posted October 01, 2010 08:50 PM         

The Language of Emotions: What Your Feelings Are Trying to Tell You

by Karla McLaren

This was from the Suicidal Urges chapter. The Depression one was the other one I read, which was equally helpful.

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"Suicidal urges come forward when the difference between who you are in your deepest self and who youve become in this world of distractions and trauma is so extreme that it can no longer be tolerated. Suicidal urges are an emergencey message from lost parts of your psyche - parts that are in real danger of soul death in your current situation. If you can understand that the primal intelligence inside of you is and always will be dedicated to your survival and your wholeness, you'll be able to view your urge to suicide in a mythological and sacred way instead of treating it as a literal wish for physical death.

Suicidal urges arent literal death-wishes, they are actually the last resort of a soul lin torment. Suicidal urges arise ofter your fears have thoroughly destabilized you and become overwhelmed, and youve fallen into one endangering situation after another; after your angers have been crushed and your boundaries have been trampled, aftger youve been sepereated from your sadness and your grief and have fallen into unrelenting despair. Suicidal urgers arise after sever traumas have thrown you back and forth between the first two stages if traumatic initiaton so many times that youve become exhaused by loss after years of dissasociation, distraction, avoidance and addiction, and after shocks so profound that you can barely remember what normal life feelis like.

Your suicidal urges arise when you need enough energy to wrench yourself bodily, emotionally, psychologically and spiritually out of a situation that is killing you already.

Suicidal urges are your last defense, which is why they carry such intensity.

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This was like a breath of fresh air. I'm sending a copy to my therapist when I am able to. I think he needs to read it. She goes into the real root of these urges more in the chapter and she has been there herself. I havent read such a view on this before and it really helped me to look at depression and things of this nature in a brand new light. A hopeful and constructive light. It might be of great benefit to many people here.

posted October 01, 2010 08:59 PM         

LEXX, I was thinking of you and and your husband when I typed the above exerpt and was about to make a post to you, if you were reading - maybe it would help him. How is he doing? I will have to check your string in LC when I have more computer time. Thank you for listening and your prayers too. Big hugs back to you. I know you understand and that is a comfort. I'm hoping things get better for you both as well and thank you.

posted October 01, 2010 08:59 PM         

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"Suicidal urges come forward when the difference between who you are in your deepest self and who youve become in this world of distractions and trauma is so extreme that it can no longer be tolerated. Suicidal urges are an emergencey message from lost parts of your psyche - parts that are in real danger of soul death in your current situation. If you can understand that the primal intelligence inside of you is and always will be dedicated to your survival and your wholeness, you'll be able to view your urge to suicide in a mythological and sacred way instead of treating it as a literal wish for physical death.

Suicidal urges arent literal death-wishes, they are actually the last resort of a soul lin torment. Suicidal urges arise ofter your fears have thoroughly destabilized you and become overwhelmed, and youve fallen into one endangering situation after another; after your angers have been crushed and your boundaries have been trampled, aftger youve been sepereated from your sadness and your grief and have fallen into unrelenting despair. Suicidal urgers arise after sever traumas have thrown you back and forth between the first two stages if traumatic initiaton so many times that youve become exhaused by loss after years of dissasociation, distraction, avoidance and addiction, and after shocks so profound that you can barely remember what normal life feelis like.

Your suicidal urges arise when you need enough energy to wrench yourself bodily, emotionally, psychologically and spiritually out of a situation that is killing you already.

Suicidal urges are your last defense, which is why they carry such intensity.

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posted October 01, 2010 09:13 PM         

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LEXX, I was thinking of you and and your husband when I typed the above exerpt and was about to make a post to you, if you were reading - maybe it would help him.

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How is he doing?

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I will have to check your string in LC when I have more computer time.

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Thank you for listening and your prayers too. Big hugs back to you. I know you understand and that is a comfort. I'm hoping things get better for you both as well and thank you.

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I'm out of computer time now but will check in soon.

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posted October 01, 2010 10:57 PM         

I empathize with you because I am probably at the same place too. We might've gone through different experiences and the light at the end of the tunnel might manifest itself differently, but I am on the same boat. Just an hour ago, I got onto my knees and started giving thanks out loud. I thanked the Creator, my guides, Christ consciousness, a few Lords of Karma, I thanked the Earth... I was just thanking everything and everyone including myself that I am no longer hopeless. I am no longer getting suicidal urges. I am no longer in turmoil, doubt, fear and no longer in a state that I hate to be. I am finally happy. My life is not yet perfect, but the Universe just opened up and my blessing started streaming in. I don't know if it is a fleeting thing or a start of a new and better life, but just like you, I said that I will NEVER give up, and that I get my happiness or due trying.

That's why reading your post is like something I would have written.

posted October 02, 2010 09:24 AM         

Sending lots of love and big squeeeezy {{{ hugs }}} and wishing you thousands more breaths of fresh air - this poor planet needs you, your amazing spirit and your incredible creativity, and YOU need you, aligned and beaming your special light out

posted October 02, 2010 11:12 AM         

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What we do for ourselves dies with us. What we do for others and the world is immortal"~

posted October 02, 2010 11:29 AM         

Are there any shelter's for women nearby that you could at least have one night in a bed?

I will keep you close until you are better.

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We justify ourselves each time we take a breath...

posted October 02, 2010 11:52 AM         

Peri, Spanky, kat, thank you.

Lara, that is extremely kind of you. As i explained above, i dont need help right now. I'll be able to get a hotel room here and there after this week to shower and have a normal night's sleep. I'll be able to pull through this and soon be on the road to a new lifestyle hopefully very soon. Again, thank you very much. All the best to you.

Zala, thank you

Juni & Abs thanks, i will check email later on.

Please guys, i dont want anyone's help except maybe keep me in your thoughts and prayers and hope that things continue to get better.

I will not accept monetary help, but the offers are very much appreciated. I am not that desperate right now. I have shelter, though not a typical roof, it's shelter. I have money for food and gas. Money will be coming in to help me out of this, so everything will be okay.

posted October 02, 2010 02:41 PM         

I think the second one is a keeper, if I may say...

posted October 02, 2010 07:35 PM         

Your situation will improve You're in my thoughts.Much love and blessings

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"What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies with in us."
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