posted September 11, 2025 12:16 PM            

Uranus passed over my natal Venus (28TAU53) in recent months on its way towards natal Mars (5GEM31).

In-between, Uranus opposed natal Neptune (00SAG09) and made a quincunx to natal Jupiter (00SCO26).

Of course, there are outward experiences like my social life opening up a bit and being more spontaneous. Obvious synchronicities are a wonderful affirmation from the Universe that we are not only connected but loved and appreciated, even by those we have not yet met. Meeting them becomes the manifestation of that love, as my new friend Paul has been (perhaps for the both of us). He's a retired musician, lover of the shall we say 'herb' and an old hippy who has learned to appreciate Mexican music and schools me on who's who in that world.

That's been an example of the pleasant side of the Uranus to natal Venus conjunction. I'd lost a couple close friends in the last several years. It's good to have a new one.

But the healing continues, and we humans often make that more difficult than it needs to be -- mostly because the human modeling we had growing up and the negative belief systems we formed. So as I have moved deeper into my use of sound healing (tuning forks, Biofield Tuning), I am in one of those lulls of melancholic low energy, low enthusiasm ambivalence.

It feels as if it is part grief, part pessimism, part concealed resentment, part stubborn self-protection for any moment when something new may be asked of me. But that is only the request of my Soul to be more of what I really am.

It comes with confusion, which is the cognitive dissonance when old beliefs (I'm not healthy, I'm not capable, etc) clash with new ideals and aspirations.

Uranus opposite (in tension with) natal Neptune can time delusion if one is not willing to face Truth and craft one's own ideals. Or it can reveal the cognitive dissonance between transcendent learning towards liberation (Uranus) and the old, deeper beliefs one is invested in, no matter how untrue they may be (natal Neptune).

Building more beliefs on top of and in step with those old untruths would create delusions and illusions.

The mind is a powerful thing. We are constantly creating our reality with our consciousness. We mine the past to do it, even though there is no such thing as the 'past' since all time exists simultaneously. We too often collaborate with the linear illusion by turning it against ourselves and denying our own power.

As Uranus inched towards natal Mars, I could feel the energy, expansiveness, adventure, and confidence building inside me. I also experienced interruptions of this from negative beliefs I have identified but not yet fully released. I am releasing them. I am replacing them (I am healthy, I am capable).

Mars in its pure form is energy, passion, 'I can' -- direct action without compulsion.

Uranus's transit to it is not only releasing this, but also every belief I have attached to its energies for me to put into action and view objectively. Is this who I want to be? Is this what my Soul really is?

Choices. Decisions.

No one grows without seeing Choices available. We make choices all the time. Do we want to play tetherball with our free will and pretend it will only take us around and around without prescribed circles?

No one detoxifies without making decisions. Its mostly the decision to release what does not actually feel good, which we have retained simply to feel a sense of power in relation to other humans (who were not harmonizing with Soul/Spirit).

Within the anger, hate, and violence of a toxic martial energy is a structure of negative belief holding those feelings in place.

What would I need to believe in order to be feeling this way?

The person who feels powerless has been through an experience in which they concluded 'I am not allowed to use my power' or 'I'm not powerful.'

Power is simply the freedom to make any choice and be okay learning through the consequences of that choice. Power is knowing that you can benefit from any circumstance, no matter what happens.

When we block our power, a secondary layer of fear presents itself on the social level. 'What would they think?' ... 'What would they say?' Irrelevancies in an anxious mode to protect ourselves (from scorn, judgment, etc).

I am seeing more clearly now than ever that when we fully release all judgment, we are no longer affected by others' judgment. Judgment only affects us if we are retaining the right, even the need, to judge.

And so the cycle continues. The circle of finger pointing and blame casting in which no one is healing from this very same stuff done to us. It is a circle of denial.

A waste of life.

Life is the Spirit of Love-Joy-Peace. No matter the funhouse of mirrors I've built inside myself to keep Truth at bay, I will remain focused on this Truth.

My negative attitudes towards others are attitudes I hold towards myself. They are self-loathings I project onto , the them'. The sour notes I play that spoil our orchestration.

There are days when even speaking "I love ..." seems laborious. Some stone-like heaviness, stiffness returns, but must be regarded as illusion. An illusion I created, but shelved in some closet of despair. It is as if some mornings we zombie awake and enter that closet to put on the costume of heavy oppression and give no signal that love is allowed here. Some part of us insisting on a funeral procession for what never was.

Not today.

I can put a lock on that closet. Or I can remodel it into something that is a special place of 'pause' for when I'm not ready to return to usual activities or even optimism. I can go there to find out what I'm really feeling -- and why. I can craft it as I wish. What comforts are there? What toys? What pleasing memories or images? What reassurance can I give as a gift to myself?

Any choice for growth or freedom is better than hoping it will fall in my lap.

Any use of my creativity is a use of my power.

If I want love, if I want liberation, I must create them one particle at a time.

posted September 11, 2025 12:33 PM            

There is a smooth green field, a baseball diamond, surrounded by a forest of tall evergreens. Someone appears to play catch with me and I can throw the ball with ease. I can throw it at any arm angle comfortably until I am done.

My dog shows up to snuggle in my lap when I'm done.

Yes, this is an escape. But it gives me clues as to a time of my life that needs healing -- around age 14, the last year I played baseball. It was an escape for me then, but I went through three ankle sprains and tore up the shoulder of my throwing arm (right). I felt compelled to keep throwing the ball at that thick slice of red oak against the fence in the backyard.

In my healing closet ... I am capable and don't need to force it. I can just play for fun and then rest and relax.

Playing is for fun. I thought playing was for proving myself.

It was always just for fun.

My dog is there with me because he knows that.

posted September 11, 2025 02:36 PM            

I have used the Deep Liver Cleanse a few times since June. This month I've moved on to the Kidney Cleanse. It goes a lot deeper.

There are a lot to choose from, depending on your needs. Eileen McKusick is the author of the manual on Biofield Tuning (sound healing with tuning forks) and uses the tuning forks as essentially biofeedback devices to pick up various dissonant tones/emotions -- and also as harmonizing tools to get us back into coherence.

[img]https://biofieldtuningstore.com/cdn/shop/files/tuning-the-human-biofield-sound-healing-book.jpg?v=1749757557&width=900[/img]

posted September 11, 2025 02:37 PM            

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Originally posted by Aries23Degrees:
Hi Kannon. Long time, no read🙌🏿

It sounds like Uranus has had a wonderful and positive impact on you.😎

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Howdy , Aries23.

posted September 12, 2025 05:39 AM            

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Originally posted by Kannon McAfee:
I have used the Deep Liver Cleanse a few times since June.

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Have you tried TUDCA? its a powerful natural supplement that regenerates liver cells and helps bile flow. http://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC12024728/
Tauroursodeoxycholic Acid Induces Liver Regeneration and Alleviates Fibrosis Through GATA3 Activation 2025 study

posted September 12, 2025 01:52 PM            

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Originally posted by ThunderSword:
Welcome back Kannon

Have you tried TUDCA? its a powerful natural supplement that regenerates liver cells and helps bile flow. http://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC12024728/
Tauroursodeoxycholic Acid Induces Liver Regeneration and Alleviates Fibrosis Through GATA3 Activation 2025 study

I saw your posts on reddit Antipsychiatry and just want to say you're a noble soul.

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Very kind of you to say, ThunderSword. Thank you.

posted September 12, 2025 01:56 PM            

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Originally posted by Eternal Energy:
Welcome back. You have been greatly missed.

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Thank you, Eternal Energy. That's very sweet of you.

posted September 12, 2025 02:07 PM            

I don't pay a lot of attention to transits these days, but an eclipse across my Asc/DC does frame up a shift in perspective. Becoming more receptive to others and more interested in service than I may have been in a while.

Healing the body. Healing Consciousness.

Reading again a book about my namesake, Kwan Yin.

Seeing the stark contrast between the attitudes I take towards certain people in my surroundings and the compassion I desire to embody.

Old, irrelevant beliefs and fears getting in the way until they are released. I am releasing them. I am patient with myself.

posted September 12, 2025 02:11 PM            

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Originally posted by Kannon McAfee:
Recent Lunar Eclipse at 15° Pisces was right on my DC.

I don't pay a lot of attention to transits these days, but an eclipse across my Asc/DC does frame up a shift in perspective. Becoming more receptive to others and more interested in service than I may have been in a while.

Healing the body. Healing Consciousness.

Reading again a book about my namesake, Kwan Yin.

Seeing the stark contrast between the attitudes I take towards certain people in my surroundings and the compassion I desire to embody.

Old, irrelevant beliefs and fears getting in the way until they are released. I am releasing them. I am patient with myself.

Judgment is just fear striking out with a pretension of certainty.

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posted September 15, 2025 04:00 PM            

I took a walk into the sunset and released the anger to Spirit. Last year I'd been doing this more with various emotions, but especially anger. Then, gradually, I lapsed.

Prayers of surrender of those things that are not truly who we are -- they are always heard. We always have help from Spirit.

After that walk, I was able to get perspective and realize that I'd not been seeing things proportionally. I was able to let go of the irrational reaction.

Once I uproot the negative belief(s) beneath these kinds of reactions, they'll never happen again.

It occurred to me today that the transit of Uranus conjunct natal Mars can mark a window of opportunity for freedom from anger.

posted September 17, 2025 05:32 PM            

I woke from a dream this morning in which I was a journalist who was shot by someone paid to kill me. WW3 had broken out and the seas were full of ships fighting. The man who shot me was immediately also shot and fell beside me, weapon still in hand. I lay immobile, in fear of him finishing me off.

I made it to a hospital to recover. I told the nurses I wanted to go home to my family to recuperate so I could eventually continue my work. They told me that my parents were dead and so was most of my family.

I collapsed forward onto a table and let out an awful sound I have never heard in real waking life, a movie, or another dream. Words like "mourning", "grieving", "wailing", or "keening" can't even touch it. It was a horrible sound that I cannot even describe.

I woke knowing that war is hell and we can prevent it.

We are each responsible for any part we play in making enemies and escalating conflicts.

We are each responsible for our own thoughts and judgments of those we dislike or disagree with.

Many of us need to be more honest with ourselves about our own investment in and support of partisan conflict. Many of us are not being honest with ourselves about the decades of hate, judgment, and resentment behind our votes, politics, and beliefs. Some beliefs are inherently judgmental.

It is time for a deeper personal examination of how we characterize others or turn them into enemies, deciding they are "the problem."

Wishing for or celebrating anyone's death reveals a murderer within you -- but that is not who you really are.

It is delusion that we can eliminate someone else or some group or type of person with no consequences to ourselves.

A fear-based desire for control quickly turns to hate. We are responsible for how we deal with fear -- and any hate we generate from it.

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"Hate cannot drive out hate; only love can do that."
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Blaming is a distraction from our power. We each have the power to make a better world through kindness and beauty -- no matter what others are doing.

Justifying worsening rhetoric because of what others may be doing is truly the road to hell.

What others are doing (or intending) never takes away our power to be kind and treat all persons equally and humanely.

It is a choice to be hateful. It is a choice to make enemies.

It is a choice to be a person of peace.

Many of us still have not chosen Love as our Power. Instead, many still live with power separated from love in our consciousness. Remain loving, you might be seen as weak. Choose power and not only will people respect (or fear) you, but you get to decide how things are done.

Delusion.

Domination always creates a response, a consequence to ourselves. And that is the endless game of extreme partisan politics: the delusion that one side can permanently defeat the other, which inevitably leads to violence.

The US is flirting with civil war.

Don't be part of the reason it happens.

Be part of the reason it doesn't.

We choose.

We either carry our True Light forward or we attempt to dowse the Light of others. Some of us are holding beliefs that justify the latter.

It is time we each be more honest with ourselves.

posted September 20, 2025 05:39 PM            

Can't hide anger issues during major transits of Jupiter or Uranus to natal Mars.

Jupiter's recent declination (now 21N47) makes it parallel my natal Mars (21N55). Its as if triggering circumstances or encounters are around every corner for me.

In reality, my own internal issues are getting closer and closer to the surface. I'm getting less and less willing to suppress any emotional energies at all.

I lived too long suppressing martial energies. I think it is part of what caused the chronic fatigue and low energy I had for a decade (1995-2005). People that suppress anger are usually also suppressing motivation, passion, and energy.

The key is sifting out the root issue(s). And I don't mean who did what to me.

What is the belief/fear underneath it?

It is an ongoing healing process in which I become more energetically / vibrationally coherent. More like music and less like noise.

Liberation is the reward.

posted September 22, 2025 12:51 PM            

Good question.

In the last year, I've gradually come to realize that believing in myself has been a core issue for a long time. I've been good at faking it, so long as I had confidence in a narrow area of activity, but confidence is conditional. Believing in yourself is core.

I began seeing this much more clearly when I recently uncovered the beliefs 'I'm not healthy' and 'I'm not capable.' Those go back decades. So letting those go is the key. Those limiting, even self-defeating beliefs have long blocked or interfered with belief in myself.

So no, I haven't consistently felt it with every part of my being. I have for some moments and some days, but then it has lagged.

Thanks for asking the question and reminding me of how important this is.

I don't mind being open about this, because I already knew how widespread self-doubt and self-loathing is. I just didn't know how deeply rooted this kind of thing was in me.

posted September 22, 2025 03:17 PM            

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posted September 26, 2025 07:29 PM            

This gentle nudge back to love has reminded me of the help I got in spring of 2024 from Shaman Elizabeth Herrera. She taught me to do a regular meditation (at least weekly) in which the main objective is to allow the memories troubling me to surface, then release them to Spirit for healing. She taught me I can release to Spirit any emotion disturbing my peace (like anger). "Take it from me, I don't want it anymore."

My use of that healing prayer really turned things around for me in a matter of just a few weeks. I was having surges of love and my heart opening. One encounter on the street with a homeless person was a kind of mystical revelation in which I felt in my heart ... 'He is my brother.' It is one thing to believe that in your mind. It is another to really feel it. That's really believing.

So I have returned to this practice and feel I may need to do it even more often. Maybe daily.

I had to learn about self-sabotage early in learning this meditative prayerful approach to healing through releasing. Self-sabotage comes in the form of not being patient enough in the process. Not being insistent enough on the results: that I want to be a heartfelt, loving person.

Self-sabotage can also come as distractions. Too much doing, not enough observant quiet time.

Self-sabotage is generated subconsciously by the part of us that is protecting a past younger self from harm. It take persistence and patience to let it know that we're okay and it no longer needs to protect the self in that hyper-vigilant or disrupting way.

It comes from the part of us that doesn't want to heal because healing means change and change is the unknown that seems uncertain. We can reparent that inner child to know he is loved and okay. Hawaiian Ho'oponopono teacher, the late Dr. Hew Len did this guided meditation for just that purpose. I'm going to do it more often.

The future does not need to be certain or 'safe' to know we're okay. Our only certainty is in our eternal identity as souls essential to All-that-is, born in Love, not bound by bodies, space or time.