posted September 11, 2025 12:16 PM
A most interesting transit time for me. Uranus passing through the end of Taurus into Gemini.Uranus passed over my natal Venus (28TAU53) in recent months on its way towards natal Mars (5GEM31).
In-between, Uranus opposed natal Neptune (00SAG09) and made a quincunx to natal Jupiter (00SCO26).
Of course, there are outward experiences like my social life opening up a bit and being more spontaneous. Obvious synchronicities are a wonderful affirmation from the Universe that we are not only connected but loved and appreciated, even by those we have not yet met. Meeting them becomes the manifestation of that love, as my new friend Paul has been (perhaps for the both of us). He's a retired musician, lover of the shall we say 'herb' and an old hippy who has learned to appreciate Mexican music and schools me on who's who in that world.
That's been an example of the pleasant side of the Uranus to natal Venus conjunction. I'd lost a couple close friends in the last several years. It's good to have a new one.
But the healing continues, and we humans often make that more difficult than it needs to be -- mostly because the human modeling we had growing up and the negative belief systems we formed. So as I have moved deeper into my use of sound healing (tuning forks, Biofield Tuning), I am in one of those lulls of melancholic low energy, low enthusiasm ambivalence.
It feels as if it is part grief, part pessimism, part concealed resentment, part stubborn self-protection for any moment when something new may be asked of me. But that is only the request of my Soul to be more of what I really am.
It comes with confusion, which is the cognitive dissonance when old beliefs (I'm not healthy, I'm not capable, etc) clash with new ideals and aspirations.
Uranus opposite (in tension with) natal Neptune can time delusion if one is not willing to face Truth and craft one's own ideals. Or it can reveal the cognitive dissonance between transcendent learning towards liberation (Uranus) and the old, deeper beliefs one is invested in, no matter how untrue they may be (natal Neptune).
Building more beliefs on top of and in step with those old untruths would create delusions and illusions.
The mind is a powerful thing. We are constantly creating our reality with our consciousness. We mine the past to do it, even though there is no such thing as the 'past' since all time exists simultaneously. We too often collaborate with the linear illusion by turning it against ourselves and denying our own power.
As Uranus inched towards natal Mars, I could feel the energy, expansiveness, adventure, and confidence building inside me. I also experienced interruptions of this from negative beliefs I have identified but not yet fully released. I am releasing them. I am replacing them (I am healthy, I am capable).
Mars in its pure form is energy, passion, 'I can' -- direct action without compulsion.
Uranus's transit to it is not only releasing this, but also every belief I have attached to its energies for me to put into action and view objectively. Is this who I want to be? Is this what my Soul really is?
Choices. Decisions.
No one grows without seeing Choices available. We make choices all the time. Do we want to play tetherball with our free will and pretend it will only take us around and around without prescribed circles?
No one detoxifies without making decisions. Its mostly the decision to release what does not actually feel good, which we have retained simply to feel a sense of power in relation to other humans (who were not harmonizing with Soul/Spirit).
Within the anger, hate, and violence of a toxic martial energy is a structure of negative belief holding those feelings in place.
What would I need to believe in order to be feeling this way?
The person who feels powerless has been through an experience in which they concluded 'I am not allowed to use my power' or 'I'm not powerful.'
Power is simply the freedom to make any choice and be okay learning through the consequences of that choice. Power is knowing that you can benefit from any circumstance, no matter what happens.
When we block our power, a secondary layer of fear presents itself on the social level. 'What would they think?' ... 'What would they say?' Irrelevancies in an anxious mode to protect ourselves (from scorn, judgment, etc).
I am seeing more clearly now than ever that when we fully release all judgment, we are no longer affected by others' judgment. Judgment only affects us if we are retaining the right, even the need, to judge.
And so the cycle continues. The circle of finger pointing and blame casting in which no one is healing from this very same stuff done to us. It is a circle of denial.
A waste of life.
Life is the Spirit of Love-Joy-Peace. No matter the funhouse of mirrors I've built inside myself to keep Truth at bay, I will remain focused on this Truth.
My negative attitudes towards others are attitudes I hold towards myself. They are self-loathings I project onto , the them'. The sour notes I play that spoil our orchestration.
There are days when even speaking "I love ..." seems laborious. Some stone-like heaviness, stiffness returns, but must be regarded as illusion. An illusion I created, but shelved in some closet of despair. It is as if some mornings we zombie awake and enter that closet to put on the costume of heavy oppression and give no signal that love is allowed here. Some part of us insisting on a funeral procession for what never was.
Not today.
I can put a lock on that closet. Or I can remodel it into something that is a special place of 'pause' for when I'm not ready to return to usual activities or even optimism. I can go there to find out what I'm really feeling -- and why. I can craft it as I wish. What comforts are there? What toys? What pleasing memories or images? What reassurance can I give as a gift to myself?
Any choice for growth or freedom is better than hoping it will fall in my lap.
Any use of my creativity is a use of my power.
If I want love, if I want liberation, I must create them one particle at a time.
Lindaland
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posted September 11, 2025 12:16 PM
, Aries23. 
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