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Topic: Is it my fate to be a cold detached Aqua moon?
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SoulOfABird
Knowflake Posts: 1264
From: California
Registered: Sep 2017
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posted December 08, 2025 04:18 AM
  
This is something I’ve been meaning to get off my chest. It’s something that has been aching me for a while. And it seems the more I get into astrology the more I feel awful about myself. I hate having an Aqua moon. Every description of the moon placement in my chart doesn’t resonate with me. Looking at my moon placements ppl say I should be detached, intellectual, analytical, etc. that has never resonated with me, even as a child. I was highly sensitive and emotional as a child. I would cry watching films, I was very in touch with my emotions to the point I felt like the world around me was too harsh. I never tried to detach from my emotions. I feel quite intuitive and able to read emotions cues. I feel like my inner world isn’t “Aquarian” in the way my chart reads. And honestly over time it has made me feel more confused. I try to take what resonates but it’s hard because then so start to doubt myself and feel like maybe I don’t really know myself? That’s a scary feeling. Now it feels like I’m becoming psychosomatic, my emotions are blurring and now I’m not sure what I’m feeling anymore. It could be because I’ve been on anti depressants for 10 years straight. But I just feel very lost. And I’m starting to wonder what if it is true? Am I really detached? Am I not capable of strong bonds and feeling everything? I don’t want to live like that. For the record, I have never been told I was detached or cold by anyone who knows me. But still, I can’t help but be afraid that maybe my own experience of myself has been a lie? I know it’s important to have boundaries but I also want to be there for loved ones and understand everybody. And I feel like I’m being told I don’t feel enough, even when I feel I do. What my chart is saying is contradicting what I feel.I’m actually becoming depressed from it because I feel helpless. It terrifies me to believe the possibility that I don’t feel like everyone else, even when I feel like that’s not the case. I don’t want my fate to be like this  I’m becoming more and more unsure of myself and I’m really hoping there is some sort of silver lining in my chart
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girlwiththerainysoul
Knowflake Posts: 3079
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Registered: Jul 2016
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posted December 08, 2025 11:53 AM
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Originally posted by SoulOfABird:
And I feel like I’m being told I don’t feel enough, even when I feel I do.
Excuse me for intruding, but who is telling you that? It seems to me you're okay with who you are, but when you weigh it against outer standards, that is what is causing worry for you. You're an Aqua rising and moon and Pisces Sun. You can be both emotional and understanding and detached. And nobody should really get to tell you how to feel or be. IP: Logged |
SoulOfABird
Knowflake Posts: 1264
From: California
Registered: Sep 2017
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posted December 08, 2025 12:50 PM
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Originally posted by girlwiththerainysoul:
Excuse me for intruding, but who is telling you that?It seems to me you're okay with who you are, but when you weigh it against outer standards, that is what is causing worry for you. You're an Aqua rising and moon and Pisces Sun. You can be both emotional and understanding and detached. And nobody should really get to tell you how to feel or be.
Honestly it’s more of myself telling me this. Because ppl who look at my chart and see Aqua moon, or just Aqua moon descriptions in general describing processing and feeling emotions in a way that I don’t resonate with, so it starts to make me worry. Am I cold and I didn’t know I was? Am I detached? Even if I didn’t feel like I was, I start to believe it. It doesn’t help that I have ocd, and it’s causing me great pain. Because I’m afraid I’m secretly unfeeling or something. It can be any situation happening like somebody telling me something sad, and I worry about how I respond. It didn’t used to be this way, it has gotten worse to the point where I don’t want to watch television anymore and I’m losing my appetite. I guess I hone in on all the Aqua moon descriptions and peoples own experiences with it. I feel like it’s telling me I’m unfeeling or don’t feel as much as others do. Even when I didn’t ever think that before. It’s because my own inner experience doesn’t match up with what astrology says I feel like I must be wrong and don’t know myself.
I felt afraid to talk about this because I figured ppl will just tell me it’s my “Pisces ego” and that I need to just accept who I “truly am” or it’s my “fate”. I fear being secretly a bad person.
The only reason why I made this post is because it’s taking a toll on my mental health. I don’t have a good therapist and can’t afford a good one. And the root of this is my astrology chart. So I was hoping there is some silver lining that I’m not doomed to be some detached person incapable of deep humans relationships IP: Logged | |
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