now…

Uranus and NN is in my 12 house. 12th house is hospitals right? Uranus is square my IC Leo. I just got over the hump with this. But Leo is Joy. Where is it?! Taurus is self esteem self worth. I’ve never felt so not in control in my entire life.

I’ve grown to hate having a Scorpio stellium in the 6th. …

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First of all, a big hug for you Stawr! ❤️
I’m an 8th house Taurus stellium with a Scorpio north node and I feel your pain.

posted December 02, 2022 09:15 PM            

2. Saturn's movement through the 6th house over the last couple years is a transit of challenges in work and/or health that need to be addressed. Good habits and upholding your personal standards will help a lot.

3. Neptune has been in transit opposite and parallel your natal Moon, plus currently quincunx natal Venus, intensifying feelings that are likely passing or illusory. So just what I've listed so far in the way of transits shows that this period is one of the tougher times of your life (last year or so, some months still).

The Neptune transits to Moon/Venus can profoundly increase sensitivity (and decrease confidence) and often with it a sense of unusual vulnerability and/or confusion.

I recommend laying off the googling of symptoms. It is very unlikely to lead to both a helpful self-diagnosis and a successful remedy. Certainly not for a Moon-in-Virgo person whose Moon is parallel Pluto. So yes, I'd say a lot of this is anxiety.

You're going through a lot of transits that combine to indicate an especially challenging, confusing period of your life. I advise that you not jump to any conclusions because of this. Don't allow these transient influences to turn into negative beliefs about yourself, life, or anything else. Acknowledge that your concern about your well being is valid and perfectly healthy. Agree with yourself that you will take whatever measures are needed to be healthy, well, and to have peace of mind.

As an herbalist/healer, I'd like to talk further privately if you want. I may be able to help.

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posted December 03, 2022 10:06 PM            

It just hit me in this transit, really in the first week of November. I got sick for the first time ever and thought nothing of it. All it was was the flu. Then a week after that I get sick again and it sucked. I don't have health insurance until January due to starting my new job then (good ole USA) and currently being between jobs. Never in my life has it hit me that I could have an emergency right now and if I go to ER, I will be deep in debt.

My body has not been feeling right and I have been scared of it. What gets me is how much the general check ups have failed me. I thought that vital signs and a normal bloodwork were enough but all these years, I more or less ignored my symptoms because they were not serious enough to consider going to the doctor with.

Anyways, I don't want to talk more about it yet. It is just this feeling of death that has come over me and that my time on this earth being more limited than I thought.

posted December 06, 2022 12:09 AM            

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Originally posted by teasel:
I know exactly how you feel. I'm so sorry.

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posted December 06, 2022 12:16 AM            

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Originally posted by PlutoWasHere:
First of all, a big hug for you Stawr! ❤️
I’m an 8th house Taurus stellium with a Scorpio north node and I feel your pain.

The 6th, 8th and 12th houses are the Dusthana houses in Vedic astrology, also known as the houses of suffering. We’re in for some serious soul purging during this lifetime. It’s not easy but it’s meant to make us come out stronger. Things suck big time right now but we have an inner strength that we can rely on and that will carry us through this period of darkness. There is much you can say about the fixed signs: Taurus, Leo, Scorpio and Aquarius, but they are not quitters. We’re made of sturdy stuff and we’ll come out of this dark tunnel, bigger and better than we were before. *shakes fist angrily at the universe*

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posted December 06, 2022 12:22 AM            

I waited way to long to go to Urgent for my health issues.

If I didn't go to Urgent I would of never known I had genetic colitis. Stress triggered this health condition in me I never knew I had and went unchecked. I was in agony for over two months. I'm finally on the recovery now.

posted December 06, 2022 11:50 AM            

But there is such a thing as a self-fulfilling prophecy. If you start telling yourself that you don't have long to live, you may actually talk yourself into an early death. The placebo effect is about 30%.

posted December 06, 2022 11:28 PM            

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Originally posted by Stawr:
Please see a doc or go to urgent care, it could nip it in the bud.

I waited way to long to go to Urgent for my health issues.

If I didn't go to Urgent I would of never known I had genetic colitis. Stress triggered this health condition in me I never knew I had and went unchecked. I was in agony for over two months. I'm finally on the recovery now.

I was in the hospital for a whole week mainly hooked up to an IV.

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Not sure about you but from my experience, Urgent Cares have been useless. Most are short-staffed, hardly have a doctor at the location, and just want to get you out of there. They are only fit to handle a handful of minor emergencies if even that. Have not gotten any value out of going to the ones I have gone to recently.

posted December 07, 2022 12:21 AM            

I thought I had "roids" for two months. They wouldn't go away. My stomach has hurt since the beginning of October. I was having a Colitis inflammation. I have never even heard of this health condition.

I understand the mistrust with hospitals. I prefer natural remedies always, but life's ailments are not always so simple. I am very glad that both natural remedies and drugs exists.
Even in the wild where everything is fresh and raw IT'S A JUNGLE OUT THERE! What makes any of us so special?

All my nurses and staff where super sweet to me expect for like 3 of them. And I called them out with my emotions being so raw at the time. Plus I am petty as hell, and liked talking **** about them to the rest of the staff. They want to act like I ruined their day? I'll ruin it on purpose now. I am actually kind of glad I am petty and vindictive. Hippy's can say what they want but I think being fullend by such pettiness and injustice rage is a strong primitive instinct that keeps me going when things get hard, and gives me adrenaline. It is my very nature I am Pluto/Urnaus/Mars dominant. I am too petty to give up and surrender to disrespect and despair for too long.

I do what I can with the yoga. I got into mediation. I eat fruits and veggies...I still get royally f()cked with my health. It was fated. But also the only way I would ever leave my husband who was making me so miserable and stressed.

Anything toxic in your life that may be impacting your heath? Job, people, a past, a trauma, a karma?

I'm in my 30's now I'm not invincible with my health. I also see how stress impacts my heath as an adult. I decided I'm seeing docs regular. I am so going to see a counselor too.
I also appreciate my mom for encouraging alternative health. She would take me to manual therapists. They can really clear some energy blockages. I wouldn't mind treating my self this way as an adult. I like to keep up with massages and facials too.

I am hoping that the Uranus Taurus will add more natural remedies more mainstream.

It hurts me so much to hear people talk like pharmaceuticals are more safe than weed/cbd. It's the side effects comparison that is so hurtful and ignorant to me.

But I am also so hype to see what Pluto Aquarius will do with modern medicine. And what things can be cured that can't right now. Like MS. I have a friend who is two days younger than me and has this heath condition it breaks my heart but she is so strong and awesome and even has a child.

I am hoping that Chiron in Aries makes people cut the toxic positivity crap. More rage therapy like our primal ancestors. Being able to just let out a scream like you are on the mountains, break something, whack something. All emotions are valid and have their own ways that people can self regulate them.

I want to treat my self to acupuncture.

posted December 08, 2022 01:51 PM            

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Originally posted by Stawr:
My Urgent care was connected to a hospital which I ended up needing.

I thought I had "roids" for two months. They wouldn't go away. My stomach has hurt since the beginning of October. I was having a Colitis inflammation. I have never even heard of this health condition.

I understand the mistrust with hospitals. I prefer natural remedies always, but life's ailments are not always so simple. I am very glad that both natural remedies and drugs exists.
Even in the wild where everything is fresh and raw IT'S A JUNGLE OUT THERE! What makes any of us so special?

All my nurses and staff where super sweet to me expect for like 3 of them. And I called them out with my emotions being so raw at the time. Plus I am petty as hell, and liked talking **** about them to the rest of the staff. They want to act like I ruined their day? I'll ruin it on purpose now. I am actually kind of glad I am petty and vindictive. Hippy's can say what they want but I think being fullend by such pettiness and injustice rage is a strong primitive instinct that keeps me going when things get hard, and gives me adrenaline. It is my very nature I am Pluto/Urnaus/Mars dominant. I am too petty to give up and surrender to disrespect and despair for too long.

I do what I can with the yoga. I got into mediation. I eat fruits and veggies...I still get royally f()cked with my health. It was fated. But also the only way I would ever leave my husband who was making me so miserable and stressed.

Anything toxic in your life that may be impacting your heath? Job, people, a past, a trauma, a karma?

I'm in my 30's now I'm not invincible with my health. I also see how stress impacts my heath as an adult. I decided I'm seeing docs regular. I am so going to see a counselor too.
I also appreciate my mom for encouraging alternative health. She would take me to manual therapists. They can really clear some energy blockages. I wouldn't mind treating my self this way as an adult. I like to keep up with massages and facials too.

I am hoping that the Uranus Taurus will add more natural remedies more mainstream.

It hurts me so much to hear people talk like pharmaceuticals are more safe than weed/cbd. It's the side effects comparison that is so hurtful and ignorant to me.

But I am also so hype to see what Pluto Aquarius will do with modern medicine. And what things can be cured that can't right now. Like MS. I have a friend who is two days younger than me and has this heath condition it breaks my heart but she is so strong and awesome and even has a child.

I am hoping that Chiron in Aries makes people cut the toxic positivity crap. More rage therapy like our primal ancestors. Being able to just let out a scream like you are on the mountains, break something, whack something. All emotions are valid and have their own ways that people can self regulate them.

I want to treat my self to acupuncture.

From the bottom of my heart, I don't want you to suffer. I bless whatever is meant for you to ease this feeling in you. (I hope that's okay)

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Come to think of it, all of this started for me in October. In fact, it started in late October after a failed date that didn't go so well but we did make out. I wonder if I might have had STDs but then realized that without penetration, STDs do not really give stomach pain. All we did in that date was make out and I know from afterwards that there was something off about the woman.

Then come November, I start getting really sick but my situation as an American is tricky. I was unemployed and just now became employed in December. My health insurance does not kick in until January. However, I have been sick or just feeling ill in ways I cannot imagine. A good bit of symptoms seem to be in line with fatal cancer but I am still walking around and have energy so it could be something else. I really don't know.

However, it has hit me now as an adult why healthcare topics are so big in politics (and neither party will refuse to do anything). I have to wait until January for my health insurance to kick in and before then, I am screwed. I have gone to two Urgent Cares which have been entirely useless and worthless. Meanwhile, every day I have a symptom I feel like I have never had before.

I am truly at the mercy of forces out of my control (12th house themes perhaps) as I have to pray to not have a medical emergency before January. If I do as an American, then I go to ER and have to pay 10s of thousands of dollars in treatment, some say even six figures, if I happen to survive.

Meanwhile, I have looked back to learn how much more proactive we have to be about our health with doctors. I used to think that a Blood test and annual physical was enough for a doctor to disqualify serious cancers and diseases but a lot of the more deadly cancers do not really have screening for them. Like what the heck, it is like doctors want to do the least amount of work that they possibly can for you.

All the while, I have to now live with the fact that if I do survive until January, that checkup and things like CT Scan and such are not going to be pretty. I am only 30 but due to my uprbringing, where my health was ignored, I feel like I have a lot of catching up to do. I feel like I didn't spend enough time being proactive about my health with my doctors in my twenties and could pay a serious price now with my life in my 30s. I am showing a lot of Cancer symptoms outside of crapping and peeing blood.

It is so unreal. Never have I felt so close to death in my entire life. Every week I feel like this is it, I might not make it to 35. It is insane.

posted December 09, 2022 03:10 AM            

I was actually crapping blood. I think you are a guy for some reason. Can men get bladder infections and pee blood? I know women can pee blood if the infection gets that bad. I thought I had unshakable roids, during that time I left my husband, drove to home state, I, nor my family knew how sick I was. Everyone just thought I was being a dumb arsehole.

Once my family gave me space to not upset me. And I was throwing up water and GINGER ALE the next day. I knew I needed to go to Urgent.

Thank God I went to one connected to a hospital.

Thank God I'm still on my husbands health insurance. And while I refuse to speak to him now, he is willing to cover it all.

At that urgent I was scanned at. Some of the early results showed that I have a bladder infection, and ovarian cyst on my right side, I had to get a colonoscopy.

The head Doc said that I've probably had colitis my whole life, and that is genetic. I must of always had it mildly and it went unnoticed for so long. Plus medical technology is always flourishing. But REALLy I've never had something so bad happen to me like this. And I guess it is weird for it to show up this bad way later in my life. I think just the stress I've been under, all the emotional suffering I've experienced trying to be on a path that isn't good enough for me really made my gut burst from not listening to it enough.

Um yeah I had to cry when I was diagnosed. But at the same time, I'd rather find this out the hard way while I am half arse young in my 30's. I could not imagine being a decade or two older and finding out I have a health condition this way. But I mean as much as I wish I could just be a health hippy all the time. If this pill helps me with proper digestion and going to the bathroom...and I can get back to a more fulfilling meaningful life, I'll do it. Maybe there will be a less complicated cure in the future, but in the meanwhile I'm grateful.

I feel bad saying this about the women...but it almost seemed like she was like a bad omen or something.

I so feel your pain with the insurance stuff. I might need to change fields because my field is very toxic to women. Crappy pay, health insurance basically making you need to have well off parents or a spouse to actually make ends meet. Seriously often better off on someone else's insurance than theirs. It's so sad. I feel like with a lot of job field and especially mine is like "hey lets play the **** around and find out game with people in this field."

As libertarian as I can be...it's like why do we just want people to suffer and die if they don't have enough money or good health insurance?!

The anticipation for what the Doc will say is not a good feeling. I certainly know. But to escape the worry, I gotta let the doc hit me with the truth. There are certain things I can't diagnose my self. It very much a time to face the music. What do I have? And what do I need to do to be proactive with my symptoms?
We don't always have to say yes to everything to doc says. Like if I have the flu, I take elderberries. Not Tamiflu. Elderberries work and have actually good side affects like the libido, and antioxidants. LOL

But I guess what I want to say is that sometimes what you think you may have may not be what you had going on at all.

I know the pain of having such bad health insurance that I end up just paying out of pocket. I spent 300 bucks in one month to learn how to treat my eczema. I felt like I wasn't invincible with my health when I turned 27. It was fun while it lasted I guess. I appreciate how far I've made it being invincible.

here are some more good vibes

posted December 17, 2022 09:42 PM            

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Originally posted by Stawr:
I am so sorry.

I was actually crapping blood. I think you are a guy for some reason. Can men get bladder infections and pee blood? I know women can pee blood if the infection gets that bad. I thought I had unshakable roids, during that time I left my husband, drove to home state, I, nor my family knew how sick I was. Everyone just thought I was being a dumb arsehole.

Once my family gave me space to not upset me. And I was throwing up water and GINGER ALE the next day. I knew I needed to go to Urgent.

Thank God I went to one connected to a hospital.

Thank God I'm still on my husbands health insurance. And while I refuse to speak to him now, he is willing to cover it all.

At that urgent I was scanned at. Some of the early results showed that I have a bladder infection, and ovarian cyst on my right side, I had to get a colonoscopy.

The head Doc said that I've probably had colitis my whole life, and that is genetic. I must of always had it mildly and it went unnoticed for so long. Plus medical technology is always flourishing. But REALLy I've never had something so bad happen to me like this. And I guess it is weird for it to show up this bad way later in my life. I think just the stress I've been under, all the emotional suffering I've experienced trying to be on a path that isn't good enough for me really made my gut burst from not listening to it enough.

Um yeah I had to cry when I was diagnosed. But at the same time, I'd rather find this out the hard way while I am half arse young in my 30's. I could not imagine being a decade or two older and finding out I have a health condition this way. But I mean as much as I wish I could just be a health hippy all the time. If this pill helps me with proper digestion and going to the bathroom...and I can get back to a more fulfilling meaningful life, I'll do it. Maybe there will be a less complicated cure in the future, but in the meanwhile I'm grateful.

I feel bad saying this about the women...but it almost seemed like she was like a bad omen or something.

I so feel your pain with the insurance stuff. I might need to change fields because my field is very toxic to women. Crappy pay, health insurance basically making you need to have well off parents or a spouse to actually make ends meet. Seriously often better off on someone else's insurance than theirs. It's so sad. I feel like with a lot of job field and especially mine is like "hey lets play the **** around and find out game with people in this field."

As libertarian as I can be...it's like why do we just want people to suffer and die if they don't have enough money or good health insurance?!

The anticipation for what the Doc will say is not a good feeling. I certainly know. But to escape the worry, I gotta let the doc hit me with the truth. There are certain things I can't diagnose my self. It very much a time to face the music. What do I have? And what do I need to do to be proactive with my symptoms?
We don't always have to say yes to everything to doc says. Like if I have the flu, I take elderberries. Not Tamiflu. Elderberries work and have actually good side affects like the libido, and antioxidants. LOL

But I guess what I want to say is that sometimes what you think you may have may not be what you had going on at all.

I know the pain of having such bad health insurance that I end up just paying out of pocket. I spent 300 bucks in one month to learn how to treat my eczema. I felt like I wasn't invincible with my health when I turned 27. It was fun while it lasted I guess. I appreciate how far I've made it being invincible.

here are some more good vibes

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LOL, I am a guy. The Urgent Cares I have went to (two so far) have been completely and utterly useless. It is like their goal is to barely see you and then to get you out of there ASAP. I have a couple more weeks to go before my Health Insurance kicks in. Only in January can I go see a doctor and be insured. Before that, I am screwed if I have a medical emergency.

It is funny you brought up your line of work. I feel like I have been attacked for being who I am and let the pettiness get to me. Just because I brought a positive attitude to work and decided to not see the worst in life. Now a bunch of miserable Karens and passive-aggressive leeches wanted to target and gaslight me. I let them get to me to where I had to quit my job and I am thinking as to how miserable I am because of it now. It is hitting me and forcing me to come to truths about myself.

I feel like I have accepted, as arrogant as it sounds, that as a Leo not everyone will like me. I try to brighten the room but some people are miserable leeches and parasites that want others to be miserable alongside them. When they see someone bring a good energy to it all, it somehow makes them insecure and makes them want to gaslight people like me. I have come to terms with that and accepted that it will be that way. I know some people will not like me and I am okay with that. When they try to come at me, I will call it out because they can only on being passive aggressive in the shadows but when it comes to facing me directly, they are weak. I know how evil cannot prosper in the sunlight.

As soon as I accepted that, I feel more at peace but the damage has been done. Such 6th house themes here. It is almost like life hit me in this low and got me down here to force me to come to terms with and ask how it ever got like that. I was a great employee and everything but I let people make me miserable to the point I quit. I let some old hags and low quality people affect me to the point that I had to quit my job just for peace but then I ask why should a valuable person like me do that?

posted December 18, 2022 11:33 PM            

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Originally posted by PlutoWasHere:
@plutonianmenace, I’m sorry that you have not been helped properly by health care yet. I hope there will be a solution soon because this is a very stressful situation.

But I notice that you also have made progress in dealing with some personal issues. Realizing that not everyone has to like you is very helpful for whatever Sun sign you are but it can be a particular lesson for Leo’s because they have such a strong need for recognition. I can’t help but wonder if this is the meaning of your 12th house stellium. This should also help you in setting healthy boundaries. And sometimes a little growl can be enough but definitely roar if it’s necessary. And I know it’s one of those corny lines, but “if one door closes, another opens.” Trust in your journey of personal growth, that is Saturn.

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posted December 18, 2022 11:53 PM            

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Originally posted by plutonianmenace:
LOL, I am a guy. The Urgent Cares I have went to (two so far) have been completely and utterly useless. It is like their goal is to barely see you and then to get you out of there ASAP. I have a couple more weeks to go before my Health Insurance kicks in. Only in January can I go see a doctor and be insured. Before that, I am screwed if I have a medical emergency.

It is funny you brought up your line of work. I feel like I have been attacked for being who I am and let the pettiness get to me. Just because I brought a positive attitude to work and decided to not see the worst in life. Now a bunch of miserable Karens and passive-aggressive leeches wanted to target and gaslight me. I let them get to me to where I had to quit my job and I am thinking as to how miserable I am because of it now. It is hitting me and forcing me to come to truths about myself.

I feel like I have accepted, as arrogant as it sounds, that as a Leo not everyone will like me. I try to brighten the room but some people are miserable leeches and parasites that want others to be miserable alongside them. When they see someone bring a good energy to it all, it somehow makes them insecure and makes them want to gaslight people like me. I have come to terms with that and accepted that it will be that way. I know some people will not like me and I am okay with that. When they try to come at me, I will call it out because they can only on being passive aggressive in the shadows but when it comes to facing me directly, they are weak. I know how evil cannot prosper in the sunlight.

As soon as I accepted that, I feel more at peace but the damage has been done. Such 6th house themes here. It is almost like life hit me in this low and got me down here to force me to come to terms with and ask how it ever got like that. I was a great employee and everything but I let people make me miserable to the point I quit. I let some old hags and low quality people affect me to the point that I had to quit my job just for peace but then I ask why should a valuable person like me do that?

My whole, I tried to fight being that narcissist and remained humble to appease my Virgo moon. I was hard on myself and I remained so charitable. However, I feel like I have been pushed to where I have to be that narcissistic prick at times and welcome confrontation. I feel like at times, I have to learn to not be good towards others. I feel as if at times, I have to learn to not be so self-depreciating and humble. I feel like I have to let my inner prick and my inner pride out and roar.

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Working with antagonistic Karen's sounds like the story of my life.

Ah I have Leo in my chart. So that might be part of why I trigger people being happy.

But I also have misery in my chart. Taurus/Scorpio. And sometimes I do want to tell Leo's to shut up. (SORRY LOL) Like I am not going to be in a good mood all the time, and it's best to just give me my space when I get like this...and some of the Leo's I know do not give a crap. Like I will say to some of them "if I am watching TV, that means I don't want to be talked to." "If I have my laptop in front of me, that means I don't want to be talked to." And some of them still will. I think if Leo isn't balanced out with other placements, they can not give a crap if people need space if they are having attention withdrawals.

My Leo Scorpio placements basically makes me a bad kitty. "Pay attention to me, don't pay attention to me" LOL

I have a Scorpio stellilum in the 6th house so I relate to a lot of what you said. A good work environment with team oriented co workers. In time I get tougher from being jaded, but it's draining and if upper management isn't going to do anything then I will go elsewhere and they can kiss my arse!

posted December 19, 2022 11:18 PM            

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Working with antagonistic Karen's sounds like the story of my life.

Ah I have Leo in my chart. So that might be part of why I trigger people being happy.

But I also have misery in my chart. Taurus/Scorpio. And sometimes I do want to tell Leo's to shut up. (SORRY LOL) Like I am not going to be in a good mood all the time, and it's best to just give me my space when I get like this...and some of the Leo's I know do not give a crap. Like I will say to some of them "if I am watching TV, that means I don't want to be talked to." "If I have my laptop in front of me, that means I don't want to be talked to." And some of them still will. I think if Leo isn't balanced out with other placements, they can not give a crap if people need space if they are having attention withdrawals.

My Leo Scorpio placements basically makes me a bad kitty. "Pay attention to me, don't pay attention to me" LOL

I have a Scorpio stellilum in the 6th house so I relate to a lot of what you said. A good work environment with team oriented co workers. In time I get tougher from being jaded, but it's draining and if upper management isn't going to do anything then I will go elsewhere and they can kiss my arse!

Hey it really do be like that sometimes, and I think it's okay to stick up for yourself. The better we stick up for ourselves, the better we will stick up for other people.

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The 6th house themes are strange though. It is like the health issues I think I am experiencing have largely been due to toxic coworkers. I mean not entirely but they have played a big part. I let it get to me too much and it became a theme.

posted December 20, 2022 07:54 PM            

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The 6th house themes are strange though. It is like the health issues I think I am experiencing have largely been due to toxic coworkers. I mean not entirely but they have played a big part. I let it get to me too much and it became a theme.

I'd come in, bring a good vibe, and then a couple of toxic coworkers (occasionally bosses) would try to target me and gaslight me. It got to me and overtime I became a depressed version of myself. It became too much and I promised myself this month no more. I almost want to make enemies at work now because I accept them as a given.

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I relate to so much of what you said. I really think certain people (like us) have a light/life force w/in us. Like we cannot have much, but we have that shine. And they are triggered that they don't, and they want to destroy it. While we can get drained and down, it's still there. I have been in hell for so long. But I still have beautiful experiences and support. My empathy just gets stronger, and my boundaries get firmer.

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I relate to so much of what you said. I really think certain people (like us) have a light/life force w/in us. Like we cannot have much, but we have that shine. And they are triggered that they don't, and they want to destroy it. While we can get drained and down, it's still there. I have been in hell for so long. But I still have beautiful experiences and support. My empathy just gets stronger, and my boundaries get firmer.

Also I have 10th house Mars so p!ssing me off just makes me achieve higher goals than them. Wanna **** my peace? I'll become the CEO, travel to Hawaii, and throw a party and not invite you.

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Yeah, I have lived such a rough and abusive life that I do not know how I do it. I do not know I manage to keep my head up and still find the time to smile and see some good in people here and there. I just don't know. I have worked with people who were the scum of humanity and downright evil scheming psychopaths. I have seen some absolute cruelty from humanity but like, I keep my head up.