posted August 28, 2023 11:34 PM            

Venus rules my MC and 5th and Mars my IC and I have venus conjunct mars in LEO in the 8th and transit venus retro square uranus is activating my venus conjunct mars in the 8th house!

My mom is dying and was diagnosed with ALS earlier this year and my father has been taking good care of her and being her caregiver full time essentially since her health started to deteriorate.

I feel VENUS and MARS ruling my IC and MC represent my parents but since VENUS also rules my 5th and MC this is all being impacted with this venus in retro square uranus; my family life is being seriously disrupted with the life of my mom coming to an end because of a TRULY AWFUL disease making her lose her voice/speech and ability to eat/swallow safely leading to severe weight loss and my father being a caregiver and seeing the love of his life slowly deteriorate like that day to day in front of him has to be so hard, he has been doing it with so much love but I cannot imagine how traumatic that must be.

...and then while my mom is passing away my lover well now boyfriend is literally moving in with me and this process is taking about two months and is quite a big change and transition too...and his finances are also up in the air with transit uranus conjuncting his moon in taurus in the 2nd house and squaring venus rx.

Venus rx square Uranus activated my VENUS conjunct MARS in LEO in the 8th and has definitely shaken things up.

Going to miami on wednesday and my partner will finish moving in on his own and needs to be completely out of his apartment before sept 1st.

Its surreal....Uranus definitely feels abrupt like makes things just pick up out of nowhere...

posted August 30, 2023 11:08 PM            

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Originally posted by hypatia238:
Well my mom has venus in aquarius at 12 degrees and venus in leo retro is on it exact today and she is in the hospital and the doctor has told her she has two weeks to live.

Venus rules my MC and 5th and Mars my IC and I have venus conjunct mars in LEO in the 8th and transit venus retro square uranus is activating my venus conjunct mars in the 8th house!

My mom is dying and was diagnosed with ALS earlier this year and my father has been taking good care of her and being her caregiver full time essentially since her health started to deteriorate.

I feel VENUS and MARS ruling my IC and MC represent my parents but since VENUS also rules my 5th and MC this is all being impacted with this venus in retro square uranus; my family life is being seriously disrupted with the life of my mom coming to an end because of a TRULY AWFUL disease making her lose her voice/speech and ability to eat/swallow safely leading to severe weight loss and my father being a caregiver and seeing the love of his life slowly deteriorate like that day to day in front of him has to be so hard, he has been doing it with so much love but I cannot imagine how traumatic that must be.

...and then while my mom is passing away my lover well now boyfriend is literally moving in with me and this process is taking about two months and is quite a big change and transition too...and his finances are also up in the air with transit uranus conjuncting his moon in taurus in the 2nd house and squaring venus rx.

Venus rx square Uranus activated my VENUS conjunct MARS in LEO in the 8th and has definitely shaken things up.

Going to miami on wednesday and my partner will finish moving in on his own and needs to be completely out of his apartment before sept 1st.

Its surreal....Uranus definitely feels abrupt like makes things just pick up out of nowhere...

Its crazy to think that someone who has been there for you your whole life since the day you were born is not going to be around anymore...how is that natural??...I know its "natural" but it does not feel natural at all.

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posted September 04, 2023 01:33 AM            

I have seen how much I have grown so much internally - particularly my self-worth and self love had more than tripled since 2022.

posted September 04, 2023 03:40 AM            

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Originally posted by hypatia238:

Its crazy to think that someone who has been there for you your whole life since the day you were born is not going to be around anymore...how is that natural??...I know its "natural" but it does not feel natural at all.

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posted September 05, 2023 01:19 AM            

it felt as though she had laid her hands on my shoulders, to both get my attention and share a greeting, the way someone taps at your shoulder and rests their hand on you steady from behind. i also was flooded with a bright feeing of love. (mind us, i’m washing dishes..)

and i thought, “wow, hi… (this is an impressive feeling) …why?” and then, after a few moments, it dawned on me.. it’s her husband’s birthday—of course she’s here.

posted September 05, 2023 01:44 AM            

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i’d been waiting to buy moroccanoil shampoo and conditioner for months until i could find a major deal on the product in bulk, even been looking online or abroad.

yesterday i walked into my local TJMAXX, and there it was. two 1L (salon-sized) bottles of moroccanoil shampoo and conditioner—the only two bottles. felt very lucky. i was surprised because i’ve never seen them have this at the store, since i’ve gone there often when looking for small bottles of affordable alternative products in the interim.

1L bottle $35. normally priced at >$75.

posted September 08, 2023 10:22 AM            

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Originally posted by vansio:
8 years go (2015) i fell in love with my ex (my first and only longterm relationship)
we met right after Venus stationed direct back then
interestingly this upcoming Venus Rx goes back and forth over the composite Ascendent/Jupiter/Juno

under no conditions would i want him back however a new love potentially entering my life is very appealing. i have two crushes: one on the local barista and my roommate’s son i haven’t met lol

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interesting… venus cycle. so every 8 years (when venus retrogrades in Leo) apparently i start a new relationship

ex and i’s composite ascendent is 28° Leo

new relationship composite ascendent is 6° Leo

posted September 08, 2023 12:58 PM            

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Originally posted by teasel:
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Nothing really prepares you for it. I'm just so sorry.

A couple of years ago, the night before Thanksgiving, I was just in the kitchen, doing something, and I felt like she was behind me. My mum. I was about to say something to her, and then I remembered that she hadn't been here for over five years. The feeling was so strong, though.

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IDK for sure as I am agnostic at heart but that could have totally been her presence, she could still be watching over you, that would not surprise me at all...if they continue to another dimension, its possible some decide to stay and watch over their families, or is possible they can come in and out and move around in different dimensions once the body is gone.

posted September 16, 2023 09:45 PM            

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Originally posted by vansio:
http://youtube.com/qFLhGq0060w

[b]VENUS RETROGRADE DATES IN THE YEAR 2023:

• On June 19, 2023, Venus enters the Retrograde Zone (pre-retrograde shadow) at 12° Leo 12′

• On July 22, 2023, Venus stations and turns retrograde at 28° Leo 36′ Rx

• On September 3, 2023, Venus stations and turns direct at 12° Leo 12′

• On October 7, 2023, Venus leaves the Retrograde Zone (post-retrograde shadow) at 28° Leo 36′[/B]

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Is just so strange, it blows my mind just how much this venus retrograde journey has impacted my life as someone with venus conjunct mars in leo ruling my IC/MC and 5th house.

Like June 19th was the day after father's day and I went to see my parents and that was the last time I spent time with my mom before her health started to decline rapidly and VENUS in LEO was at 12 degrees during the pre-retrograde shadow opposing her VENUS exact

Then I saw her last at the hospital and she passed while VENUS was retro in LEO at 12 degrees opposing her VENUS.

Then when venus conjuncted my venus exact so during my venus return during the pre-retrograde shadow phase my partner and I made the decision to move in together.

Then the week that VENUS turned direct he moved in officially full time while I was in FL still.

We are having a lot difficulties since I got back, it has been very challenging and our relationship is being tested heavily right now in the middle of me going through this loss and while I am grieving and I have given him till the end of the month to decide if he wants to really do this and stay or move out. I am just noticing that at the end of the month I will again have my venus return which will coincide with when we decided initially to move in together!

My ex whose chart ruler is venus in leo at 25 degrees has also being going through all kinds of stuff and crisis and has been impacted as well a lot by this venus retrograde transit square uranus; he is experiencing a ton of disruption too.

Thanks for making this thread and breaking down in detail the venus retrograde journey.

posted September 17, 2023 01:09 AM            

I read your other words on this thread as well and I was curious to see whether this start of a relationship would survive. It reminded me of a movie I saw like decades ago which made a huge impression. The big message in it was that if a relative (mon/dad/sibling) is coming to pass or their health is coming to a very critical point this will make any (start of a) relationship next to impossible to exist or develop. In the movie it was as well a relationship at the start of moving in together. It broke .. there was no room for someone else. I think the chosen timing for moving-in together (in that movie) wasn't lightly taken, as I would consider it the most primary moment to deeply correspond to one another. It's something you don't want to miss. It's like planting a seed with care, giving her all the attention she needs to let her fully blossem. Hope that makes sense a bit.

posted September 17, 2023 01:01 PM            

My room has been shaping up since this transit. I take all my romantic physical frustration into cleaning and rearranging. LOL

posted September 17, 2023 04:24 PM            

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Originally posted by mir:
------------- We are having a lot difficulties since I got back, it has been very challenging and our relationship is being tested heavily right now in the middle of me going through this loss and while I am grieving and I have given him till the end of the month to decide if he wants to really do this and stay or move out.-------------

I read your other words on this thread as well and I was curious to see whether this start of a relationship would survive. It reminded me of a movie I saw like decades ago which made a huge impression. The big message in it was that if a relative (mon/dad/sibling) is coming to pass or their health is coming to a very critical point this will make any (start of a) relationship next to impossible to exist or develop. In the movie it was as well a relationship at the start of moving in together. It broke .. there was no room for someone else. I think the chosen timing for moving-in together (in that movie) wasn't lightly taken, as I would consider it the most primary moment to deeply correspond to one another. It's something you don't want to miss. It's like planting a seed with care, giving her all the attention she needs to let her fully blossem. Hope that makes sense a bit.

I can't find the movie anymore. I tried I searched... I did everything to get back to it. but nope. It was spanish or portuguese I believe...

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Thank you Mir for taking the time to share this with me

This relationship has had saturn on our ass from the start, first through my chart opposing my venus and mars and squaring his moon and our composite/davison IC, in fact saturn was on our composite ascendant activating all our angles when we met, now saturn is opposing our composite and davison venus conjunct mars in the 7th and next year it will oppose both of our DC rulers....add he has an avoidant attachment style to the mix and a bunch of other things...

It just has been hard, I have had to fight every step of the way for this relationship to move forward bc all the barriers causing delays/blocks and his attachment issues; honestly is incredible we made it this long but I think you are right, I don't think we are going to survive this, I just never could have predicted that I would be that person that would move in with someone and for it to fall apart immediately.

I am at awed at how deeply transits have impacted my life this year, my toxic positivity would never let me see this coming.

I literally met him the month I saw my mom after not having been able to see her for several years bc of covid and I was at the airport crying silently thinking of her bc I was in shock at how much her health had declined so yes us meeting coincided with me reuniting with my mom post covid and learning her health was declining in a way that we did not understand fully yet then. Then come a little over a year since then and her health starts to rapidly decline around when we decided to take the next step in our relationship and move in together and then she dies the day before he officially moves in full time with me while I am in FL and I come back and I think his avoidant attachment style is acting up and clashing with my need for support right now and we are both handling our conflict we had very poorly but he is putting it all on me when he is just as much to blame.

I do think we are done and thank you for sharing this, basically I am planning on breaking the lease this week as they need two months notice so I would be moving to FL in November but lord not looking forward to living with him in the meantime, that is going to be hard. I have given him the heads up so unless he starts acting again like he wants to be with me I am moving forward with this. It will disrupt my practice to some extent as I work on getting my FL license and will only be able to see clients virtually and will need to refer out my face to face clients which sucks.

I really wanted this to work despite my internal conflict around wanting to move to FL to be close to my family and I will be grieving two losses but I am turning 40 this week, I am not 19 and can grieve, let go, accept and move on which is something back then I did not know how to do (in reference to romantic love, will always grief for my mom naturally).

posted September 21, 2023 05:14 PM            

He’s apparently holding the children’s passports, and not sending them to their mum, Sophie, in England. Some guy was in the replies stating that’s Florida law, it isn’t his fault. He filed in Florida… he’s in NYC with the kids.

posted September 22, 2023 03:39 AM            

He is being a good partner and really did fight for me when I kept pushing him away but also held me accountable, he got me a bunch of crystals a few days before my birthdate and this real nice scarf. He set up these two plant furniture stands I got us and it looks great in our space

Ted Lasso — “I hope that either all of us or none of us are judged by the actions of our weakest moments, but rather by the strength we show when and if we're given a second chance”

So yes it looks like my venus return will indeed honor our decision we made to move in together and it going retro led to challenges and obstacles but we worked through it and the decision will stick.

Going to the mind, body spirit expo tomorrow and will get a psychic reading from a medium and see if I get a message from my mother and just get some energy work done and do some self care on my spirit. After I will get my nails done and after I will go check out a tattoo place with Scott.

Will be getting my first tattoo this 40th bday and it will be this but probably just black ink and perhaps the sun will be a nice light yellow: